Rai

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[oxygen-stealer]

The neurodivergent urge to do this

[deathandsensuality-archive-deac]

women don’t have red flags they just have fun facts that’s all

[homoerotisch]

Twenty, by Silas Denver Melvin

Twenty

it is your almost birthday. you are reading richard siken, which is to say you are homosexual & panicked by your existence. you have ice cream for breakfast & cry into the evening. you tell your mother im sorry, ill pay you back. im sorry, ill clean up the mess. you tell your mother im sorry you spent all that time carbonating me inside yourself just for me to end up the way i am. which is an apology for being homosexual & panicked. the other you is crouched in the corner. teeth grow in places you would not expect teeth to be. the other you is all bite because he knows you have nothing to mourn. it is your almost birthday. you’re so polite with your sadness. you don’t want to ruin this for anyone. you’re good at that. your crumpled body. your anxiety vomited out like confetti. your eyes weeping like split oranges. you are going to be 20 & you are going to be a wailing asteroid for the rest of your life. 2 years ago you were supposed to be dead. you have outgrown your gender & your jeans. you tell your mother im sorry, i love my sadness so immensely, i don’t know who i am without it & what you mean is i have not come home without expecting someone else to be in my spot at the dinner table in so long, im not sure i was ever born to belong in the first place.

[feral-ballad]

Kaveh Akbar, from Calling A Wolf A Wolf: Poems; “Learning to pray”

[thesmallestonewasme]

Carrie (1976) dir. Brian de Palma // Wuthering Heights -Emily Brontë // Jennifer’s Body (2009) dir. Karyn Kusama // White Oleander -Janet Fitch // Ginger Snaps (2000) dir. John Fawcett // Wolf Like Me -TV on the Radio

[windflowerfairy]

by Emily Dickinson

[gaycommunist]

i’ve got all this rage in me and i don’t know where to put it

@rbhvleo // paul miller “utopia” // “the book of promothea” hélène cixous tr. betsy wing // gillian flynn “dark places” // ginger snaps // @heavensghost // @vawium // @traumathoughts // lucille clifton “leukemia as white rabbits” // ahamkara lustre print @artofmaquenda // audre lorde

[ID: a collection of text excerpts:

“TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER / TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER / TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER”

a drawing with a deep red background with unidentifiable black text scribbled on the top and bottom right corners. on top, a white face is drawn - the mouth is open as if in a scream with teeth baring, the right eye is slightly bigger.

“i exist, i am, don’t come near, i have teeth, i have claws”

“I was not a lovable child, and i’d grown into a deeply unlovable adult. draw a picture of my soul, and it’d be a scribble with fangs.”

“Ginger: I get this ache... and I thought it was for sex but it’s to tear everything to fucking pieces.”

“I AM AN ANGEL FULL OF RAGE / I CAN’T TOLERATE THIS PAIN”

“never again will i be gentle / I will be bloodied knuckles and scuffed elbows / I will remain rough”

“i am i am i am furious”

an ahamkara lustre print of black dogs baring teeth

“I feel it’s my anger that has / helped keep me alive,” /end ID]

[inkskinned]

got questions for you like. can i make a pact with the devil to be promised eternity in heaven. how do i teach my own clone how to be happy. can i craft a poem that makes you know me.

can we kiss like this? can i sit with my body so close to yours? is it okay i am always shaking. is it okay that you walk so loudly inside my head. is it okay that i love messy, and big, and outside of sense.

can i hold your hand? can i see you in the morning? can we stand in a kitchen together, baking and laughing and dancing? can we split this. can i make you happy. can i fold myself into your life like clean cotton laundry.

can i have a moment. can i have more time. can i hold you a little tighter. can you stay the night. can we have a little space where the world can't touch us. can i know every line in your palm.

is it okay i've never felt like this. is it okay if it feels too big. is it okay if i am scared of it.

can a robot dream in italics. can dogs ever learn to speak.

can we be here. can we be okay. can we lie down to sleep. when we wake up, i wanna ask you - is this real? is this love? does this feel to you what it feels to me?

can a wish be a prayer. can god ever sneeze. when you close your eyes, my love - who is it you see?

[vintage-hoes]

[schoolcollege]

[jadeitexmoon]

If someone said to me — “I was dominated, soul, brain, and power, by you...I worshipped you. I grew jealous of every one to whom you spoke. I wanted to have you all to myself. I was only happy when I was with you” — I’d just fuck them instead of killing them in my attic. rip to dorian gray but I’m different

[strangerinthedusk]

IG: ratsandlilies.art

[disc80s]

biting is a love language. no i will not elaborate.

[naramdil]

there’s a creature in my chest and at all times she’s banging a drum and shouting “GUILT! GUILT! WE LIVE AND DIE WITH GUILT!” 

[girlhorror]

im a strange lipstick color im the shimmer in cheap shampoo im a shoplifted beauty product im eyeliner on the back of a hand im a blue finger from a cheap ring im glitter you cant get off your skin im beautiful in the most disgusting ways and im never going to die

[hatefulromantic]

no more PDA allowed, only PDH (public displays of hatred) from this point on

[hatefulromantic]

i am SICK and TIRED of period pieces not having diversity!! i want period pieces that include diversity just because they can, and i don’t want it used as a plot point that shows racism and prejudice and suffering! i don’t care if it’s “not realist”, we create movies to escape real life, we can do whatever we want with them! let people other than white women wear pretty dresses and fall in love...