Dai's Blog

I'm Daisuke! My friends call me Dai or Davis, though. And I'm a Digidestined! And this is where I do stuff, so... be free to ask me questions and junk!

[walrusofdestiny]

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“Then why would you say that?” He rushed over to the boy’s side and detangled him, making sure to keep his distance though.

[walrusofdestiny]

“Because I’m the screwup in this relationship.” Willis shrugged away from Daisuke, “I’m the one who was unfaithful, who repeatedly rejected you, who...

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"That's not true." He said firmly. "Yeah, you did do all those things, but that stuff that you made happen to me was not your fault. It was my choice. And I wouldn't change a second of my life with you, except maybe to make myself better. I'm a mess, I know that, and that's why I keep pushing you away. I'd rather push you away than leave me altogether."

[walrusofdestiny]

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“Wh-what?” Daisuke asked groggily, trying to wipe the sleep from his eyes the same way his smile had been wiped from the confession. “What do you mean?” He started sweating bullets. Was Willis really that mad at him from before? Did he finally see the truth, that he could do...

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"Then why would you say that?" He rushed over to the boy's side and detangled him, making sure to keep his distance though.

[walrusofdestiny]

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke mumbled something incoherent and slipped his arms around the boy so he was completely pressed up against him. This was what he wanted earlier when they had gotten in bed. He as still too shaken up from before to do anything more, and this was where he felt most...

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"Wh-what?" Daisuke asked groggily, trying to wipe the sleep from his eyes the same way his smile had been wiped from the confession. "What do you mean?" He started sweating bullets. Was Willis really that mad at him from before? Did he finally see the truth, that he could do so much better than Daisuke? Was he going to dump him and kick him out again, where he'd be forced to sleep in the gutter or go back home? "Aren't... aren't I enough for you anymore?" his voice cracked.

[walrusofdestiny]

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke stiffened at the kiss, but relaxed at the voice. The image of his father soon melted away to a smiling Willis, and he smiled back, wiping away his tears. In bed, he cuddled in closer, his breath steadying and his eyes loosening their death squeeze. Willis was there...

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke mumbled something incoherent and slipped his arms around the boy so he was completely pressed up against him. This was what he wanted earlier when they had gotten in bed. He as still too shaken up from before to do anything more, and this was where he felt most comfortable: tangled up in his love's arms and fast asleep.

[walrusofdestiny]

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke fell asleep much quicker than expected, and wished he hadn’t. His night was filled with terrors from his past, spurred on by the night’s earlier events. In his sleep, he clung to Willis’ shirt and brought himself closer, hoping something would bring relief, someone...

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke stiffened at the kiss, but relaxed at the voice. The image of his father soon melted away to a smiling Willis, and he smiled back, wiping away his tears. In bed, he cuddled in closer, his breath steadying and his eyes loosening their death squeeze. Willis was there for him, to banish all of the bad people and memories. Willis was his hero.

[walrusofdestiny]

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“I do. I can feel it. I need to prove myself. To make up for being stupid out there.” Willis was practically begging the boy now. “J-just… let me do this. I can. I know it.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“You weren’t stupid out...

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Daisuke fell asleep much quicker than expected, and wished he hadn't. His night was filled with terrors from his past, spurred on by the night's earlier events. In his sleep, he clung to Willis' shirt and brought himself closer, hoping something would bring relief, someone would protect him. He was shaking and muttering, his eyes squeezed shut. "D-dad... I'm sorry, p-please... D-daddy, no..."

[walrusofdestiny]

“I do. I can feel it. I need to prove myself. To make up for being stupid out there.” Willis was practically begging the boy now. “J-just… let me do this. I can. I know it.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“You weren’t stupid out there.” Daisuke said quietly. “But… if you want to… just know that I don’t want to.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“…Fine.” Willis pulled Daisuke’s pants back up and just curled up where he was, closing his eyes like he was going to sleep.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke peeked under the covers and saw Willis was already asleep. He sighed, half out of relief of dodging that bullet, and half out of guilt for making Willis upset yet again. He scooted down under the covers so he could curl up next to Willis, burying his face in the boy's chest.

[walrusofdestiny]

“I do. I can feel it. I need to prove myself. To make up for being stupid out there.” Willis was practically begging the boy now. “J-just… let me do this. I can. I know it.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"You weren't stupid out there." Daisuke said quietly. "But... if you want to... just know that I don't want to."

[walrusofdestiny]

“It is. You always act like I’m better than you. Except when I do this. When I please you it’s like… you’re not idolizing me for once. What you said earlier… It was like you didn’t want me. I panicked. I need to prove that I belong to you.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"You belong to no one, and especially not me. You don't need to prove anything."

[walrusofdestiny]

“I have to… I need to…” Willis touched Daisuke again, sliding his hand over the boy’s skin. “This is what you want from me most.” He mumbled to himself, “It’s the only time you don’t feel like you’re any less than me. It’s the only time you feel like we’re equals.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"That's not true, Willis, please come back up here."

[walrusofdestiny]

“But I want to make it up to you…” Willis purred, his breath just inches from the boy’s sensitive body. The urge to hold back was fading fast.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"B-but you don't have to... you really don't. J-just come back up, please."

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis said nothing. He reached down under the sheets and under Daisuke’s shirt. “I can do this for you.” Kissing the boy once very briefly, he slid under the covers until he was between the boy’s legs. Once there he undid the boy’s front to take Daisuke’s length.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"W-wait, what're you-" Daisuke's voice hitched when he felt the boy's fingers brush against sensitive skin. "W-wait, stop. D-don't..."

[walrusofdestiny]

“Oh. I’m really sorry Daisuke.” Willis’ voice wavered, “I… I want to make it up to you. I’ll… I’ll make it up to you I promise.” He nuzzled up to Daisuke, pulling himself close as he could. “I’ll make an exception for you.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"Whaddya mean?" Daisuke craned his neck to look at the boy.

[walrusofdestiny]

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke pushed all his negative thoughts and his need to be comforted to the back of his mind and locked it up tight. He promised Willis he’d stop all this silliness and buck up, and he intended to. Besides, Willis needed comforting now, and Willis always came first.

[walrusofdestiny]

“I...

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"No, it wasn't your fault or... that." Daisuke sighed and pulled the boy in closer. "It was what you said while wearing it. You reminded me too much of... myself. I felt like my dad or Ryuichi or one of the millions of other guys, and I saw myself instead of you. Sorry I kinda freaked out." If he had acted normally, maybe Willis would've reacted better, but he was so damaged he had to flip out like that.

[walrusofdestiny]

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“Still so cold…” Willis spluttered and coughed, his head was spinning and his lungs felt like they were on fire.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“Come out of the tub and to bed, I’ll warm you up.” Daisuke said gently, rubbing away the water from the boy’s cheeks with his thumb.

[walrusofdestiny]

...

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke pushed all his negative thoughts and his need to be comforted to the back of his mind and locked it up tight. He promised Willis he'd stop all this silliness and buck up, and he intended to. Besides, Willis needed comforting now, and Willis always came first.

[walrusofdestiny]

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“I am,” he calmed his voice, “really. I’m okay.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“But are you saying that just because you want me to tell you? Because if it is… then I can’t.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“I’m really not. I mean, I want you to tell me, but I really am okay.” He smiled…

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke was silent for a minute, jist staring into Willis’ eager and pleading face, squeezing his hands. He should have never asked in the first place. “Be… my b-bottom? Are you sure? I-I mean…” he chewed his lip, “isn’t there anything where… where I don’t have to be the… the top?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“Oh, well…” He let go of the boy’s hand. “I-I think there’s a costume shop still open.” his voice trembled as he spoke. “You c-can dress me up… However you w-want.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“What? Why would I want you to do that?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“I just, you mentioned it earlier so I just thought… I thought you’d like that…”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“No, no, no…” Daisuke bit his lip and sighed before looking at the boy. “I’ll do it. What you want, your way.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“What do you mean? Should Ito get a costume?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“No, no, forget that. I’ll do it - your fantasy - the way you pictured it.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“O-oh. You don’t have to. I can tell you don’t like it.” Willis sighed, “It’s okay, honest.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“No, it’s fine. Just let me go was my face and stuff, alright?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“Alright.” He slid off the boy and watched him walk away. When the door was closed he ran into his room, grabbing the box he’d been saving. He wasn’t sure when he planned to use it but had kept meaning to. In a few minutes he was dressed up in a leather outfit ready to to be stripped off in heat. He buckled a collar and chain, hoping Daisuke would like it, as well as the matching collar that his clipped on to.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke splashed some water on his face and took a few deep breaths, hanging on to the sink as if it could support him and all the weight he bared on his shoulders. He was nervous and a little scared, and didn’t want to admit any of that to Willis, but he promised him he’d do anything he wanted. He grimaced at his reflection.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis waited in the living room, covering himself up with the blanket as he waited for the boy’s return. “Please don’t be disappointed with me.” He mumbled to himself.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke cane back out of the bathroom, running his hand through his slightly damp hair and pulling at the collar of his shirt which had gotten a little wet as well to keep it from sticking to his skin. “Did you get everything ready?” he asked.

[walrusofdestiny]

“Uh yeah.” Willis sat still as he waited for the boy to walk around the couch and see him. Willis stood up and revealed the skin right outfit and the collar. “I-it’s not… Too much is it?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke turned red. “Wh-where’d you get all of… that?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“I’ve had it awhile. I was saving it as a surprise for you.” Willis blushed, “I wasn’t sure how you’d feel about this.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“It’s really… is this what you like? Like, honestly, noy just trying to… impress me or anything.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“I wanted to make it up to you for before, when you asked me to tie you up. What I like is to impress you.” He blushed, “So you don’t like it?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“You don’t have to make up for anything, or impress me.” Daisuke shook his head. “You know that.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“But I want to.” Willis tried to smile, “I have this chain so you can keep me tethered to you. Yank it whichever way you like. Please?” He put the end of the chain in the boy’s hand, practically begging him to pull.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke dropped the chain like it was on fire. All it took was one look at Willis and he had to squeeze his eyes shut, his hands pulling at his hair in a desperate attempt to make the images stop flashing in his mind’s eye. “No!” he cried. “I won’t! I won’t do it!”

[walrusofdestiny]

“D-Daisuke? What’s wrong?” He held the boy by the wrists, “Please! I’m sorry, I am, but tell me what’s going on?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“J-just… go change! Please, just go!”

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis nodded, running back to his room and tossing the get up in its box, locking it and throwing it against the wall. After that he threw on his regular clothes, then another sweater and another. He wanted to bury himself under his clothes. The more protection the better. When he was finally satisfied he carefully walked back into the living room.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke hadn’t moved an inch. As much as he wanted to just collapse, his knees were locked up too tight, and he didn’t even notice Willis walking back in, his eyes still squeezed as shut as possible and his fingers still scratching in his hair like he’d rip the memories out if he could only get to them.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis grabbed one of the boy’s hands squeezing it lightly.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke didn’t say anything, but he did calm down when he felt the reassuring squeeze and collapsed into the boy.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis felt cold when the boy was in his arms, he tried to comfort him as best he could, but he wanted to hide away from everyone. Even from Daisuke. But again he just but his lip and rested his chin on the boy’s shoulder. It felt like Daisuke was so far away, and even under the layers he felt cold as ice.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“I’m… I-I’m really sorry, Willis. We can try your fantasy later or another day, I’m just… not in the mood right now…”

[walrusofdestiny]

“Me neither.” Willis said. “Go to bed, I’ll be with you in a few minutes, I wanna take a shower.” Daisuke did so and Willis stripped out of his clothes shivering like a wet dog, turning the water as hot as it went, he filled the tub with water and slipped inside. It still wasn’t enough, he had to submerge himself if he wanted to get warm. Taking a deep breath he sunk his head underneath the surface of the water.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke curled up in a ball under the covers and waited for Willis to come join him. He really needed him right now, just to hold him and keep him warm and safe, to ensure him silently that those memories brought on by what the boy had said would never happen again.

[walrusofdestiny]

He held himself down under the water until he lost consciousness, there in the bottom of the run he sank, meanwhile the water spilled out of the tub, he’d forgotten to turn the knob and shut off the water. As a result it spilled out of the bathroom and into the hall.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke wrapped himself up in the blanket and went to the bathroom to go see what was taking him so long, when his feet felt wet. When he looked down, he saw water spilling out from under the door and he swung it open and pulled Willis out of the water. “Willis! Are you okay? Can you hear me? Come on, say something!”

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis could feel his body finally getting warm. Finally. He couldn’t hear Daisuke’s voice even as it grew more and more frantic.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke was at a loss of what to do, but when he saw the boy’s chest rising and falling slightly, he breathed a sigh of relief. “Thank god…” He breathed.

[walrusofdestiny]

“Still so cold…” Willis spluttered and coughed, his head was spinning and his lungs felt like they were on fire.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

"Come out of the tub and to bed, I'll warm you up." Daisuke said gently, rubbing away the water from the boy's cheeks with his thumb.

[walrusofdestiny]

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“I am,” he calmed his voice, “really. I’m okay.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“But are you saying that just because you want me to tell you? Because if it is… then I can’t.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“I’m really not. I mean, I want you to tell me, but I really am okay.” He smiled…

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke was silent for a minute, jist staring into Willis’ eager and pleading face, squeezing his hands. He should have never asked in the first place. “Be… my b-bottom? Are you sure? I-I mean…” he chewed his lip, “isn’t there anything where… where I don’t have to be the… the top?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“Oh, well…” He let go of the boy’s hand. “I-I think there’s a costume shop still open.” his voice trembled as he spoke. “You c-can dress me up… However you w-want.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“What? Why would I want you to do that?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“I just, you mentioned it earlier so I just thought… I thought you’d like that…”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“No, no, no…” Daisuke bit his lip and sighed before looking at the boy. “I’ll do it. What you want, your way.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“What do you mean? Should Ito get a costume?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“No, no, forget that. I’ll do it - your fantasy - the way you pictured it.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“O-oh. You don’t have to. I can tell you don’t like it.” Willis sighed, “It’s okay, honest.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“No, it’s fine. Just let me go was my face and stuff, alright?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“Alright.” He slid off the boy and watched him walk away. When the door was closed he ran into his room, grabbing the box he’d been saving. He wasn’t sure when he planned to use it but had kept meaning to. In a few minutes he was dressed up in a leather outfit ready to to be stripped off in heat. He buckled a collar and chain, hoping Daisuke would like it, as well as the matching collar that his clipped on to.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke splashed some water on his face and took a few deep breaths, hanging on to the sink as if it could support him and all the weight he bared on his shoulders. He was nervous and a little scared, and didn’t want to admit any of that to Willis, but he promised him he’d do anything he wanted. He grimaced at his reflection.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis waited in the living room, covering himself up with the blanket as he waited for the boy’s return. “Please don’t be disappointed with me.” He mumbled to himself.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke cane back out of the bathroom, running his hand through his slightly damp hair and pulling at the collar of his shirt which had gotten a little wet as well to keep it from sticking to his skin. “Did you get everything ready?” he asked.

[walrusofdestiny]

“Uh yeah.” Willis sat still as he waited for the boy to walk around the couch and see him. Willis stood up and revealed the skin right outfit and the collar. “I-it’s not… Too much is it?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke turned red. “Wh-where’d you get all of… that?”

[walrusofdestiny]

“I’ve had it awhile. I was saving it as a surprise for you.” Willis blushed, “I wasn’t sure how you’d feel about this.”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“It’s really… is this what you like? Like, honestly, noy just trying to… impress me or anything.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“I wanted to make it up to you for before, when you asked me to tie you up. What I like is to impress you.” He blushed, “So you don’t like it?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“You don’t have to make up for anything, or impress me.” Daisuke shook his head. “You know that.”

[walrusofdestiny]

“But I want to.” Willis tried to smile, “I have this chain so you can keep me tethered to you. Yank it whichever way you like. Please?” He put the end of the chain in the boy’s hand, practically begging him to pull.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke dropped the chain like it was on fire. All it took was one look at Willis and he had to squeeze his eyes shut, his hands pulling at his hair in a desperate attempt to make the images stop flashing in his mind’s eye. “No!” he cried. “I won’t! I won’t do it!”

[walrusofdestiny]

“D-Daisuke? What’s wrong?” He held the boy by the wrists, “Please! I’m sorry, I am, but tell me what’s going on?”

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“J-just… go change! Please, just go!”

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis nodded, running back to his room and tossing the get up in its box, locking it and throwing it against the wall. After that he threw on his regular clothes, then another sweater and another. He wanted to bury himself under his clothes. The more protection the better. When he was finally satisfied he carefully walked back into the living room.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke hadn’t moved an inch. As much as he wanted to just collapse, his knees were locked up too tight, and he didn’t even notice Willis walking back in, his eyes still squeezed as shut as possible and his fingers still scratching in his hair like he’d rip the memories out if he could only get to them.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis grabbed one of the boy’s hands squeezing it lightly.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke didn’t say anything, but he did calm down when he felt the reassuring squeeze and collapsed into the boy.

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis felt cold when the boy was in his arms, he tried to comfort him as best he could, but he wanted to hide away from everyone. Even from Daisuke. But again he just but his lip and rested his chin on the boy’s shoulder. It felt like Daisuke was so far away, and even under the layers he felt cold as ice.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

“I’m… I-I’m really sorry, Willis. We can try your fantasy later or another day, I’m just… not in the mood right now…”

[walrusofdestiny]

“Me neither.” Willis said. “Go to bed, I’ll be with you in a few minutes, I wanna take a shower.” Daisuke did so and Willis stripped out of his clothes shivering like a wet dog, turning the water as hot as it went, he filled the tub with water and slipped inside. It still wasn’t enough, he had to submerge himself if he wanted to get warm. Taking a deep breath he sunk his head underneath the surface of the water.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke curled up in a ball under the covers and waited for Willis to come join him. He really needed him right now, just to hold him and keep him warm and safe, to ensure him silently that those memories brought on by what the boy had said would never happen again.

[walrusofdestiny]

He held himself down under the water until he lost consciousness, there in the bottom of the run he sank, meanwhile the water spilled out of the tub, he’d forgotten to turn the knob and shut off the water. As a result it spilled out of the bathroom and into the hall.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke wrapped himself up in the blanket and went to the bathroom to go see what was taking him so long, when his feet felt wet. When he looked down, he saw water spilling out from under the door and he swung it open and pulled Willis out of the water. “Willis! Are you okay? Can you hear me? Come on, say something!”

[walrusofdestiny]

Willis could feel his body finally getting warm. Finally. He couldn’t hear Daisuke’s voice even as it grew more and more frantic.

[ramenboyforever-blog]

Daisuke was at a loss of what to do, but when he saw the boy's chest rising and falling slightly, he breathed a sigh of relief. "Thank god..." He breathed.