nikita lynn

5'1 || hw: 149 || sw: 145 || cw: 120.4 || gw: 110

[pure-jasmin-tea]

This time this is for real.

This time I will get SKINNY.

I’m not gonna get ‘not that fat’ and leave it there and go back to binging.

This time is different. This time I will get to my UGW.

This time I will be the hot girl everyone wants and I will be the one chosing who I want to be with.

This time I will make them worry.

This time I will have a skinny summer and skinny memories and amazing pictures.

This time

[fondle-my-bones-blog]

May will be the month of an incredible weight loss and a fabulous transformation 🌷

[latenightloserr]

friends+family: hey what do you want for your birthday ?

my fat ass: food

also my fat ass: thin wrists, a small waist, a thigh gap, thin arms, dainty hands/fingers, prominent collarbones, sharp shoulders, a sharp ass jawline, nice cheekbones, etc.

[emaciatedness]

reminder:

eating is going to make you feel guilty, bloated, fat.

if you want flavour, just drink some tea

[pure-and-starving]

Stomach *grumbles*: feed me

Me: what a noise! :)

Stomach: WHAT THE FUCK IM HUNGRY!

Me: tEa?

Stomach:FOOD!

Me: WaTer¿

*floods stomach*

[lightasdust]

Please never do this

Please never tell someone who’s opening up about their ed that “everyone feels insecure about their bodies sometimes”.

You’re basically telling us that the only thing that we experience on a daily basis is something common. You’re saying that our mental illness is nothing serious. But it is. We wake up only to weight ourselves. We struggle around food. We cry ourselves to sleep at night. This is not something normal people experience from time to time.

Please, don’t trivialize our problems.

[dankmemecentral1]

[to-be-dead-or-to-be-deactivated]

Me: *looks in the mirror*

Me: oh, it’s you

Me: I thought you were dead

[wanna-be-skinny-baby]

❤New Diet❤

Hi! Look who’s back! This mistake is!!!! And I’m back with a new diet. This week has been hell for me so I need to start fresh and get control.

So starting tomorrow I’ll be doing The Top Model Diet!

So yea, I’ll be following the rules (besides #2 and #3) and try to eat the amount of cal per or less! I’ll also be doing daily blog for progress so pls help me stay motivated and thank you for support.

[lovelylittlewintergirl]

~Thinspo~

[bones-n-veins]

Reblog

If you know the struggle of having an eating disorder while living in the same house as your parents.

[tearsnhiddenbonez]

Friend: *Eating grilled chicken sandwich and gluten free brownie* Oh my god this diet i’m on is killing me, how am I supposed to survive off 1,500 cals per day???

Me: *chokes on black coffee*

[sadskinnyana]

Personal thinspo

things I’m looking forward to experiencing again (based on my past experience):

a defined face

hipbones

seeing my bone structure

bony “angel wings”

no more baby cheeks

a prettier, more proportional face

narrow waist

slender fingers

an enormous thigh gap

perfect long legs

dropping from a DD to an A/B so that I can go braless and bralettes are comfy

running my hands across my bones

a prominent bony breastplate

collarbones that could collect rainwater

freckles settling in on my bonier face

makeup looking more flattering

my hair framing my bonier face

wearing my bodycon and shape framing dresses

wearing super tiny-waist skirts

lifting up a loose shirt or sweater to see my ultra skinny body

my boyfriend jeans hanging off loosely

fitting in only the smallest of sizes

wearing my hair up without worrying about how my face is framed

bloating after eating no longer makes me look 6 months pregnant

shutting up anyone who thinks or tells me i look fat

being prettier

skinny arms

perfect manicures on my slender nails

shopping for food doesn’t make me embarassed because I’m skinny

occasionally getting “junk food” isn’t embarassing

qualifying for modeling if i wanted to

being stopped on the street and told I’m pretty

my favorite clothes fits me flawlessly

one less problem to worry about

everything fits me

wearing white & light colored jeans without it looking grotesque

wearing shorts knowing they actually flatter me

wearing belts with everything to keep it on me

clothes being too big on me

a sense of accomplishment and pride

fitting into my aesthetic

my bones peeping out

people mistaking me for a model

walking around a beach without shame

knowing i scare people with how perfectly skinny I am and how little I weigh for my height

not being embarassed to change in front of someone

not embarassed to get a massage (unless they comment “you’re too bony”)

not shy of the camera

traveling is more fun

being able to go to restaurants from time to time or pick special days when i can actually eat what I’d like to or try new food

saving a ton of money on food & spending it on other cooler things like traveling or clothes

being light enough that if someone tries to pick me up or give me a piggyback ride, I’m lighter than they expect & thus not embarassed

being more awake even when tired bc I’m always hungry

less surface area to shave

occupying less area in general

being able to not eat for long periods of time

walking around in lingerie without being embarassed

surprising people who havent seen me in a long time with how much skinnier and prettier ive gotten

control over an aspect of my life

control over something that no one can mess with or take away from me

not sweating anymore unless its over 40 degrees C

looking skinny even in snow gear

being cold at night during summers so i can cuddle in a duvet or warm blanket like in the winter

bruising from things hitting my hipbone reminding me of how skinny i am

the power of saying no to food and starving myself

being my own thinspo and thinspo worthy

giving advice & feeling worthy of doing so

feeling worthy of my blog & of going on tumblr

holidays, family time & memories suddenly become so precious

people jealous of my successful weight loss

being a pro at walking bc my endurance from so much walking is really high

a walk to the shower is more fun bc my reflection is skinny

getting a pastry in a nice cafe is charming and appropriate, not laughable

being as skinny as a faerie or a nymph

[ax-cr]

I’m going into 2018 fat, but I’m sure as hell not leaving that way.

[lostallbraincells]

“Drop the food, drop the weight, drop the jaws”

[coldcashdivin3]

Why do I only feel pretty when I’m starving?

[ax-cr]

Vitamin tablets: take with food

Bitch you are my food.