Neurodivergent Artist

kind of lost in life sharing my thoughts neurodivergent experiences Exploring

[wanderingartistsworld]

whenever I reach this overwhelm Burnout kind of phases I see I just forget my life completely I have identity crisis I have decision paralysis I dont know what to do anymore, what to eat like I want to eat something good but WHATTT??? and all of this frustrates me even more....

I forget my tasks, my skills, my art, my business things like I just completely forget the existence of it too .....

I forget what I live for and so I feel very lost and lifeless? Purposeless? idk the word for it right now ahhh

[wanderingartistsworld]

Kind of crashing again but being gentle with myself is the only positive way forward

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I AM COMPLETELY OKAY , I HAVE JUST NOT SLEPT PROPERLY THIS PAST WHOLE WEEK, AND TODAY I CAN'T KEEP MY EYES OPEN BECAUSE IAM SLEEPY AND I CAN'T SLEEP BECAUSE MY MIND TALK TOO MUCH, But other than that I am okay.

[wanderingartistsworld]

If I WANT to do something I do it but If there is any compulsion or external pressure I don't know why but sometimes mind goes - "Nahhhhh I am not doing that"

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I have to pay extra because of my executive dysfunction many times as well as physical health issues too and people conveniently think that I live too luxury life and spend unnecessarily or irresponsibly

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Enjoyed these Lichi's 😍😍😍😍

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Magically Wimchical moment of the day🦋 ✨-

sometimes butterflies get stuck on a window we have on the stairs side and they don't get out and then die and if I see in time I try me best to save them I really love butterflies.

So one was stuck on the window 🪟 so I put my hand near her she climbed my hand with her tiny feets🤩 and then I took her to the balcony she stay for few seconds on my hand then flew away 😍😍😍🦋

[wanderingartistsworld]

You can not be authentic and analytical at the same time 🌱

[yipyipallyall]

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too late I did it and burnt out and couldn't get out of bed for 4-6months! after that

but yea still if you say Do your best I mean I always do my best when I do something - if you say it I will think I need to do more

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Hyperfocus of the day 💖-

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[wanderingartistsworld]

Why jack of all trades is better than master of one:- because you can pivot when the industry or requirements change if your primary focus is no longer relevant you can change to your other interests and develop them.

Its an amazing skill to be able to be flexible rather than rigid with one mastery.

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Emerald lined path in the forest - Olympic National Park.

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this is where I want to be 💚🍀

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Hyper focus of the day:-✨ Bear & Wolves

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Most of the time I want someone to exactly tell me what to do step by step like just decide for me ( at the same time I know I won't listen to anyone😂)

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The spark came back! these past two days were interesting but...

THE SPARK IS EVERYWHERE... I WANT TO TO EVERYTHING AND ALL OF IT TODAY uggghhhhhhhhhh......

when does this get better? 😅

So now I have INTERESTSsssss alot of them all together and tasks alot of them and I am distracted and tired and sleep deprived because I am so hyperactive (in my mind) that I CAN'T SLEEP 😭

[wanderingartistsworld]

What do you feel like your exploring the most?

I'm exploring my own brain 🧠 and body ✨ how it works , what it needs , how can I cater to my needs.

I'm very lost as an artist too still a long way to go to be able to explore that.

My exploration is mostly internal within my own mind and soul ✨

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just a walk outside would have been so nice for my brain but its fu..ing 40° celcius ahhhhhhhhhhhhh