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โRoseโs Lookโ by Emile Corsi, 1878
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Looking back
Musings on Legacy, Journey and Purpose:
The last few months have been full of internal strife for me as Iโve felt significantly more introspective than usual. Iโve felt insecure about my standing in life, worried if this dream is unrealistic due to the obstacles that seem to keep preventing me from reaching higher levels of audience for my art; Iโve been in my head about my own self worth as a result. Making art, my jewelry, is the sole thing I am tangibly talented at in this life, and for that reason Iโve always understood it as my ikigai, the culmination of my passion, expression, purpose, and reason for existence. To be vulnerable, Iโve questioned all of this the last few months heavily, and the last year in general.
When I think about my life path and purpose, I see that itโs been challenging terrain to navigate. Iโve had many roadblocks, struggles, Iโve been mired in the repercussions of my mistakes and circumstances many times, but Iโve always been introspective in nature and itโs allowed me to adapt and change myself on an ever-evolving basis, for the better (in my own judgement, admittedly). I refer to my life story as โThe Heroโs Journeyโ, akin to the ones told and retold in myth over millennia. The hero- imperfect, flawed, maybe brimming with mistakes, error, and pain, seeking redemption, undergoes a symbolic journey to the underworld through trials such as Heracles, and has to lose almost every single thing in order to facilitate their growth, to trudge through the trials and from their difficulty, emerge fully transformed and purified, alchemized, at the end of the journey. To prevent mischaracterization, I donโt view myself as anyone elevated in any status akin to what society deems a โheroโ, I more so think this trope applies to me in the sense that I am the main character of my own life as the architect and author of it, experiencing my life and humanity through the lens of my own consciousness, therefore I am the protagonist of my own story. Iโm still undergoing my journey, Iโve had dark nights of the soul and Iโve made it through the other side on more than one occasion. This ever questioning introspection is another trial to me, despite the journey being one of inward motion into my own psyche, questioning my self-testament and what Iโve perceived to be my truth these 30 years.
At this point in time, Iโm in my Saturn return. For those uninitiated or unaware, itโs a time where your natal Saturn placement returns to where it was when you came into this world; this happens around age 30, and whatever house it is located in your birth chart will give you more information regarding the themes and events that may occur around that time. Saturn returns are an initiation into full adulthood and autonomy, with it bringing consistent themes of responsibility, discipline and dedication, structure and purpose, ideas of rest and reward, realism and restriction. Iโve made it through the exact conjunction, and I will continue to explore these themes until Saturn enters Aries next year. This momentous life event is one everyone who reaches this age will go through, I count myself as blessed to be amongst those who have traversed the hardships and lessons of autonomy and responsibility, initiated into this planetary energy. At the time of writing, I near my solar return, my birthday, and I feel a mixture of pride over how much progress has been made on this heroโs journey, but also hesitancy and fear over what the next years of life will entail. To be transparent, this fear and insecurity on the material plane has been playing into the cycles of introspection and the subsequent crisis of faith Iโve undergone with myself. My Saturn is placed in my first house of self, and Iโve consistently struggled with listening to my innermost self knowledge of *who I am* over what those around me tell me I am; Iโve been forced to learn discernment, to be responsible with my energy and how much I dedicate to others and external sources of understanding and validation. This directly ties into what Iโve been struggling with in my inner world and what has seemingly reached a culmination of in recent months: my purpose, my own sense of fulfillment and validation, feeling as if my life and purpose have value in this world.
A labor of my heroโs journey has included fully stepping into adulthood, as the last representative bastion of my childhood and all I knew of the world previously, my childhood home, has been sold, a turn of page from the past onto a future, unwritten. Iโve now lost my grandmother who embodied my childhood and youth, was the guardian of my early life, as well as her home that sheltered us. As Iโve been struggling with these internal narratives, Iโve been finding myself interacting in the dream world with my recently passed Mamaw on a very frequent basis, perhaps a manifestation of my stress and uncertainty has materialized as my psyche forming scenes familiar and comforting. Scenes from my childhood play out with me in the starring role, some scenes and memories are exactly as I recall them to be, others are changed and vary as if from an alternate timeline. Mostly, my grandmother stands or sits silently, almost more of a member of the audience watching the play that is my dream rather than being in a main role. On the rare occasion she emerges from her watchful state, she will sometimes speak as if remembering her lines suddenly. These dreams have been both very comforting and strange, as it means a lot to have her presence to soothe my still grieving heart and mind, but also baffling because I canโt always understand what aspects of my psyche are being explored in this dreamscape and what I should take away from these nocturnal plays.
Iโm holding my still raw and still processing grief near, along with trying to explore and understand myself and my purpose better; overall its culminated to a more disconnected time for me, I feel grotesque and raw and writhing, molting, and as such Iโve just wanted to hold everything within myself and my journal and escape from the hard realities and truths of the world around me. In my vulnerability, Iโve sought out protection in its highest forms, often calling on my grandmother to guide and protect me while Iโm in this transformative phase of life. Through this inward journey, Iโve been ruminating on the conscious desire to channel my grief through memories of my grandmother, to channel my understanding of legacy and protection into something tangible, material and corporeal.
From this rumination and journey inward has emerged this small Summer Collection of jewels. Apotropaic eye talismans of Pearl and gemstone, channeling the milky, opaline qualities of the lunar energy of the season of my birth; drawing upon the archetype of the mother that exists within astrological Cancer, referencing my grandmother and her legacy and her protective presence. Jewels rendered in protective shades of gray and black, gray referencing memories of watching mourning doves feast upon seed and suet in the backyard of my childhood home, my Mamaw and I both loved them and loved the moments of peace held while viewing the scene. Jewels in opaline white and black, like the velveteen sky of midnight in midwinter, the moon impossibly full and bright, held so close to earths orbit that she illuminated the solemn white world underneath. I recall this memory with fondness as Mamaw always instilled in me to appreciate nature, I took on her habits in this way. The last additions, jewels to honor transformation into highest self, the magicians stone Labradorite and milky white onyx stars to guide and channel โThe Starโ tarot energy, energy I hope to embody as I follow this journey of finding my way back to purpose, a guiding light along the dark and winding path.
The collection can be viewed here: https://wyther.etsy.com
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A Dream, a ring for a baby:
As I reach my thirties, I reflect even more frequently on my journey, I feel that lived a plethora of lives, each marked by new casts of characters and fated events that have nurtured (and sometimes forced) my growth. I feel equal parts nostalgic of my journey and different eras, as well as mournful towards the tribulations I experienced to create the testimony of my life story. With aging, comes frequent and profound introspection alongside reconsideration of my proverbial โfig treeโ and the fruits and branches Iโve chosen and pruned. Motherhood is a fig upon this tree that I very much want to savor for myself, but am also uncertain of in this lifetime; so much is in catastrophe and logically, Iโm just not sure if its meant to be part of my story, and as much as I want it to be, emotionally ache for it from the depths of my heart, its uncertainty has taken a journey to be able to even accept. The first fruiting of motherhood came as a teen, due to circumstance I couldnโt nurture that fruition, but if that branch were to bear fruit again, I fervently hope that I am able to see it through to harvest. This jewel to me represents hope and a dream held dear within, a dream that defies logic and rationality and yet persists, this is the story I ascribe to my personal jewel of this design.
This could be a jewel to dispel the horrors of time ravaging on, itโs the stark realization of time passed watching a child grow before your very eyes, time-lapsed as memories in your mind. This could be a jewel to memorialize someone gone far too soon, to mourn what you wish could be, maybe this will represent a journey of acceptance of what *is* like it does for me, or it could represent a hope and a dream. This is a canvas for you to tell your story or to wear it close to your heart.
I intend to offer custom initial engraving and gemstone options in the future for this jewel once I become more practiced in these arts, to fully personalize every profound story. This jewel would be pair beautifully with different chains and in mixed metals or solid gold tones, please reach out to me to inquire about customization for this jewel to tell a story dear to your heart too.
This jewel features a modern sterling silver reproduction of an antique infant ring. Infant rings were very popular throughout the 1800-1900s as tokens of love and devotion, and many of the surviving heirlooms have sentimental stories to tell as theyโve been passed down through generations. I found the original antique this jewel is cast from at an antique shop somewhere in rural Pennsylvania; it was originally gold filled I believe but has been much loved throughout many years, generations, and hands, and has worn away to its brass core. This demure signet is dignified in its simplicity, and I can tell how beloved this ring was as well the children whom it adorned.
A Dream | Vintage Reproduction, Baby Ring, Antique Reproduction, Sterling Silver, Signet, Oxidized, Witchy, Charm Necklace, Mourning Jewelry
Happy birthday my dear friend, I miss you terribly. Itโs now been almost 15 years since youโve left, and my mind circles back to you in a habitual trail thatโs been formed over many years in my mind, like the path cut across grass, made bone dry and pale by feet too weary to walk the longer trek of the sidewalk. I wonder what life wouldโve been like for you if youโd had the opportunity to live these years. I wonder what you wouldโve gone on to do with your charisma, personality and charm, what lessons you wouldโve learned and what would become of our paths in this lifetime, if they were always fated to diverge or if we wouldโve found a way to stay convened. You were the first of 3 profound losses in my life, and I try my best to be a person youโd still like and want to be friends with. We donโt meet very often in the lucid dreamscape, but I hold out hope every night for a visit so I can try and tell you how much I miss you and how my heart aches for your loss, and all of the things youโve missed earth side. This year weโre turning 30, and embarking on a new journey for this decade. I hope to have the honor of your spiritual presence by my side. Your memory lives on in me and within the stories I weave with my art.
Even after decades of therapy, I still battle the survivors guilt from time to time and my mind is often shackled with the cyclic question pleading to know if I was a destructive force in your life? In much of my poetry and writing I reference the heroโs journey, an ancient trope I feel Iโve been typecast in as a path to my souls redemption; I may view my past as dark and gnarled and weighty, but my future can be light, a soul burning anew. Iโm introspective enough to know that Iโve taken people and things for granted too easily in my life and underestimate my influence until itโs far too late to change the course of pre determination. Iโve had to learn this a few times over, the painful way, for the lesson to stick. Without my influence in your life, would you still be here or would you have slipped out of this world and into the mist in a different iteration of the same fate? I shake these thoughts away like shooing fruit flies from the rotting contents of the divergences not taken, the shouldโve, wouldโve and couldโve that for my sake I canโt keep entertaining. I keep trying to be enough, to be what I deem โa good personโ, certainly a better one than I had been in my youth. Thatโs all I can do now. I canโt outrun my survivors guilt, I can only accept that I canโt change whatโs happened but can control many aspects of the path the future walks in on.
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