- in-love with aot, csm, jjk, naruto, blue lock,bleach, tshd death note, fairy tail, haikyuu, norgami, free, assasination classroom, demon slayer+more :p
im sososo inlove with all types of fashion, gold jewellery, vinted, spirituality, sage green, editing, writing, music, concerts, ug scene , 90s-2000s video games, splatoon, genshin, twd, tlou, and more *ೃ༄
6. What is your favourite gender? not your gender. your favourite.
7. What is your least favourite colour?
@incognitostunner @woman-offical @stagefrightbaxter @callofwinter @holymolyitssam @tagging-officals-offical @archangel-gabriel-offical @eric-cartman-offical and open tags. ok? answer my questions. DO IT.
4. No , my life has been one big sentence and sleep and stuff are the commas
5. Yeah my lil ghost plushie I call MOURI , and my deuce plushie who I haven't moved because I don't have a place for Twst stuff and he makes a good arm rest
6. Uhm - like ? Romantically I like men / androgynous people ??? Idk I ??? Huh 💔 The void IDK 💔
7. I agree with Sunny , HIGHLIGHTER YELLOW IS UWJDHWODBWI , and the gray that is RLLY light , but it's not white , but it's not rlly gray , but it doesn't fit with white.
i've decided to post the first part of the remains chapter on tumblr, because i got bored of it sitting in my phone files for the past month now. I'm still unsure on what to call this fic but for now I'm just going to call this remains.
this portion will cover heavy themes such as miscarriage, violence,complicated grief & suicide. please always put yourself first and take care, my messages are always open <3.
remains
chapter 1. (incomplete chapter.)
Eren x reader
apocalypse au
When the dead started walking, I was only 8, I was scared and afraid until a man called Levi became my protector, a mentor, a father figure. He tried his hardest. He protected many people; however, he could not protect all. He protected my friend Darren; me and Levi met him and his father Erwin and his wife at a farm, but we got kicked out because Levi did not save the farmers son, he chose to save Darren instead.
Levi saved a women called Petra but at a cost ouldo’s life was lost. I could tell Levi and Petra formed a special bond with each-other, but it did not last long.our group got raided by local raiders and we had to flee.
A woman called lily grew paranoid of the group we were with and took Petra’s life in-front of me, Levi, and many others. As a group we decided to leave lily on the roadside where walkers were still hungry and alive.
We got to utopia district and where my parents were for holiday I thought a miracle would happen but sadly, we had to stop mid way. The raid has already taken a toll on the group but it has just got worst.
Darren got bit by a walker.
My friend.
Erwins wife...? she couldn’t bare to see her baby boy turn into something she strongly disliked.
she took her life.
Levi wouldn’t let erwin witness or hear the monstrosity what Levi had to do. He did not let me see either.
i did not get to say my last goodbyes to darren.
On the way to utopia district, we met a couple of nice people. Erwin was determined to find out the truth about the walkers.
He was so determined.
I was only focused on searching for my parents because I was gullible enough to think they was still alive.
I let it get to me.
I was so desperate to find my parents. An older man claimed he knew where they were. I was so excited to finally be reunited with them after so long.
The man was not a great guy but thankfully Levi saved me.
He found me.
But on the way he got bit.
If I were not so gullible he would not have been bit. Questions were racing through my head when I saw levi.
“Why are you so pale?”
“Is it my fault?”
“Wheres Erwin?”
“Wheres Krista and Omid?”
“Where are we going to go?”
He comforted me and said
“its okay kid its okay. Im okay.”
He was not okay.
As we left the place he tried his best to stand strong. There were so many walkers everywhere.
Utopia district was so rotten, vile. It wasn’t long after I saw my parents. They weren’t even my parents they were walkers.
It wasn’t long after Levi fainted. I panicked and dragged him into the nearest tea shop.
He looked so so bad.
Levi told me I had to kill him, I didn’t want to. I couldn’t. but I had to, I didn’t want him to turn out like my parents.
I just couldn’t.
he taught me how to protect myself from walkers, bad people.
He protected me.
Put his life on the line.
He gave me his gun, told me to keep my hair short, stay away from cities. So, I did. Followed what he said.
Till this day.
Till this day I remember how fast my heart was beating, how the tears soaked my face, how levi begged me to shoot him. My heart still screams and cries till this day.
I had to shoot him.
I shot him.
I cried for hours, days, weeks. There wasn’t a day when my eyes were not blurry. I couldn’t find Erwin, Krista or Omid. I couldn’t find anyone.
I spent my 9th birthday still searching for someone, anyone. All I had was a loaded gun and my backpack with a photo of levi in there. While the sun was setting, I saw two distinct silhouettes in the distance, quickly ran towards them.
It was Krista and Omid but, there was a third unborn member.
I was so happy for them both.
As we were walking, we were a rest room just out in the open, so we went in just to clean up, wash. The normal human stuff.
But this would be the day I lost someone, again.
I had made a rookie move by leaving my stuff unattended. A girl came in, riffling through my things.
“junk junk junk. Look at all this junk.”
Everything in there was precious to me at the time. Behind the girl was omid, before I could warn him, the door slammed shut and spooked the girl. Causing her to shoot him.
Right through the chest.
The girl was in shock. Her face was soaked in regret.
Gosh her face.
Krista came right in, she didn’t even hesitate. She pulled her gun out and shot the girl. Krista looked at me with her hands trembling as she pulled omids body close to her and her bump, hoping the wound wasn’t that deep.
Since that day me and krista were just wandering around. Looking for somewhere to stay.
Food to eat.
This carried on for 11 months.
A full term pregnancy typically last around 9 months.
40 weeks,
280 days,
6,720 hours,
403,200 minutes.
From the first day of the last menstrual period. Which is roughly nine months and 1 week. Only about 5% of babies are born exactly on their due date.
Krista’s and Omids baby was not born at all.
I was 10 years old with krista , eating whatever me and krista could find in the woods, it was the end of November, and the cold was slicing my skin. Fingers were stiff. My stomach kept speaking to me, hurting me.
I kept on turning to krista complaining, I was so tired, hungry, cold. Krista went for a breather and suddenly we were raided.
Again.
I tried to distract them so krista could get away but I wouldn’t realise it would be my last time seeing her.
A group of men quickly ran towards me, alerting walkers near by.
I just ran.
Ran mindlessly, wherever my legs took me. I lost my footing and ended up in a river. At that time, I felt like the 8-year-old stuck in a tree house before levi found me but this time.
No one would be finding me.
I was cold, wet, hungry. I didn’t know what to do. I just know I had to survive.
Somehow.
Eventually I found a cabin crew.
They had their suspicions about me being bitten by a walker.
I was not bitten.
We had a walker attack while me and 2 other members of the cabin crew was looking for food we lost a member.
I was still not bitten.
Fled the cabin and came across many walkers.
I was still not bitten.
I kept leading the group at 10 years old.
There was a woman who was pregnant. A “doctor” who had a 13-year-old girl. She was kind, nice to be around, and a few other people who was okay.
After we fled the cabin we was searching for places to stay. It was long until we saw a light house, from afar it sounded like comfort place. We followed the light to meet an unexpected person.
Erwin?
It was Erwin? God.
I missed him so much.
He thought Levi was with me though.
Since that day he kept me closer than ever.
Like I was his daughter.
He introduced me to his girlfriend, she was lovely.
Me and the group stayed at the light house for awhile until it got raided.
Again.
God I was so fucking fed up.
We was defending our lighthouse until we lost another member of our crew. The pregnant lady lost it all.
Please not again.
We were transported into some warehouse, we were treated like animals. Eventually we found a way out.
Because of me.
But as we was getting out Erwin’s girlfriend got bit infront of me. It was either:
I cut her arm off
I kill her.
I knew erwin loved her deeply, so deep. I chopped her arm off. Hoping she would survive.
She did not survive.
Erwin hated me.
Im so sure he did.
He wasn’t even on his last thread anymore. He was just so broken.
Im so sorry.
Im so sorry Erwin.
Would Levi do the same?
Im so sorry.
Me and the group continued to go find shelter. I think Christmas had passed. Its so fucking cold. Not even my purple jacket would keep me warm.
The pregnant lady was in labour. She birthed such a beautiful girl and called her Gabi.
Gabi braun. her eyes are golden brown; her lashes are long and luscious.
Shes such a pretty girl.
Im so happy she survived.
Her mother did not survive unfortunately.
I knew I had to look after her. Erwin was still with me, he wasn’t here fully but physically still with me.
That’s all that mattered. Me. Gabi. Erwin.
And the remaining members of the group. I don’t even know their names anymore. I don’t think I learnt them.
Theres been so much death around me I don’t want to remember anymore. The doctor died. The 13-year-old girl died, a few people from the cabin crew died…
I think they all died.
All that’s left is me. Gabi. Erwin.
Fuck and this other woman. She taught me how to physically protect myself but gosh.
She is so mean.
A blizzard had attacked us as we are on our way to jinae.
Conflict between erwin and that woman has been so bad.
So bad she took gabi away from me and erwin.
Erwin completely spiralled.
Please no. not again.
A new born baby?
In a blizzard?
By herself?
Is she dead?
Erwin and the girl broke out into a fight, it was life and death.
I could not bring myself to watch.
I just want to find Gabi.
Erwin killed the woman.
There was nothing left to mourn.
Fuck.
I just want to find Gabi.
We found Gabi in a random car. Still sleeping peacefully. Oblivious of the horrors of what just happened.
Quickly erwin did his best to get us to jinae function.
But we was stopped.
“we have no more space for any more survivors. Please turn back.”
Erwin begged and pleaded to let me and gabi stay in jinae function.
I didn’t want to let Erwin go.
Not again.
My heart wanted me to go with erwin, I wanted to stay with him. But I knew erwin wanted me and gabi to stay safe. It’s the most factual reason.
I decided to stay in jinae function with gabi.
Since that day me and gabi have been inseparable.
