When 20 year old Zaya meets Jayceon Taylor better known to the streets simply as Game her life takes a turn in a direction she never thought existed. After six years and three kids with the man she's head over heels in love with she finds herself trying...
I took one last sip of my drink and looked around the restaurant I was sitting in while I waited for my sister and Sophia to come in. I had showed up earlier than what they told me to but I needed to get out of the house so I could shake this depressing ass feeling I had at the moment. Kamiah was at day care, I had off from work and there was nothing else to do, lucky for me my sister and Sophia were both free so they agreed to meet me.
I took one last sip of my drink and looked around the restaurant I was sitting in while I waited for my sister and Sophia to come in. I had showed up earlier than what they told me to but I needed to get out of the house so I could shake this depressing ass feeling I had at the moment. Kamiah was at day care, I had off from work and there was nothing else to do, lucky for me my sister and Sophia were both free so they agreed to meet me.
âExcuse me,â I called the waitress over. âCan I get another Cape Cod please? Thank you.â I gave her a small smile then went back to looking around the restaurant. When I saw Zaya and Sophia coming in I smiled. I got up and gave both of them hugs once they got to the table.
âThe fuck is up with your hair?â I asked Zaya. The last time I saw her, which was only a few days ago her hair was black and went to the middle of her back now it only did she have a bob, the shit was pink.
âGot it done yesterday, just trying something new. You look cute,â
âThank you,â We all sat down just as the waitress was coming over, she sat my drink down then took their orders. âSo whatâs good Ms. Sophia, where is Harpo?â I asked referring to her man Aaron.
âHa that was so not funny,â She rolled her eyes playfully. âHeâs at his store like always. Whereâs my muffin?â
âDaycare where she belongs,â I chuckled. âZaya, thank you for telling me that mama was taking them to Disney world tomorrow. I had to rush like a maniac to get her stuff packed before I came here this morning.â My mother called me while I was on the way to Kamiahâs school telling me her and my father was taking all of her grand kids to Disney world and they were leaving tonight. Now I definitely didnât have a problem with her doing it but she couldâve given me some more notice. I dropped Miah off then went rushing home so I could make sure I had all of her stuff.
âI thought she told you, she called me and just told me what she was going to do. I didnât even get asked. I donât mind it though, once theyâre out of school theyâre going straight over her house so they can leave tonight. So that means I am baby free for a few days, are we going out tonight?â
âHell yes, I need to go out and have a good time especially since Iâm single.â I said and they both looked at me shocked out of their minds.
âBitch what? Since when?â
âSince last week, he got his shit and moved the fuck out and Iâm happy he did.â I told them.
âWhat the fuck happened? Yâall were just fine,â
âHim and his fuckinâ insecurities let me tell you what happened. I had to work late last week, and the day I worked late I left my charger in the house. My phone ended up dying, I wasnât worried about who was going to get Kamiah because mama picked her up for me. I guess when he couldnât get in touch with me he let whatever crazy person is living in his brain talk him into coming to my job. Zaya, this nigga came in my job spazzing about me being late. He called me every bitch and hoe in the book in front of everybody then he literally dragged my ass out the building. â
âAre you fuckinâ serious?â Zaya asked me astonished.
âYes, at that point I had enough. I canât keep going through the bullshit with him, he obviously does not trust me so why be with me. When we got home it went down, I was about five seconds off from setting all his shit on fire. He got his shit out the house and left, I donât know where heâs staying and I really donât care.â
âHeâs probably with Jayceon, thatâs crazy as hell though Alex. Why didnât you call me?â
âI didnât feel like dealing with that shit, Iâm lucky as hell I didnât get fired, it really couldâve went bad.â
âDonât you mean worse? Yâall are over, you should be hurt.â
âIt does hurt but itâs been coming for a long time, it was going to happen eventually. Oh well, Iâm just ready to go out and have some fun. Sophia, you down?â
âThe one time neither one of you bitches have a baby to watch hell yeah Iâm down. Iâm not driving though,â
âIâll drive,â Zaya volunteered. âAlex weâre per-gaming at your house so we should be over there a little after nine.â
âCool with me,â I told her.
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10:33 P.M.
âIâm mad both of you bitches are dressed sexy as fuck and I look like Iâm someoneâs mother.â Sophia complained making Zaya and I both laugh.
âYou look fine; you just look like you have a man which you do so quit with the complaining.â I told her while I sat at the table in my kitchen rolling up.
âSo you two are looking for new fish?â
âIâm not looking for a damn thing, Iâm just newly single so I need to show my ass a little bit. Zaya is the one looking like an IG thot.â
âBitch fuck you,â Zaya laughed. âI look good as hell, and now that you speak on that. Iâm about to go upload some shit.â
âDo you, once I light this blunt we can leave after we finish.â Zaya and Sophia went about their business taking pictures and shit while I rolled my blunt. Once I was done I lit it and took a few pulls then gave it to Sophia.
I hopped on Instagram and looked at both of their post laughing.
_sophia_
_sophia_ who badder than me?
I know for a fact Aaron is going to call Sophia about her outfit even though sheâs not showing anything inappropriate. Heâs just protective like that, Zayaâs post was going to get her in trouble with Jayceon. Theyâre not together but the nigga is still a psycho for her so he will not be happy about her night out.
baybeezaya
baybeezaya: im a bitch worst nightmare and her niggas wettest dream.
âZaya you had to go outside to take pictures? Is it really that deep?â
âHell yes itâs that deep, when you slap like this it must be documented right.â
âYou get on my nerves bruh,â
âI love you too sugar foot, go take whatever pictures you need to so we can go.â I grabbed my phone and made Sophia take a few pictures of me then uploaded them on Instagram.
ladiimonroe
ladiimonroe: letting me go is your biggest regret
âLEGGO!â I yelled after I laughed at the subtle shade I just threw at a certain somebody. I grabbed my purse locked my house up and we were off.
Playhouse Hollywood was crowded as hell like it always is during the weekends, tonight was nothing new. I know I had no plans on standing in line and neither did my girls and thatâs why Sophia got our names on the list when we first made plans to even go out so we had the pleasure of walking right on in.
Being that we per-gamed at my house we already had a nice buzz going so we went straight to the dance floor. We danced through at least seven songs before we finally went to our table that already had our bottles there. I sat down on the couch and popped open the Ciroc they had chilling in ice for us and fixed all three of us a drink.
âIâm glad we came here, theyâre on one tonight.â I said hyped up. Iâm glad tonight it was poppin, the worse thing in the world is going to the club and being bored. Spending all that damn money for no reason, nobody had time for that.
I was sitting down with my drink just vibing and watching my sister act like she didnât have three kids at home. Instead of sitting down and getting herself together like Sophia and I were doing, she decided to go back to the dance floor and she was really turning up. She wasnât making herself look stupid, if she was I would have to interfere but she was just having her a good time, so good of a time she was attracting some attention from the opposite sex.
She had that thick ass of hers on some nigga dancing to Nicki Minajâs Anaconda. Sophia and I both were cracking the fuck up until the DJ came over the music.
âSHOUT OUT TO MY NIGGA GAME WHO JUST WALKED IN!â When I heard that name I looked at Sophia and she had the same âoh shitâ expression I did. As soon as this nigga sees Zaya backinâ that ass up on some random ass nigga heâs going to flip out. This night was about to make a sharp left.
Jayceon
Walking into Playhouse Hollywood I shook hands with some niggas and sent winks to the bitches that were damn near trying to run other people over to get to me. I laugh at that shit every time I go out, sometimes I entertain a few of these chicks but tonight I was on a mission. I really had no plans on coming out until one of my people called me and told me my baby mama was in here dressed like she didnât know who the fuck she had kids with or something so I wanted to handle it. I didnât come to fight with her, or even argue with her I just wanted to see how she got down when she didnât know I was around.
To prove the point that I really didnât come to fight I had Kia and Chantae with me, I had my whole crew with me actually. If I wanted to just drag her out I wouldâve come dolo and snatched her ass up out, but I was going to let her have her fun, I just wanted to see it.
We went over to the table and sat down, I looked around and spotted Sophia and Alex sitting in their section. Usually I wouldâve called Cam and told him about his BM being in here looking like she was trying to find a nigga but he told me they broke up so there is no point in bringing any drama to her. Iâll let her have her fun. Before I took my seat I walked over to them and gave both of them a hug. I fight with their homie like a muthafucka but Sophia and Alex are like little sisters to me, Iâll break a nigga neck for them real quick.
âI hope you not in here to start no shit Jay,â Alex said to me.
âNah Iâm chillinâ Iâm not even about to bother her. Iâll have them bring yâall another bottle though,â I told them then walked back to where I was before.
We popped bottles, drank and just chilled for a good minute until one of my homies tapped me and pointed to my right. Looking over I chuckled when I saw Zaya walking over. I got up and met her halfway. âSo you out here, acting like you donât have kids huh?â I asked her and she chuckled.
âThat was funny, youâre funny.â She slurred back. I shook my head laughing again just because I could tell she was drunk, this is why her low tolerance for alcohol ass shouldnât be going out. âYou look good, I see your groupies are with you. You still fuckinâ with Tae? I shouldâve known.â She shook her head.
âWhy you worried about who Iâm fuckin? Iâm not fuckinâ you.â
âYeah, and those bum bitches are the exact reason youâre not. Maybe if you didnât stick your dick in everything we would be together.â Just as I was about to respond to her I felt my hand being grabbed, so I looked up and Tae was right there holding my hand. I couldnât help but look at her like she was fuckinâ idiot, the fuck is she holding my hand for?
âBaby, come back over to where we were.â She said in my ear then looked at Zaya. âMm, JaâZaya.â
âTrick,â Zaya said back then looked at me. âSo yâall together like that now? I knew yâall were fuckinâ but you holding hands my nigga?â
âDonât worry about what heâs doing with me,â Tae snapped at Zaya and I glared at her.
âChill the fuck out, and get off my hand.â I moved my hand away from hers then looked at Z again. âWeâre not together,â
âI canât fuckinâ tell the bitch just walked over here, held your hand and came at me like sheâs entitled to some shit.â
âWho you callinâ a bitch?!â Tae yelled at her.
âIâm callinâ you a bitch the fuck you wanna do about it!â Zaya shouted back. Out of nowhere Tae raised her hand up and emptied a cup on Zayaâs face. I didnât even see this bitch with a drink. I immediately went to grab Zaya because I know how she is, she was about to kill this bitch but she somehow dipped me and slapped the shit out of Tae then just pounced on her.
I tried to get in the middle of them but Zaya had Taeâs hair in a tight ass grip all the while throwing blows to the side of her face that Tae couldnât protect. âLET HER HAIR GO ZAYA!â I yelled but she wasnât listening, her crazy lifted her foot and started kicking Tae in the fuckinâ stomach.
After trying to get them apart for what felt like forever Alex and Sophia finally noticed what was going on and came over. Alex somehow got her sister off of Tae and started to pull her back. âYOU BITCHES BETTER STOP FUCKINâ WITH ME!â I didnât even bother helping Tae up, she brought that ass whoopinâ on herself. I walked over to Zaya and grabbed her arms but she snatched away from me. âFUCK OFF ME NIGGA! CONTROL YO BITCHES!â
âAight chill the fuck out, I didnât tell her to fuck with you. Just chill!â
âChill my ass! The bitch threw a fuckinâ drink on me I donât play that shit!â
âAlright but you need to calm the fuck down, this aint no hood ass spot, you on Hollywood Boulevard theyâll lock yo ass up. Come on, you coming with me.â
âYou got me fucked up, Iâm not going with you.â
âYes the fuck you are, letâs fuckinâ go. Donât make me snap in this bitch you already know what thatâs like.â She looked at me to see if I was serious and once she saw I wasnât playing with her ass she got her stuff then came back over to me. âHow is your sister getting home?â
âI gave her my keys, letâs just go before I swing on that other one.â I grabbed her arm and walked her out of the club and to my car just to make sure she wasnât going to try and fight Kia next. I know how Zaya operates and she wouldâve swung on Kia just because she was pissed off right now.
When we got to my house she walked in and went straight to living room. When I walked in she was sitting there looking like a damn baby pouting and shit. âThe fuck is wrong with you? Fix your face.â
âIâm sorry Jayceon did you just miss one of your bitches throwing a fuckinâ drink in my face or were you not present?â
âI saw it but why the fuck do you have an attitude with me?â
âSheâs your bitch, control that fuckinâ dog. I keep telling you that shit, when I kill one of those bitches donât say shit. I donât even know why you fuck with those nasty ass hoes,â
âWhy do you care?â
âI donât,â
âNah I think you do, thatâs why you got so mad when she grabbed my hand. You still want me, donât you?â
âNigga bye, I donât want your cheating ass.â
âWhen are you going to get over that?â
âGet over what?â
âThat cheating shit, itâs been over a year,â
âSo what? That means Iâm supposed to forget about it?â
âNah, but can you at least forgive? I fucked up, I get it youâre forever bringing that shit up.â
âI can bring it up because you did it to me. Iâm six months pregnant and youâre fuckinâ other bitches, not only are you fucking them youâre then coming home and kissing all up on me like you wasnât out getting your dick wet by somebody else, thatâs disrespectful as fuck.â
âIâve apologized to you I donât know how many times, and none of them were fake you just choose not to let it go. I donât know but you just want to hold all that shit in.â
âWhatever Jayceon, Iâm done talking about this shit.â
âSee, thatâs your problem. You brought it up now you want to change the subject just so you can bring it up some other time.â
âLike I said, whatever.â She rolled her eyes getting up off the chair. âIâm going to sleep, Iâll be in a guest room.â She started to walk past me to get out of the room but I grabbed her by the waist pulling her back so that she was standing directly in front of me. âCan you let me go?â
âNo,â
âWhy not?â
âI miss you,â
âOh nigga please, get off me Jayceon I donât feel like playing with you.â
âWho said I was playing? Iâm dead serious; I love and miss you Zaya.â
âWhatâs your point?â
âDonât even act like that with me,â I looked down at her. Zaya was fuckinâ beautiful and she knew it, but I donât think she realized how much. Everything about her face and body was perfect, I couldnât imagine having my kids by any other woman.
âYou need to let me go, right now Iâm not in the mood for you.â
âSo youâre going to stand here right in my face and lie like you donât want me?â
âNigga, I donât want you fuck is wrong with your brain?â
âI think youâre lying.â
âI donât give a fuck about what you thin-âInstead of hearing her I pulled her face close to mine and shut her up with a kiss. To my surprise she kissed me back, and it wasnât some simple shit she kissed me like she really meant that shit until she pulled back. She tilted her head to the side and stared at me and biting her bottom lip with so much lust in her eyes. I licked my lips, picked her up putting her back against the wall, and went back in for a kiss.
âI love you so much Shan,â he said between kisses Iâm sorryâ I placed her feet back on the floor then pulled her dress over her head and ripping the white lace thong she had on. Picking her up again I walked over to the couch and laid her down then started to unbuckle my pants.
âWait, do you have a condom?â she asked making me look at her like she was stupid.
âWhat?â I asked
âWeâre not together and youâve been every bitch willing to open their legs, Iâm not doing this shit with you raw.â
I sucked my teeth but reached into my back pocket. I really didnât want to use one with Zaya, Iâve never used one with her so why she was trying to be on some safe sex shit now I donât know. âYeah man I got one,â he said. If I didnât want some of her pussy so bad I wouldâve have cursed her ass out.
I opened the condom and rolled it on. Once I had it on, I spread her legs and rammed my dick in her aggressively causing her to grip my shirt and moan loudly. I had to bite my lip to keep myself from screaming out like a little bitch and bustinâ early, Zaya felt good as fuck, tight, wet as hell and warm just like I remember.
âCome back home Zay,â I said while kissing her neck. âBring this pussy back to daddy,â I said while looking her dead in the eyes with a serious look. She didnât say anything so I pulled out.
âJay stop playing!â She whined and hit my arm. âPut it back,â
âNah I donât think you want it, do you?â I teased her opening with the tip of my dick and that shit had her squirming like crazy.
âYes baby I want, give it to me.â Chuckling I gripped her thighs slamming back into her.
âJayceon!â she moaned.
Stepping back and got her off the couch and turned her around so I could enter her from the back.I felt her pussy muscles tighten up and her legs starting to shake so I pulled out again. A few seconds later I slammed my dick back in her, this time she arched her back deeper just like I wanted her to. Within minutes we were both cumming. âShit girl,â I grunted before smacking her on the ass.
âFuck!â She groaned loudly. âThat shit was crazy,â
âBut you didnât miss a nigga? Oh please,â I laughed.
âShut the fuck up,â She chuckled. âHelp me up, I canât move.â
âHold up,â I pulled out of her and went to get rid of my condom in the downstairs bathroom then came back and picked her up off the couch.
âI wanna sleep now,â
âOh you got me fucked up, you finally giving some pussy up Iâm getting all this shit. This is an all-night thing baby girl.â
âNooooo,â She whined making me laugh while I carried her upstairs. She just donât know Iâm dead ass serious.
Yeah, they have a long way to go.. The love is definitely there, they just show it differently. It's a dysfunctional type of love, just crazy. If they do give their relationship a go again, they should move slow & get to know each other again. So much has changed between them, so it'll only be right for them to start over.. Shit idk, but they need to get their shit together ASAP
yeah they definitely do love each other but they donât know how to go about it the right way.
*le sigh* I don't know where to begin with these two. Lawd they both need to work on talking to each other instead of talking at each other. If they don't learn how to simply communicate with each other. Nothing will change with in their relationship. It's gonna always be blows ups and screaming matches which isn't good for the kids. Neither of them know how to properly go about handling the situation if one of them do fly off the handle. I just I don't know what to say bout them
exactly, they both have some damn attitude problems. theyâre too much alike to be honest lol
Jayceon and Zaya need to get it together because right now they are a hot mess. Then Janaya asking what a bitch is? Really? Jayceon and Zaya need to do better for their because their fighting and disrespect towards each other only affects their children. I agree with Zaya's mom, if things don't work out if or when they reconcil then they need to dead the idea of getting back together ever again.
getting back together or not they have to figure something out because they have kids together, they gotta stop being so damn stubborn basically
This was a good update. She feels ignored and disrespected. Out of all the advice given, innocent yaya hit the nail on the head. She wants to feel likeba queen HasJayceon always put her feelings on the back burner or has she tried to change him to something he's not? Wasnt here for the first draft. Some flashbacks might help to feel in how they use to be. He couldnt have always been this shitty. Although they argued from day 1. I was hoping he planning something.....
lmao flashbacks will come so youâll see. heâs not an asshole all the time but once he gets mad he doesnât care about what comes out of his mouth just like Zaya doesnât care. you put two stubborn ass people who never want to admit when their wrong in an argument there will be some issues lol
I thought Jayceon talking to Janaya about him using the word bitch was a good start to righting his wrongs but he was still rude in his dialogue with Zaya after his conversation with Janaya was done. Idk. Progress was made this chapter.
He was pissed that she waited to tell him in front of somebody else, in his mind he shouldâve called him and told him as soon as it happened
That nigga is a fucking asshole. He should've been more mad at himself that his daughter heard him calling her mother a bitch. He's wayyyyyy passed stubborn
Jayceon has been an asshole lmao itâs no longer shocking
âI canât believe you really got my ass ready to talk to a fuckinâ shrink, we donât need this bullshit.â
âYes we do, we canât even be around each other without an argument breaking out. You might as well suck it up, the session is already paid for. You wouldnât want your money to go to waste.â
âYou made me pay for this shit? Youâre the one that wanted to come.â
âI canât believe you really got my ass ready to talk to a fuckinâ shrink, we donât need this bullshit.â
âYes we do, we canât even be around each other without an argument breaking out. You might as well suck it up, the session is already paid for. You wouldnât want your money to go to waste.â
âYou made me pay for this shit? Youâre the one that wanted to come.â
âSo what, thatâs not the point.â I was ready to snap on her ass until the receptionist called our names and told us we could go inside. We both got up and went in the office.
âHow are you doing? Iâm Dr. Simon. Itâs nice to meet you.â The doctor said when we walked in. We both shook his hand giving him our first names then we sat down. âSo what seems to be the problem between you two?â
âWe donât get along, and unfortunately weâre not in a situation where we can just leave each other alone and never speak because we have kids.â Zaya answered him.
âHow many kids do you have and what are their ages?â
âThree, one is five, one is four and our youngest is one years old.â
âSo youâve known each other a good while, are you in a relationship?â
âNo and thatâs because of him.â
âBecause of me?â I looked at her like she was stupid. âYouâre the one that packed up and left, fuck you talking about?â
âI left because of you, that donât click in your head?â
âNo you left because you wanted to be a selfish ass bitch and take my kids from me.â
âBullshit, I never took them from you. You were cheating on me while I was fuckinâ pregnant, the fuck did you expect me to do? Stay there while you fuckinâ bitches?â
âAlright, alright I need both of you to calm down.â Dr. Simon interrupted us. âThere is obviously a lot of hostility here, Jayceon you called Zaya out of her name.â
âHe always does that, Iâm a bitch every other damn day in his eyes. Thatâs what starts our fights.â
âFights? Are you talking verbal or physical?â
âBoth sometimes,â She said and the doctor looked at me then back at her. âHas he ever hit you?â
âWe fight doc, itâs really hard to explain.â She told him.
âNo itâs not, he either hits you or he doesnât.â
âIâve hit him too so it doesnât matter,â
âIt does matter, has he hit you?â
Zaya sighed then sucked her teeth. âYes, he has hit me before. Is that what you wanted to hear?â
âSince itâs the truth yes, Jayceon why hit her?â
âWeâre not about to sit here and act like Iâm on some Ike Turner bullshit, itâs not like that. Iâm not beating her ass or anything like that, Iâve lost my cool and slapped her a few times, most of those times was a reaction from her punching me in my shit.â
âThe problem you two have is very obvious. You love each other that much is clear, but neither one of you want to take responsibility for anything. Both of you are violent towards each other, that is one huge problem in itself. Weâre going to go a little deeper, Zaya how did you grow up?â
âWhat do you mean how did I grow up?â
âSingle mother house hold, two parent house hold? Which one was it?â
âTwo parent household, most of the time. My dad was in and out of jail a lot.â
âWhere is he now?â
âHome with my mother now, he just got out of prison a year ago for assault.â
âOkay so he has a violent past?â
âIf you were a cartel leader in Jersey you would have a violent past too. My father is a good man, he only gets that way when heâs disrespected.â
âThe apple doesnât fall too far from the tree apparently. Okay, what about your mom? Was he violent with her?â
âHell no, heâs not that dumb my mother would kill him if he ever thought about it. I didnât grow up seeing my parents fight so donât try that with me. I just donât like being disrespected, when I would disrespect my mother I got popped in the mouth. So if somebody disrespects me they ge-â
âPopped in the mouth, I get it. Okay Jayceon what about you?â
âWhat about me?â
âWere your parents around?â
âMy mother died when I was 15, and my father passed when I was 20.â
âHow are old are you now?â
â32, whatâs your point?â
âMy point is Iâm trying to figure out why you feel like itâs okay to slap the mother of your children.â
âSo you didnât just hear her say she hits me too? The fuck am I supposed to do, take the shit like an idiot.â
âYou could walk away, Jayceon just looking at you two tells me that if you get into actual fights things go bad. Youâre over six feet, clearly over two hundred pounds. No offense to you Zaya, but youâre not small and if you can go toe to toe with him that tells me youâre incredibly strong.â
âOkay, and?â
âThe fighting has to stop, thatâs before anything else. You do not want that situation to turn into more than a fight. One day it will go too far and one of you will end up in a grave while the other is behind bars. You have kids, this is serious.â He said to both of us. âJayceon was your father a violent man?â
âYup, he would knock you the fuck out for even looking at him wrong.â
âSo do you think that has had any effect on the way you act?â
âIâm my fatherâs child,â I shrugged. âHe raised me; this has nothing to do with my relationship though and I donât feel like talking about my father so change the subject.â
âOkay thatâs fine, we know weâre the both of you get your violent nature from. Letâs move on, Zaya you said he cheated on you, is that the only other issue?â
âNo heâs controlling and inconsiderate; anytime I say something he never pays attention. I could ask him something and it goes in one ear and out the other.â
âGive me an example,â
âAlright he has this girl he calls his friend, me and her do not get along at all. Iâve told him do not have her around my kids and he ignores that and just does whatever he wants to anyway,â
âIâm not fuckinâ Kia so you not wanting her around me donât make sense.â
âWait a minute, who is Kia?â
âHis hoe,â
âNo sheâs my friend, and she works with me.â
âWorks with you doing what?â
âI work inâŠsales.â
âYeah hoe sales,â Zaya mumbled. âIf I donât want her around my kids there should be no argument or a problem. I tell you something you ignore it then when I go off you disrespect me. Iâm through with that bullshit, itâs going to fuckinâ far.â She snapped at me.
âWhy you getting mad, just calm down and talk.â I told her. Zaya was really getting mad and I know this is a tense situation but her whole face was starting to turn red and from what I could see it looked like tears were forming in her eyes. The fuck?
âZaya, I see youâre getting emotional. Explain why youâre getting upset.â Dr. Simon questioned while handing her some tissue.
âHe doesnât get how much the shit he does affects everything. Itâs not just about me and him, this is starting to get to our kids.â
âWhat are you talking about?â I asked her.
âJanaya asked me what a bitch was, why you call me a bitch all the time and is she one. The shit youâre doing is trickling down to our daughter; I donât want her growing up thinking that itâs alright for her to deal with the shit I put up with from you.â
âWhy you aint tell me she asked you that shit?â
âI just did,â
âCome on,â I stood up and she looked at me confused.
âWhat are you doing?â
âWeâre about to go talk to her daughter, Iâm not waiting until after this bullshit is over. Letâs go, right now.â
I didnât give a fuck about this therapy session, I didnât care about what this doctor was talking about. All I cared about right now was my daughter, and trying to calm myself down. I wanted to snap Zayaâs neck for waiting to tell me this bullshit. She shouldâve called and told me as soon as it happened, she calls and bitches at me any other time but this is the situation she wants to keep a fuckinâ secret. The fuck is wrong with her ass I donât know.
Zaya
I was biting my tongue and trying to hold my composure the whole time we were driving to my parentsâ house. Jayceon really had the nerve to get mad at me about the whole thing with Janaya, how the fuck is it my fault she questioned me about him calling me a bitch? I donât get or understand this nigga at all.
When we pulled up to the house he got out the car and slammed the door like he was fuckinâ stupid. âYou really need to cut the damn attitude out.â I yelled after I opened my door. I hopped out the car and walked to the front door.
âYou shouldâve told me,â
âI did tell you, shut the fuck up. Damn,â I used my key to open the door and we both went inside. âMa! Weâre back!â I shouted then she came walking out the living room a few minutes later.
âThatâs good, how did it go?â She asked me.
âNot good, he has an attitude because of what Janaya asked me, heâs mad at me thatâs backwards as fuck.â
âIâm mad you didnât say something, you should call and told me that shit so I could talk to my fuckinâ daughter smart ass.â He snapped at me. âTish where is my daughter?â
âIn the living room, Omar took the boys with him to the store. Go ahead and talk to her.â He glared at me then walked into the living room. âWell that seems like it went to waste.â
âHe doesnât get it, I tell him Janaya hears him talking to me certain ways and it pisses him off. Instead of getting mad at himself for saying it he gets mad at me. Who does that?â
âJayceon does that, you knew what type of man he was before you had kids with him Zaya.â
âSo this is my fault?â
âNo Iâm not saying that, but you do have your moments. Just go talk to your daughter with him alright. I need to get started on dinner.â She kissed my cheek then went to the kitchen while I went to the living room where Jayceon had Janaya on his lap talking to her.
âIâm sorry you heard me talking to your mommy that way, no man should ever talk to a woman like that.â
âWhat does the word mean?â She asked him.
âItâs just not a good word, I really canât explain it to you right now but you will understand when you get older. Listen to me though; donât ever let a boy, or anybody else call you a bitch alright? Youâre not a bitch, youâre a princess and when you get older youâll be a queen.â
âIs mommy a queen?â
âYes your mommy is a queen, she doesnât realize it though. I donât think I do a good job of helping her realize it either.â
âMaybe you should,â
âHow should I do it?â
âTake her on a date, she never goes on dates.â
âMaybe Iâll do that,â Chuckling I backed up out of the living room and went to the kitchen where my mother was.
âWell? What did she say?â
âSheâs still talking to Jayceon; Iâll talk to her when theyâre done.â I said while taking a seat at the kitchen table. âMa, do you think Jay and I belong together?â
âExcuse me?â
âYou heard me ma,â
âI know but I thought maybe I heard wrong. Why are you asking me that?â
âI just want to know,â
âI canât tell you what to do Zaya, thatâs all up to you.â
âTrue but I know I will hear your mouth about it later, so just tell me now.â
âDo you still love him?â That was a hard question, I did still love Jayceon. My life has been mostly about him for the last six years, how does that go away? I didnât want to admit that though, I feel like going back to him would make me weak. âItâs alright if you do, you have kids with the man, you were with him for a long time. I can tell by the way yâall fight you both love each other.â
âWouldnât we be good if we truly loved each other though? Love isnât supposed to hurt.â
âWho told you that? Zaya love does hurt, it hurts like hell. Iâm not saying if youâre miserable that means youâre in love but think about it. Jayceon can make you go from 0 to 100 is 2.5 seconds, why is that?â
âHeâs an idiot,â
âNo itâs because youâre still in love with his ass, if you didnât care about him what he does wouldnât affect you and that goes for him too.â
âOkay so are you saying we need to be together?â
âNo, just because you love somebody doesnât mean heâs the one youâre supposed to be with. Iâll say this, if you do try again. Let this be the last time, if it doesnât work out move the fuck on. Both of you, well you mostly because canât nobody tell me heâs not getting his dick wet.â
âMa really?â
âYes really, Iâm just telling you the truth.â
âWell do me a favor, if Jayceon doesnât take the kids can you babysit I have inventory to do tonight.â
âIâll keep them, what time are you going in?â
âIâm about to go home so I can take a nap. I already know itâs going to take me a good minute to finish.â
âSo why not just go in now?â
âI canât do it with a bunch of customers around I have to have complete silence.â
âAlright well go ask that big head ass baby daddy of yours what heâs going to do.â
âOkay,â I got up and kissed her on the cheek. âIâll see you later.â I walked back to the living room and peeked in. Janaya was cuddled up on Jayceonâs chest asleep but he was going through his phone. âJay,â I called his name and he looked up at me.
âWhat?â
âIâm about to go home and take a nap so I can go to work tonight, you can take the kids with you or you can keep them here with my parents. Itâs up to you,â
âAlright Iâll tell your mother what Iâm going to do.â
âText me and let me know when you make up your mind.â
âI will,â He didnât even bother taking his eyes off the phone. I just had to shake my head and get the fuck out of there before I cursed his ass out about that rude shit.