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[fyjjong]

update! jonghyun search has confirmed that they have exceeded their goal of 10,000 copies sold for their final bulk purchase of poet | artist. due to this, they will be adding at least one additional day for donations to be taken to help raise sales even higher in the coming days. later today (december 5th) kst they will be both revealing the exact number of copies sold as of yesterday and lauching a poll to help decide which day (or days) are best for the additional sales to occur on.. donations will be accepted again when this has been decided, but as of this second they have their donation pool turned off. (anyone who tries to donate until donations have been launched again will be refunded.) (source)

[vshiva]

🎉🎉🎉

[zodiacwhisperer]

Questions for the Signs

Aries

Why do you hurt people without consideration?

Does it ever get tiring, keeping so many secrets?

Why are you scared of letting others help you?

Why do you jump so quickly into relationships only to leave just as quick?

Taurus

Why do you need others peoples approval?

Why do you not believe in yourself?

Do you not think you’re worth more, do you not see all the value you have?

Do you like to feel broken or have you just learned to live with the pain?

Gemini

Are you afraid of your flaws?

Do you fake your confidence so people can’t see how self conscious you truly are?

Have you ever stopped to think how others feel when you leave them behind because you got bored?

Cancer

Why do you claim to be innocent when you are guilty of so much pain and abuse?

Can you not live independently?

Why must you jump into relationship before you are even aware of what love is?

Will you ever take responsibility for you own actions?

Leo

Why do other people’s opinions matter so much to you?

Why do you have to win every argument you get into?

Will you ever be able to fully show another person your flaws and insecurities and realize they still love you even if you’re not perfect?

Virgo

Why do you see emotions as a vulnerability?

Are you so proud and mighty that you must go through life without ever letting others help you?

Why are you incapable of realizing you aren’t perfect, but it’s okay that youre not perfect?

Libra

Why do you try so hard to make sure nobody ever finds out who you really are?

Why does your social appearance dictate how you live your life?

Do you think you are only worth love if you conceal your true self?

Scorpio

Why do you hide your loneliness behind your humor?

Do you not see all the value you’re worth?

Why do you expect people to be honest to you when you always lie and deceive others?

Sagittarius

Why do you have to one up people every single chance you get?

Why do you never take other people’s feelings into consideration?

Do you know how much of a narcissist you are?

Is there a reason you need to be better than everybody?

Capricorn

Why is it so hard for you to express your emotions to others?

Will you ever stop and realize other people can help you, you aren’t alone?

Why do you push yourself so hard and still never think you’re enough?

Aquarius

Why are you so scared of accepting the love people have for you?

How can you be so oblivious to other people’s emotions?

Will you ever learn that some things are better left unsaid?

Pisces

Are you capable of being your own person instead of just following everybody else?

Why do you let others walk all over you?

Do you know that your opinions and feeling are just as valid as everybody else’s?

Will you ever let other people see who you truly are instead if putting on some “innocent” facade?

[bitransitivo]

Skeleton Flower Fan-Translation Project

Hello Shawol! It’s been a long time coming as I’ve already seen full translations done in Japanese and Mandarin, but during the rest of the year I will be working on a full English translation of Jonghyun’s novel, ‘산하엽 (Skeleton Flower)’! I hope it will reach the many many fans out there who cannot speak Korean because Jonghyun’s precious words deserve to touch everyone’s hearts.

Update Twitter: @sigani_jina

Translation Archive: ArchiveOfOurOwn

It will help me and Jjong a whole lot if you could share this post and the announcement tweet 💙 Good reading!

FIRST CHAPTER OUT ON: Taurus New Moon (15/5)

[fyjjong]

i’m not going to show your username because i’m not in the game of doing that, but i am going to publicly share this so people can know what kind of messages that i DON’T want to be getting.

here’s the deal: yes, the members did amazing today given the circumstances - and given the fact that they’re all still very deeply grieving. you could tell by simply listening to the audio stream how painful of an experience the concert was for them but they still gave their best effort despite that. i’ll openly admit that everything about these concerts is miserable for me because it’s just a constant reminder that he’s gone, but regardless of that fact i’m proud as hell of them and that’s how i’ll continue to be. that’s my personal stance on all of that.

but i’d rather people NOT send messages into here that lean toward what was said in the last half of the above message: “they can replace what he left behind”. no. jonghyun cannot be replaced and they don’t want to replace him. the way that they chose to honor him at the concerts, not matter how much it hurt, is proof of that. they love him so much and you can feel that not only in how they incorporated him into the concert but in how their general demeanor was throughout the show. they’re all in pain still and they didn’t try to hide it. jonghyun has always been the core of shinee’s sound and he had such a strong and powerful presence on stage that you could feel his absence JUST through the audio stream. that says a lot about what kind of a performer and what kind of a person he was. 

he can’t be replaced. his voice cannot be replaced, his stage presence cannot be replaced, his musical sensibility cannot be replaced, his composition and lyrical skills cannot be replaced. his entire being cannot be replaced. his kindness, his selflessness, his goal to always do the right thing and try to do better overall, his considerateness, how poetic he was, how gentle he was, how respectful he was, how big of a heart he had, how much he cared about the world and all of the people in it and how he wanted it to be a better and more understanding place. honestly, i’m getting emotional. i just want everyone to remember how beautiful of a person he was.

[shawolonreplay]

💚 Remembering Jonghyun 💚

Jonghyun has left an amazing legacy in so many fields, so here are a list of the lil random Jonghyun moments that never failed to make me laugh or smile…My beautiful angel, I’ll always thank you for bringing so much joy and hope into my life.

Like a Fire concert version adlibs

His savageness towards DoniConi on Weekly idol - JjongPD  “IT’S JUST ‘CTRL C, CTRL V’”

Speaking of Weekly idol - Jonghyun’s competitiveness that rivalled Minho’s. Who else would do that many push ups for a tiny piece of beef??

Him oneshotting some Cola lololoolol

High note battle with a soldier

Walking Listerine CF during Crazy era

Jonghyun and his ice bucket challenge, wanting to get all the Jonghyun’s together

Hacking into SMTOWN’s youtube channel to post a video of Roo

Jonghyun and puppy Comme Des 

The birth of Taemin fanclub president - when he got drunk, fanboyed and came up with the nickname Dracula Oppa

Falling into the little hole where your legs were meant to go and waving cutely whilst dancing Everybody on Hello Counsellor

When Onew threw the pen in Beatle’s Code and it hit Jjong in the face instead of Minho

His acoustic version of Lucifer!!! (and Mucifer’s lol)

Onew + Jonghyun’s artistic talents in full force 

This photo lolol Taemin helping cut Jonghyun’s leg hair?? 

Jjong trying to eat a lemon in one go, choking and then still losing

The rise of savage Jjong making the wasabi dumpling but then ending up eating it himself lolol

Jonghyun and Onew’s failed attempt at laundry during Hello Baby

This glorious picture that is the epitome of JongKey

Jonghyun creating a youtube channel for the ice bucket challenge and uploading Minho’s and Taemins, and then a  bday video of Key getting a cake in the face 

“I plagiarised ‘ACE’ and this is ‘BASE’. They’re connected. Taemin: “Wow I got a Jonghyun photocard!!” Key: “Am I in there too?”

Teasing sleeping Jjong

Jonghyun biting Taemin’s arm in this iconic video where they have to pretend to be calling their “girlfriend”

Embarrassed Jonghyun caught dancing to EXID’s Hot Pink

To Key: “HOW COULD YOU WASH YOUR HAIR ON BROADCAST?? SHINEE…OUR IMAGE??”

Scared pup screaming in falsetto over a toy game

MONKEY MAGIC JONGYU SUBUNIT

When the SHINee members tricked Jonghyun into having a little solo dance break in the middle of Downtown Baby

PRETTY, LOVEABLE JONGMI

My smol pupper choosing to sit between the two giants Woobin and JJY

Of course this video!! Noodle Krump king

and of course Bling Bling…is Jonghyun

These are just a little of a lot of this beautiful soul. Feel free to contribute more random moments that made you laugh, smile, cry, anything that will help these moments last forever ❤️

[fyjjong]

as of late, i’ve had many blingers reach out to me (both through messages on here and through my curiouscat) and based on a common trend that i have picked up on in what they have said to me i figured it wouldn’t hurt to make this post. before i go on i want to remind everyone: we all cope in different ways, we all grieve differently as well so how you’re feeling about everything at the moment is not wrong. you may feel better, you may feel miserable. as jonghyun put it: “rather than saying time is medicine i think time just covers things. i don’t think it heals you, and if you want to heal i think it’s better to seek some other methods. one think i do think i can tell you is that if time passes you will hurt a little less than you do now.” (source) moving on, what i’m going to start this post by saying is: please be kind of blingers. we’re all hurting, we’re all grieving but there’s an added layer with us that i’m sure you can all understand. this obviously goes for all shawols as well but this post is for blingers specifically. (death tw) ■ if a blinger says that they are not ready for the domes or that they think that it is too soon it is not because they do not respect the decision that jinki, kibum, minho and taemin made; it is because they are not ready to see the others standing on stage without jonghyun yet. most that i have spoken to are to terms with the fact that he is gone, but seeing them without him makes it even more real. ■ talk of comebacks without jonghyun … it’s a very touchy subject for blingers. a lot feel that it’s too soon to be discussing the prospect of comebacks and concerts / touring beyond the domes. i agree with this because it’s only been three weeks and the other members haven’t even been given the chance to grieve properly really. it’s true that some blingers may be completely turned off to the idea of shinee promoting without jonghyun in the future and that’s ultimately their business. they’re going to feel how they want to feel, but the majority support any decision that they plan on making in the future. it’s just that everything is too raw right now still and likely will be for a long, long time. ■ this goes along with the above but: blingers who feel like either are not “fake shawols”. a few that i know have been called this and it really …, really hurts because that isn’t the case in the slightest. the love that they have for the other members is very strong but remember that jonghyun was their #person. ■ the phrasing of comments about how the group will “come back stronger” or that jinki, kibum, minho and taemin are “the strongest people to ever exist” often sit the wrong way with blingers, due to phrasing and very unintentional implications. jinki, kibum, minho and taemin are incredibly strong and they deserve to be acknowledged for that strength, but jonghyun was strong as well, and shinee was strong as a group with jonghyun. moving forward, they’ll continue to be strong, not become “stronger” because that strength always existed. ■ as said earlier: everyone grieves at their own pace but a lot of blingers feel as if they have been left in the dark (or dust) already. it’s difficult to explain but it’s a very real feeling across the board. (i understand because i’ve felt it as well.) ■ some blingers feel like they’ve backed into a corner within fandom, that they can’t voice how they feel about the future of shinee because they’re afraid of getting attacked. everyone has their own opinions and no one should be made to feel bad for them (unless they’re offensive). talk it out amongst each other if you’re able. it’s always easier that way. everyone has been sensitive lately and it’s been very easy for misunderstandings to arise in the heat of emotion. ■ casual conversation that implies that the group can easily go on with jonghyun is probably what has hurt blingers the most. comments such as: “the entire group is made up of vocalists so they can cover for him pretty easily” aren’t appreciated because they take on a completely different meaning to what they would have before his death. jonghyun is not replaceable. this isn’t the same as covering for a member when they can’t make it to a schedule. ■ please don’t tell a blinger (or any other shawol) that they’ve been “upset for too long” or that they’re being “annoying” because they’re still grieving. i’ve seen this coming from edgy stans in other fandoms and it’s fucked up. a lot are already anxious that they’re getting in the way of others’ grieving to begin with by talking about how they’re still upset when there’s no timeline for grief, so hearing anyone say that is not appreciated. there are others as well but i’m going to stop there because i figure you get the general gist. be kind to blingers, be kind of each other. none of this is easy and we need to do the best to take care of and be gentle with one another.

[vshiva]

Thx...

[vshiva]

Elige tus batallas...

[fyjjong]

if people could stop using jonghyun as: leverage for arguments, guilt tripping or fandom fodder, specifically those who were never fans of him to begin with or are from another fandom, that would be fantastic. leave him out of your messes. don’t mention him if it has nothing to do with him. don’t try to use his life or death or what contributed to either as a way to prove a point because your point is, frankly, bullshit. he was a human being and his legacy and memory should be respected, not be used as a guide for some faux moral compass. it’s really (excuse my language) fucked up that i even need to say this.

this isn’t about anything specific - just a very common trend that i’ve seen begin to pick up over the last few days. don’t be an asshole. 

[fyjjong]

for those interested: members of the shinee reddit community are in the process of putting planning both a book and charity project in the name of jonghyun. as to quote what was written in the main post (which can be found here): “we’ll be collecting, compiling, and translating messages from fans into a book commemorating jonghyun to send to the shinee members. we’ll also be including with the book the certificate of the donation we made in his honor. the charity portion of the project is completely optional. we know not everyone has money, and the book itself will still be made no matter what, as the donations we’ve received from in-server already cover the book cost. because of that, any additional donations will be given to a foundation that focuses on mental health and lgbtq+ youth activism in south korea, which we think is something jonghyun would believe in. the foundation is called dding dong.” guidelines for submissions can be found at the linked, along with how can you submit what you want to include. donations are not required but an option if you have some extra money to spare. the due date for submissions will be january 5th, 2018.

[fyjjong]

all of us cope different ways but for some who are soothed by hearing his voice: a kind korean shawol has put together a soundboard of jonghyun saying a variety of phrases over the years, most coming from blue night radio. a link can be found here. the creator also included a link at the very bottom of the page for a google drive folder where .mp3 uploads of all of the snippets can be downloaded. if you are not ready to listen to this now that is understandable but maybe in the future it is something you can come back to.

[vshiva]

This is paradise

[fyjjong]

🌟💖 to jonghyun: my sun, my moon, my stars, someone who i'll love forever  💖🌟

i don’t know how to start this properly so i’ll do so by saying i’m coping the best i can be given the circumstances but it still feels like there’s this void in my chest. 

when i first started listening to k-pop i figured it’d just be a fun pasttime for me and, for the most part, it has been. i just didn’t think i’d get as attached as i did to an idol as i did jonghyun because i’d never been the type to get super attached to celebrities to begin with but i was really drawn to him from the get go. i remember the first time i saw him in the “lucifer” mv. i was like: ”wow, who is that dude“ so i started looking into him and grew to like him quickly. this was before he started to show more of himself to shawols / the world. after that point he made his twitter and began to interact more with fans by showing how clever, intelligent, fun loving and socially conscious he was. and his sense of humor was so strange - which was something that i could relate to. that’s probably when i knew he was going to be my ult for a long time. i remember when he supported kang eun ha back in late 2013 and i was so relieved because i was just starting to really come to terms with the fact that i was queer and it was comforting to know that my ult would accept me for that. in the short time that followed we were able to see him grow and develop as a person. he started to bare his soul to the world through blue night, always more than he was obligated to, and he was always graceful and thoughtful in doing so. i remember at shinee’s fifth anniversary party when he debuted “beautiful tonight” to shawols. i was so proud of him because i knew that it’d always been his dream to make his own music and that was the FIRST time that he was able to share something with us that was completely his. 

when it comes to shinee .. i haven’t been here since the beginning. i became a fan during the summer of 2011 but i’ve always felt like i was present during the timeline that was the most pertinent in his growing as a human being. blue night was always so special to me because it opened us up to a side of him that he had been careful to share before then. people had these fixed stereotypes about him and, while some have lingered on, he was able to blow most out of the water through the show. without blue night we wouldn’t have been able to hear a large percentage of his beautiful solo work. looking back i can see that this was a burden to him and it makes me ache knowing something he loved became such a weight for him but i’ll always cherish the work that he gave to us. he was always trying so hard. it doesn’t take what happened to know that. he never shied away from telling us when he felt lost or lonely or upset and he never made fans feel as if they were wrong to feel that way either. honestly he never made fans feel like they were in the wrong for anything. he’d support them through even their most ridiculous (and some of the funnier stories he got on blue night were proof of that) and the love he had for us was undeniable. you could see it in his eyes whenever he was given the chance to be face-to-face with us: at events with shinee, for blue night, for himself. it always looked like he was … ridiculously content just breathing the same air as his fans. this extended to international fans as well. he didn’t speak up on it often but it was obvious he knew about the disconnect / distance that we’ve always felt in being so far away from him and shinee. we got “selene 6.23” to show for that one. it was also thanks to jonghyun and the rest of shinee that i was able to make most of the close friends that i have today. that, and they were also so charming that i was able to have my older friends become a fan of them as well. they also gave me a reason to be able to travel twice in the last year and a half: once to chicago and another time to los angeles. i’ll always be grateful that i was able to see them twice - that i was able to see him twice. i’m starting to feel too introspective so i’m going to switch over and talk about a few of my favorite things about him: 1) he wasn’t perfect. he made mistakes but he always apologized and tried to make amends for them in the end. he was constantly trying to better himself and become education / sensitive to a variety of issues. i feel he excelled there, really. 2) his love for roo. i think it goes without saying that a good deal of the funnier content involving him was related back to roo. and remember the time she photobombed minho taking a picture of jjong with his music show trophies? yeah. 3) how much of his life he dedicated to making his mom and sodam feel loved and appreciated. i really don’t know what else to add here that isn’t obvious already. 4) he wasn’t afraid to show the world the side of himself that was what most would regard as being “childish” or in geeking out about things that made him happy like naruto or how much he had fallen in love with (and been touched by) kimi no na wa. 5) when he wanted to cry he cried and he made sure that others were aware that it was alright to cry too, to be weak sometimes because to be “weak” is to really be strong. 6) he was such a great and caring friend. he just … was. there’s no denying that. he was always nonjudgmental and willing to be there for his friends at the drop of a hat when they needed him (like when he drove two hours to pick up dongwoo when he needed a ride home from a random location). 7) jinki. he was always a pillar of strength for him and this worked both ways. he took the spotlight for him when he wasn’t able to do it himself and he was always the first to understand his strange jokes and puns and play off of them. 8) kibum. he was kibum’s first friend when they became trainees. we’ll never know what kind of connection they had in full but it was obvious it was something special that went beyond words. 9) minho. minho is probably his biggest fan. he could read him like an open book and he was always the first to be there when he needed him most and it’s obvious that hasn’t changed even now. 10) taemin. he was HIS biggest fan. we all know that. he wasn’t just his friend and brother but his baby and you could see how proud he was to see him develop as both an artist and person. i’m glad he got to see up to now even though it hurts me he won’t see all he is capable of achieving. 11) the relationship he had with his blue night family - listeners included. they helped him so much. they gave him stories to use that helped broaden his work as a singer-songwriter and he developed meaningful friendships with both regular guests and pds. 12) taeyeon, suho, yoona, krystal, heechul, donghae, jungmo. all the friends that he made within sm when they began training who he knew for just as long as the other members of shinee. and all of those who have left sm since that were close to and meant a lot to him at a point as well, like luhan, jessica and tao. plus those that he became and stayed close to after debut. yeri, lee jonghyun, hongki, crush, zion.t, jung joon young, younha, tablo, wheesung, minkyung, gray, zico. i know they’re all hurting too. 13) he wrote a beautiful book where he used all main characters as a template to show different sides of himself to readers. he was writing another book too and i’m glad he was at least able to share his idea for it with us. 14) he was able to release four amazing solo albums in such a short amount of time and i honestly feel like he helped to break some of the bias sm had toward allowing their artists to release their own work. 15) he wasn’t afraid to gush over other men that he found attractive. looking back on his fanboying over gong yoo is always going to make me laugh. 16) i really loved how much he loved the moon and stars and space and mythology and all that whimsical stuff because he could be pretty whimsical himself at times. 17) how much of a dork he was for poetry. remember when he sent that wreath to wheesung with that bertolt brecht poem? iconic. 18) he really admired and looked up to prince. you could see his influence in both the sound and styling of his solo work and that makes the stereotypical minnesotan in me happy. 19) more of a random anecdote but how excited he was when he was dying his hair pink for “she is” promotions. the story about how he’d kept on showing the other members a photo of the shade he was trying for excitedly will always be one of my faves. 20) he was the kazoo king. 21) random little physical traits of his like his blingspot and all his pretty moles and birthmarks, his bottom teeth, how his legs were bowed. 22) how he pretty much laughed with his entire body and how his nose scrunched up when doing so. how expressive he was. how you could pretty much see every emotion he was trying to convey in his eyes and they’d sometimes sparkle like there was an entire universe in them (i used to say that a lot). i’ll move on from the facts from now but this is … a lot. emotionally. (death tw, suicide tw) honestly i feel like i can’t say much else that hasn’t already been said and that i won’t be able to completely do justice to who he was as an artist, bandmate, brother, son, friend, colleagues, so on and so forth. but you can feel it at least. i guess words?? aren’t really needed always?? you can feel it in how many people have went to pay their respects to him in the last day. he was SO loved and he left such a mark on the industry, not just of his immense and unique talent but because of how kind, generous, soft and understanding he was. i’ve said this a few times already to close friends of mine but as much as it kills me to know that he’s gone and that he was in as much pain as he was i’m also relieved that he isn’t feeling that pain anymore. what else can you really say in situations like these. he hurt more than anyone deserves to and maybe it’s cheesy to say but a part of me feels like he was too good for this world. i’ve never really been religious but i hope that if there is an afterlife that he feels content, warm, happy and comfortable for once. maybe now he’s a star, hanging around the moon, or maybe he’s a star pup. that’d be wild. he’d probably love that. or maybe he’s jamming out with his favorite musicians who’ve passed. who knows. anyway. i think that’s all i’m gonna say for now. in the future i may revisit this post - maybe i’ll add on to it or maybe i’ll use it as a template to make a new one. who knows but the only other thing i can say before closing this off is that he’ll always have a special place in my heart and i’ll never forget him.

[fyjjong]

to early emphasis: dear cloud’s nine has confirmed that she was asked by jonghyun to post his final note before passing to fans. she has also confirmed that she was given the blessing from his family to share it with the world. you can find confirmation of this here. below will be proper triggers for this post as it is not easy to read. i will also leave nine’s comment that she left on her post as it is important in regards to why she was asked to post it. if you feel that i have missed any please do not hesitation message me on my personal blog (jaekyung) and i will add them as quickly as i am able to. also thank you to sonexstella for translating. —- trigger warning(s): death tw, depression tw, suicide ideation tw, suicide tw nine: i said my final goodbye with jonghyunnie. even after seeing his smiling portrait of the deceased, it still feels like jonghyunnie will come to me and smile as if all of this was a dream. starting from awhile back, jonghyunnie told me his dark and deep internal stories. i think each day was very difficult for him. i kept having uneasy thoughts so i made it known to his family and tried my hardest to capture his heart but it only ended up postponing time and i could not block his last (action). i still cannot believe he is not in this world and it’s so painful. i’m still afraid, not knowing if it’s the right thing to upload these words but jonghyun himself asked me to please upload these words if he disappeared from this world. i wished this day would never come … after discussing with his family i am uploading his final note, according to his last wishes. i think that there must be a reason why he left this up to me. i worry that there will be controversy. however, i think that he predicted this and asked me, so i decided that i will do the one last thing i can do for jonghyunnie. i hope everyone knows now that jonghyun was not alone and that he worked hard … that he did really well … please thank him for withstanding well … beautiful jonghyun, i really love you a lot. going forward, i will love you a lot. in that place, please don’t be in pain and i hope you will be peaceful … —- i am broken from the inside. depression that slowly ate away at me ended up swallowing me. i couldn’t beat it. i hated myself. i held onto memories that have died out and, even though i shouted to snap out of it, there was no response. if suffocating breaths will not open up it’s better instead to stop. i asked who can take responsibility for myself. it’s you. i was completely alone. it’s easy to say you’ll end it. it’s hard to end it. i lived up to now admist that difficulty. you said i wanted to run away. that’s right. i wanted to run away. from myself. from you. i asked who was there. i said it was me. again, it was me. and once again, it was me. i asked why i kept losing memories. it’s my personality. i see. in the end, it’s all my fault. i hoped someone would notice, but no one knew. never met me, so of course, no one knew i was there. i asked why i was living. just. just. everyone just lives. if i asked why someone would die, you would say you’re exhausted. i suffered from concern. i never learned how to change tiresome pains into joy. pain is just pain. i urged myself not to be like that. why? why can’t i end it according to my own will? i tried to find out why i was in pain. i knew too well. i am in pain because of myself. it’s all because it’s my fault and because i’m foolish. teacher, did you want to hear these words? no. i did nothing wrong. when he blamed my personality with a quiet voice i thought it was so easy to be a doctor. it’s fascinating to see why i’m in this much pain. people who have more hardships than i do live well. people who are weaker than me live well. maybe that’s not it. of people who are alive, there is no one who has more hardships than i do, and who is weaker than i am. despite this, i was told to live. i asked why this is the case a hundred times, and it’s never for me. it’s for you. i wanted it to be for me. please don’t say things you don’t know. find out why it’s difficult. i told you many times why it’s difficult for me. with that, is it not possible for it to be this difficult? does there need to be more concrete drama? are you wanting more of a story? i already told you. did you not pay attention? what i can overcome doesn’t leave a scar. colliding with the world must not have been my fate. being known to the world must not have been my life. that’s why everything was difficult. colliding, and being known was difficult. why did i chose that. it’s a funny incident. it’s commendable that i was able to withstand up to this point. what more can i say? just tell me i worked hard. that i did a good job. that i went through a lot. even if you can’t smile, please don’t send me off in blame. you worked hard. you went through a lot. goodbye.

[shineesubbed1]

[ENG] [COMPILATION] DINGO STUDIOS’ BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP (JONGHYUN)

“Before you go to sleep, you worked hard today, too.” A series of vignettes, narrated by Jonghyun.

160502 ♡ “It’s raining…” 160503 ♡ “You’ll get through this.” 160504 ♡ “The weather is nice.” 160505 ♡ “Spring comes once a year.” 160508 ♡ “Don’t lose confidence.” 160511 ♡ “Stop worrying.” 160512 ♡ “Give it more thoughts.”

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GQ (October 2016) | Kim Jonghyun

Q: Jonghyun was chosen as ‘Singer of The Year’ on ‘GQ AWARDS’ in December 2015 issue. Jonghyun: I saw it. Thank you. I felt uneasy because it was my first solo, but there are a lot of good feedback so I got to have self-confidence. Self-dignity is personal feeling. Nevertheless, I think external factor has a big influence to a person who does art.

Q: Is Jonghyun a person with high self-dignity? Jonghyun: I think there’s moment when the answer to that is “true”. I’m not a person who is always full of self-dignity throughout 365 days. People tend to move energetically through their inferiority complex. I’m the type who overcome my self-dignity falling down by doing that.

Q: The time when your self-dignity is at its peak? Jonghyun: My inferiority complex arises when I see people doing well. Then when I made that as an inspiration, I have faith in my self. Of course it’d be great if my works always come out as the best, but since there are impossibilities from the system, it’s when a work which passes my standard point comes out.

Q: What is your standard point? Jonghyun: 70 points. It’s a point that’s made for myself, so it can make me feel uneasy if I set it high. “Am I indulging myself?”. I’ve never thought my albums deserved 100 points. Instead, I work hard on how to make the track list and what kind of atmosphere that I want to express to be matched.

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