waltz the point

I've spent my days mostly wondering what's the point, maybe I can just waltz it. wanna dance?

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my body is gooped and gagged, but I'm so happy today (*´꒳`*)

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I was born on the 10th 🫪🥵

listening to this cool song (Addison Rae just went on, loves it) while doing gay stretches and solving straight crosswords — honestly sums up my life

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reaching out is a weird thing. sometimes I feel like I'm really reaching in

meeting my old classmates the other day really fucked my brains over. it's like looking in a mirror you haven't seen in years and realizing it doesn't make you look like the mirrors you use now do.

why did A. tell me she used to be jealous of me because she thought I was stealing her best friend? why did L. look at me in disgust when I said "sometimes I'm too vocally violent with the things I say? Why didn't E. move a muscle when I got his name wrong and just smiled at me before looking away? When and where did Z. get so cute and emotionally intelligent??

the biggest why's are always about me though. why do I feel so good and yet so bad now? why could I not stick with my best friend in that whole group during the night and just take it as a couple-challenge? why was I such a fucking faggoty social butterfly bitch? bore? did anyone really like me there?

A. asked to paint together at her house. R. asked the wind if it would go with him to the movie theatre. M. asked very little, he mainly spoke about himself.

I asked a lot, spoke a lot too. and that's okay, because I know why I'm this way. I think this is the point I was looking for. time to waltz it.

wanna dance?

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hello, just overthinking again

the sound of birds singing outside is keeping me up again

it might just be me refusing to sleep

why you may ask (because I know I do)

well, maybe this one time, it is because I'm happy

is too happy to sleep a thing?

and why did I feel too sad to stay awake earlier?

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ever feel like you can do anything? I do

sometimes I feel like we should feel, think and act the way we want to feel, think and act. hic et nunc, I feel like doing something productive while having fun

have You already asked yourself how You feel today?

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overthinking again

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meeting your old classmates 14 years after goodbyeing is weird. it's like I've met my own child-self and went "oh, you're still here too"

what once was done by adults, was done by us this time. A. and I patched up G. after I mistakenly body slammed her to the ground during a game of what once was.

you could say that we're all fully adults this time around. I would argue that there's a child that never really leaves

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I woke up maybe just a bit pissed (I did fall asleep last night): I slept way too little, I'm going to lunch with my family (ugh) and many other things I could keep stating.

To be cringe is to be free

I read this somewhere, sometime. Listening to cringe songs sometimes helps me. Maybe because certain cringe songs bring me back to easier times.

I might just like to cringe sometimes. do You?

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hic et nunc, here's some things I'm sure of

it's 4:29 am

I'm overthinking, thus I can't sleep

I'm tired, both physically and mentally

I'm trying to get better

I want to get better

I am getting better

La Haine, 1995

a movie I watched some time ago, while I was locked in a hotel room in a faraway country. translates to "Hate". I think it's also because of the hate that these three feel (towards themselves, each other, the world). Sometimes I hate stuff too. But watching them, I felt love, for them but also for myself.

I think it's because they were only trying to waltz life.

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another weird thing: therapy. it's not just weird though, it's self-ful. if you want and can, I think you should try it ❤️‍🩹

if you're doing it,

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phone calls are a weird thing. how can I expect to fully communicate with another human being when they're not even in front of me? it might just be the reason why "face to face" is a thing.

this friend loves Daft Punk. I like them as well, their music tickles not just my body but my brain too. maybe I am a fan of tickles after all

this friend also loves to break the rules, I do too. do You?

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first post. I wonder if it's something that's reeeeaaallly gonna matter in the future, you know, like one of those things that you kind of do carelessly in the moment and then when you rivisit them you kinda think "ugh. I should have done it better to begin with"

I'll start with things I'm sure of.

my name is Mario

I'm male

I mostly wear b&w. I mostly think in b&w too

I'm trying to get better

I hope this sticks. I'd love to know you and your art ٩( 'ω' )و