carefully, i was going to live.

we’re just made of flecks of the heavens, spat out spit. canis | 25+ | they lakota

[vonclosen]

Canis

25+

Indigenous

Any pronouns. They/them is a safe bet.

18+ only. I am an adult and sometimes I talk about mature themes. Minors - I’m not your dad and I’m not responsible for your online experience. I will probably soft block you.

housekeeping and commission info under the cut

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Indigenous (Lakota) living in Ckuwaponahkik. IndigiQueer Intersex Dyke. Disabled. Artist and Academic (Native American Studies and Anthropology).

I like history, horror, dark sci-fi/fantasy and making OCs. I yap a lot but I'm also a very private person.

I talk a lot about Indigenous rights here, and am pro community education and open good-faith dialogue. Education is fun! 🌟

From River to Sea 🍉 & LandBack 🪶

Please consider donating to Maram and her family. She is only a year younger than myself, and living in an increasingly desperate situation.

I tag most common triggers upon direct request; DM or send an ask.

OP of BODE, feel free to ask about it.

You may also know me as:

mnikhowozu

deathmental

vonclosen

athusoss

frumentariae

I am a creative and enjoy fostering a sense of community in fan spaces! Please feel free to DM me or send asks. Community engagement is fun!

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Commission Info:

DM me here or on discord (@ gerardkeay) for inquiries!

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Some specific dni:

The usual baseline applies; I don’t want to be near people who associate with TERF, SWERF, or right-leaning ideologies. Additionally:

LGBTQ+ exclusionists (aphobes, panphobes, biphobes, truscum/transmedicalists etc.) or those promoting community infighting. We must unify and strive for intersectionality!

If you enjoy or support Twilight or Harry Potter. (I do not care how critically you do so; These are both fundamentally colonial projects that cause real tangible harm to real communities that I am a part of).

If you like cottagecore in any capacity. See why

Zionists and/or IDF & Israel sympathizers

MAPs or sympathizers, pro-consang, zoophiles. I will block you if you reblog or make art of minors in sexual situations.

I block liberally, usually it isn’t personal. I like to curate my online experience carefully :]

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Art usage rights:

You may use my art as icons/headers/sidebars provided that you clearly and directly show credit and are not in violation of the above DNI criteria. You may not use my art in any capacity, including commissioned work, if I have blocked you, or you have blocked me.

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[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[vonclosen]

I don't have much but I heard about your health! I want to try to donate when I get paid!

Please rest up and take care of yourself! 🫂❤️

hi, this is jj, canis’s partner. just using this ask to update everyone. he is recovering from a massive stroke. a significant part of the left side of his brain is, to put it very bluntly, dead. he is of course sleeping in the ICU but in the long term he will have lots of problems with the movement of his right side (he’s right handed) and speech. on top of intensive physical therapy he will be undergoing targeted immunotherapies. please visit the blog to see how you can further help.

[vonclosen]

I don't have much but I heard about your health! I want to try to donate when I get paid!

Please rest up and take care of yourself! 🫂❤️

hi, this is jj, canis’s partner. just using this ask to update everyone. he is recovering from a massive stroke. a significant part of the left side of his brain is, to put it very bluntly, dead. he is of course sleeping in the ICU but in the long term he will have lots of problems with the movement of his right side (he’s right handed) and speech. on top of intensive physical therapy he will be undergoing targeted immunotherapies. please visit the blog to see how you can further help.

[vonclosen]

I don't have much but I heard about your health! I want to try to donate when I get paid!

Please rest up and take care of yourself! 🫂❤️

hi, this is jj, canis’s partner. just using this ask to update everyone. he is recovering from a massive stroke. a significant part of the left side of his brain is, to put it very bluntly, dead. he is of course sleeping in the ICU but in the long term he will have lots of problems with the movement of his right side (he’s right handed) and speech. on top of intensive physical therapy he will be undergoing targeted immunotherapies. please visit the blog to see how you can further help.

[vonclosen]

I don't have much but I heard about your health! I want to try to donate when I get paid!

Please rest up and take care of yourself! 🫂❤️

hi, this is jj, canis’s partner. just using this ask to update everyone. he is recovering from a massive stroke. a significant part of the left side of his brain is, to put it very bluntly, dead. he is of course sleeping in the ICU but in the long term he will have lots of problems with the movement of his right side (he’s right handed) and speech. on top of intensive physical therapy he will be undergoing targeted immunotherapies. please visit the blog to see how you can further help.

[vonclosen]

I don't have much but I heard about your health! I want to try to donate when I get paid!

Please rest up and take care of yourself! 🫂❤️

hi, this is jj, canis’s partner. just using this ask to update everyone. he is recovering from a massive stroke. a significant part of the left side of his brain is, to put it very bluntly, dead. he is of course sleeping in the ICU but in the long term he will have lots of problems with the movement of his right side (he’s right handed) and speech. on top of intensive physical therapy he will be undergoing targeted immunotherapies. please visit the blog to see how you can further help.

[vonclosen]

like it actually does not matter how leftist you are in your politics, if you are on native land (and i don’t just mean reserves or reservations. you know exactly what i mean.) and you are not listening to native people and doing the work to decolonize your own ideology and perspective on the world, if you are not making an effort to learn that colonialism of all forms is bad, it does not matter. you are still a settler. you are still a colonizer. fucking listen to us.

[jewishgay4il]

absolutely FASCINATING opinion from someone who reblogs gaza scams and supports terrorism and denies jewish indigenous status lmao

[vonclosen]

shut up ugly

[hobgobbin]

I hate to post this, but my best friend @vonclosen very suddenly suffered a stroke today and had to be rushed to the hospital, and later life flighted to another hospital because he has a blood clot in his brain.

They've been sick for 8 months at this point, trying to move out of their black mold infested home, hospitalised and unable to work for at least a month now, and were diagnosed with stage 3 (now seemingly stage 4) Lung Cancer just 2 weeks ago. And now the stroke on TOP of all this.

I'm incredibly scared for them and their partner with all that's been going on the past few months. Hell just the past few WEEKS even. They need as much help as they can get.

If anyone is able to PLEASE send a few dollars their way. The medical costs + living costs

Venmo: @ ericdravens

Ko-Fi: Zuzeca

I'll even throw in some art if you DM me to show me proof of donating to them !! if you donate at least $15 I'll draw you a bust, $30 I'll draw a half body and $50 I'll draw a full body !! I can throw in a doodle for anything under $15 too idc I just want to get them the money they need !!!

[vonclosen]

I don't have much but I heard about your health! I want to try to donate when I get paid!

Please rest up and take care of yourself! 🫂❤️

hi, this is jj, canis’s partner. just using this ask to update everyone. he is recovering from a massive stroke. a significant part of the left side of his brain is, to put it very bluntly, dead. he is of course sleeping in the ICU but in the long term he will have lots of problems with the movement of his right side (he’s right handed) and speech. on top of intensive physical therapy he will be undergoing targeted immunotherapies. please visit the blog to see how you can further help.

[vonclosen]

I don't have much but I heard about your health! I want to try to donate when I get paid!

Please rest up and take care of yourself! 🫂❤️

hi, this is jj, canis’s partner. just using this ask to update everyone. he is recovering from a massive stroke. a significant part of the left side of his brain is, to put it very bluntly, dead. he is of course sleeping in the ICU but in the long term he will have lots of problems with the movement of his right side (he’s right handed) and speech. on top of intensive physical therapy he will be undergoing targeted immunotherapies. please visit the blog to see how you can further help.