˗ˏˋ Νικοlαι ᡣ𐭩 ˎˊ˗

Pfp and Banner aren't mine!! Ηεrmεs Dενοτεε 𐀔 ̟ ๋ . 🪽 ° ๋๋ ໑ Αροllο Dενοτεε ꩜.𖥔 ݁ ˖𖤓.𖥔 ݁ ˖ Dιοηγsυs Dενοτεε 🍷𓏊🍇｡⋆｡˚ ʚɞ ˚｡⋆｡🍇𓏊🍷

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🌟 WELCOME TO MY BLOG 🌟

Hey, I’m Niko! This is mostly a personal blog where I post and reblog whatever catches my interest - expect a mix of fandom chaos, random thoughts, and general life stuff.

We are a system, you can ask for specific alters to front, we are not required to say yes, you can ask our alters stuff in asks if you specify, you can also ask stuff about our system, we don't mind too much.

Here’s a quick guide to help you navigate my blog:

✨ Important Links ✨

• [About Me] (Old Pinned post)

• [Our System]

• [FAQ & Boundaries]

• [My Socials & Blogs Masterlist]

My top Hyperfixations as of now:

Brokeback Mountain

Red Dead Redemption

The Amazing Digital Circus

Sanders Sides

+ more

(Elevator Hitch & Dead Plate & Cold Front)

(Bungo Stray Dogs & Bungo to Alchemist)

💌 Fanfiction Requests 💌

I sometimes take fic requests!

• How to Request + Rules

• Current request status: ✅ OPEN

Check out @hamilgay-ao3 for the requests!

Just a heads-up: this blog isn’t strictly a writing blog, so while I love doing requests, you’ll also see plenty (99% of posts) of non-fic posts mixed in!

Tags:

#nocturnal mutterings - Thoughts produced after 1am when sleep has failed me. Continues until I pass out or regain sense.

Reblogging is always appreciated so others can find my blog, thanks for being here! 💜

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Arthur: i’m not a good man Also arthur: rescues strangers, helps people, adopts horses emotionally

[Yes we ignore all the killing n robbing folks etc, shush]

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TRANS PEOPLE CONSIDERING SURGERY- READ THIS PLEASE GENUINELY I AM BEGGING YOU IT COULD SAVE YOUR LIFE

If you are getting gender affirming surgery, especially if it’s your first major surgery, PLEASE be aware that you can become SEVERELY depressed afterwards ESPECIALLY if you have a history of depression or suicidal ideation.

Post op depression is a natural reaction to the crazy mix of hormones your body goes through after major surgery as well as the stress and anxiety of recovery. Think of it like an adrenaline crash, but dragged out longer.

For me it kicked in about 6 weeks after top surgery and the worst of it lasted until about 10 weeks post op. EVERYTHING felt IMPOSSIBLE. None of the skills I’d been practicing worked. I thought everything was going to be bad forever. I didn’t attempt, but I was in the hospital. If it wasn’t for my support system I probably would have attempted.

This is not regret, but it can feel like it. I remain happy about my results to this day (going on six years later).

This is not you failing to maintain your mental health, but it can make you feel like a failure.

Things are not hopeless, but through the haze of this depression they can feel hopeless.

It can be terrifyingly sudden or it can sneak up on you. I didn’t even realize what was going on until after the depression finally passed and my mental health went back to normal.

I am writing this post because nobody told me about this before my top surgery. I was caught completely off guard. For my subsequent surgeries being aware has made all the difference. Being able to treat those symptoms as an expected and normal part of the healing journey has made them far easier to deal with. Because even when my emotions go to dark places I *know* they will pass. I have been able to tell the bad thoughts to take a bad seat and focus on healing.

PLEASE have a plan in place for if this happens. I know that this topic is taboo because of how often our mental health is weaponized against us, but I desperately want every single person getting gender affirming surgery to be aware of, and have a plan for post operative depression.

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I love reading fandom wiki pages' trivia sections, bcs tf do u mean Klaus' name was Klaus Herschberger, that's a German ass surname I'm sorry

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I love how us SaSi fans see Thomas as a completely different person depending on the colour he's wearing

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What the fuck is this app...

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i came for cowboy game and stayed for emotional devastation

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Omg wait so I just found our first ever ao3 fic again- that we read when we were like 12... and liked.... and also traumatized us off of Ao3 tho...

https://archiveofourown.org/works/40809717

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Sean has a habit of stealing Kieran’s hat, which always ends with Kieran chasing him across camp.

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one time thomas said that roman represents his “more feminine” side of himself, which makes the idea of remus as roman’s “funhouse mirror” soooo interesting to me

bc i feel like roman is stereotypical “princess” feminine, frills and glitter and “omg boys!!!” and singing cute disney songs, a doe eyed optimist that is so innocent they toe the line of naivety

which could make remus the comparison of what people call “dark feminine,” enraged, bloody, not afraid to scream about sex and murder and rape, able to prey on people’s biases + ignorance to make something truly horrifying. unapologetically loud, taking up space, seeing the filth of the world and refusing to look away, reveling in challenging societal expectations then laughing as they break them.

they ARE both his “feminine” side, but one is content to be aurora and the other is thrilled to be maleficent.

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I love janus because he's simultaneously

incredibly dramatic

frequently correct

emotionally intelligent

kind of insufferable

what a combination

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Arthur breathes slightly wrong and I pause the game like. are we dying. is this it.

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Which rdr2 character would survive modern-day society the best...?

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Watching all the old Thomas Sanders videos and realising that if I knew about him back then I would've ABSOLUTELY watched his content because each year it is pretty much the type of content I watched that year, tho it WAS with german youtubers and I wasn't really fluent in english at fucking 6 years old but still!!!!!

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ME: i will not get emotionally attached this playthrough KIERAN: exists quietly and tries his best ME: oh no

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Roman: Why is everyone looking at me?

Virgil: You entered the room and announced yourself with a trumpet sound.

Roman: I fail to see the issue.

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