Walrus of Destiny (inactive)

Hey I'm Wallace or Willis (and Walrus too if you like) and I'm a digidestined from Colorado. I'm staying in Japan at the moment to see some of the other digidestined kids. I'm partnered with Terriermon and Lopmon. Also I think you're kind of cute.

[walrusofdestiny]

you're right though you lag it on replying lol

ooc: OH THAT WAS YOU!! -Note to self-

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"That's not true." He said firmly. "Yeah, you did do all those things, but that stuff that you made happen to me was not your fault. It was my choice. And I wouldn't change a second of my life with you, except maybe to make myself better. I'm a mess, I know that, and that's why I keep pushing you away. I'd rather push you away than leave me altogether."

[walrusofdestiny]

"No. You said no and I wouldn't listen. Sure you're a mess but..." Willis curled up, wrapping his arms around his legs, "But I still love you, and I always will. So that's why I'm scared to be with you. I don't want to hurt you anymore like that. I keep asking myself if I'd rather have you devastated because we broke up, or broken because I didn't let you say no. Honestly... my answer was pretty obvious. I don't want another Ryuichi or Alan to show up in our lives. And I still want... I still want a family, you don't. I'm not mad or anything. I'm just trying to be..." The words tasted acidic and they burned like lava, "I'm trying to be realistic." 

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"Then why would you say that?" He rushed over to the boy's side and detangled him, making sure to keep his distance though.

[walrusofdestiny]

"Because I'm the screwup in this relationship." Willis shrugged away from Daisuke, "I'm the one who was unfaithful, who repeatedly rejected you, who ran halfway around the world from you at least three times and jumped off a building. I made you get branded, made you get abused because I couldn't behave in public around you, knowing that anyone could have seen us. I dressed up in a horrible excuse for an outfit just to get your attention because I could tell you were pulling away from me and I'm too selfish to let you go. You were nothing but kind to me and at every turn I've hurt you. I don't want to be like this, I don't want this to be our destiny. That's why I said that. You aren't good enough, you're too good for me."

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"Wh-what?" Daisuke asked groggily, trying to wipe the sleep from his eyes the same way his smile had been wiped from the confession. "What do you mean?" He started sweating bullets. Was Willis really that mad at him from before? Did he finally see the truth, that he could do so much better than Daisuke? Was he going to dump him and kick him out again, where he'd be forced to sleep in the gutter or go back home? "Aren't... aren't I enough for you anymore?" his voice cracked.

[walrusofdestiny]

"What? No! That's not what I meant at all!" Willis felt his heart skipping a beat and he scrambled to find a way to fix it. He didn't mean to blurt out the question, and he certainly didn't mean to make Daisuke doubt himself again. "I... I need some air." Willis crawled and tangled up in the sheets he tumbled over and landed painfully on the floor, his head throbbing as he sat up and felt around for his clothes.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke mumbled something incoherent and slipped his arms around the boy so he was completely pressed up against him. This was what he wanted earlier when they had gotten in bed. He as still too shaken up from before to do anything more, and this was where he felt most comfortable: tangled up in his love's arms and fast asleep.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis felt his heart melting at the way Daisuke draped himself over him. Maybe the boy did still like him, but was it because he still felt the same way after all? Or was it that he felt bad for him? Because he felt guilty being with Willis at all? Whatever the answer was he still didn't want to break free. He could stay like this all night if he wanted to, and for the most part he did.

When he awoke however, and Daisuke was missing from bed the doubts returned. He sat up, wishing he could get a real answer. He stared at the door waiting for the door to open and Daisuke to cheerfully walk through the door. When the boy did, groggy and still wiping his eyes after going to the bathroom, Willis blurted it out, "I don't deserve this, I don't deserve to be with you."

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke stiffened at the kiss, but relaxed at the voice. The image of his father soon melted away to a smiling Willis, and he smiled back, wiping away his tears. In bed, he cuddled in closer, his breath steadying and his eyes loosening their death squeeze. Willis was there for him, to banish all of the bad people and memories. Willis was his hero.

[walrusofdestiny]

When he thought Daisuke fell asleep again he said, "Please don't stay mad at me. I was just trying to help before... and I'm afraid of losing you. I made a big mistake betraying you and now... It feels like you don't really want me anymore. Not unless I do something for you first..."

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke fell asleep much quicker than expected, and wished he hadn't. His night was filled with terrors from his past, spurred on by the night's earlier events. In his sleep, he clung to Willis' shirt and brought himself closer, hoping something would bring relief, someone would protect him. He was shaking and muttering, his eyes squeezed shut. "D-dad... I'm sorry, p-please... D-daddy, no..."

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis watched the boy sleep, saddened at what he heard. He had no idea what Daisuke was dreaming but from what he'd been told about Daisuke's dad, it was pretty obvious. He wrapped his arms around the boy's shoulders, pulling him tight. Without a second thought he pressed his lips to the boy's, hoping he'd recognize the feel of them and relax. "I'm here Daisuke, I'll protect you." He wanted to say.

[walrusofdestiny]

“I do. I can feel it. I need to prove myself. To make up for being stupid out there.” Willis was practically begging the boy now. “J-just… let me do this. I can. I know it.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“You weren’t stupid out there.” Daisuke said quietly. “But… if you want to… just know that I don’t want to.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“…Fine.” Willis pulled Daisuke’s pants back up and just curled up where he was, closing his eyes like he was going to sleep.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke peeked under the covers and saw Willis was already asleep. He sighed, half out of relief of dodging that bullet, and half out of guilt for making Willis upset yet again. He scooted down under the covers so he could curl up next to Willis, burying his face in the boy’s chest.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis didn't want to make the boy feel guilty but... he didn't know what to do. It was like nothing could satisfy him anymore. Was Daisuke getting more disappointed in him? Did he still believe that he would leave him for Koushiro? Honestly it was confusing, especially when it felt like Daisuke was the one distancing himself from the boy, either to keep from getting hurt again, or out of disappointment. Either way Willis felt like shit about it. He wanted to apologize again but his boyf... Daisuke would never accept it. Even as Daisuke pressed himself against Willis, it still felt more out of pity than care.

[walrusofdestiny]

“I do. I can feel it. I need to prove myself. To make up for being stupid out there.” Willis was practically begging the boy now. “J-just… let me do this. I can. I know it.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“You weren’t stupid out there.” Daisuke said quietly. “But… if you want to… just know that I don’t want to.”

[walrusofdestiny]

"...Fine." Willis pulled Daisuke's pants back up and just curled up where he was, closing his eyes like he was going to sleep.

[walrusofdestiny]

terriermon-digimon reblogged your post: terriermon-digimon started following you …

.. kinda a long story ..

Well, I’ve got time. Just as long as nothing’s broken…

[terriermon-digimon-deactivated2]

ok .. first Henry chose me to be his digimon and he was playing against a stronger digimon and I got hurt then I was brought to the Humans world .. that’s all „

[walrusofdestiny]

Oh, how bad is it? I think I have a first aid kit somewhere around here

[terriermon-digimon-deactivated2]

Momentai I’m fine now :) that happened long time ago

[walrusofdestiny]

Momentai? What's that mean?

[walrusofdestiny]

“It is. You always act like I’m better than you. Except when I do this. When I please you it’s like… you’re not idolizing me for once. What you said earlier… It was like you didn’t want me. I panicked. I need to prove that I belong to you.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“You belong to no one, and especially not me. You don’t need to prove anything.”

[walrusofdestiny]

"I do. I can feel it. I need to prove myself. To make up for being stupid out there." Willis was practically begging the boy now. "J-just... let me do this. I can. I know it."

[walrusofdestiny]

terriermon-digimon reblogged your post: terriermon-digimon started following you …

.. kinda a long story ..

Well, I’ve got time. Just as long as nothing’s broken…

[terriermon-digimon-deactivated2]

ok .. first Henry chose me to be his digimon and he was playing against a stronger digimon and I got hurt then I was brought to the Humans world .. that’s all „

[walrusofdestiny]

Oh, how bad is it? I think I have a first aid kit somewhere around here

[walrusofdestiny]

“I have to… I need to…” Willis touched Daisuke again, sliding his hand over the boy’s skin. “This is what you want from me most.” He mumbled to himself, “It’s the only time you don’t feel like you’re any less than me. It’s the only time you feel like we’re equals.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“That’s not true, Willis, please come back up here.”

[walrusofdestiny]

"It is. You always act like I'm better than you. Except when I do this. When I please you it's like... you're not idolizing me for once. What you said earlier... It was like you didn't want me. I panicked. I need to prove that I belong to you."

[walrusofdestiny]

terriermon-digimon reblogged your post: terriermon-digimon started following you ...

.. kinda a long story ..

Well, I've got time. Just as long as nothing's broken...

[walrusofdestiny]

“But I want to make it up to you…” Willis purred, his breath just inches from the boy’s sensitive body. The urge to hold back was fading fast.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“B-but you don’t have to… you really don’t. J-just come back up, please.”

[walrusofdestiny]

"I have to... I need to..." Willis touched Daisuke again, sliding his hand over the boy's skin. "This is what you want from me most." He mumbled to himself, "It's the only time you don't feel like you're any less than me. It's the only time you feel like we're equals."

[walrusofdestiny]

terriermon-digimon started following you

Terriermon? What are you doing here?

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis said nothing. He reached down under the sheets and under Daisuke’s shirt. “I can do this for you.” Kissing the boy once very briefly, he slid under the covers until he was between the boy’s legs. Once there he undid the boy’s front to take Daisuke’s length.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“W-wait, what’re you-” Daisuke’s voice hitched when he felt the boy’s fingers brush against sensitive skin. “W-wait, stop. D-don’t…”

[walrusofdestiny]

"But I want to make it up to you..." Willis purred, his breath just inches from the boy's sensitive body. The urge to hold back was fading fast.