BL0CK D0NT R3P0RT!!

this is my SAFE SPAFE!!! don't read if in recovery PRO RECOVERY!!! HW/SW: 140 kg, CW: 100.5 kg, GW 1: 100 kg, GW 2: 90 kg, GW 3: 82 kg, GW 4: 73 kg, GW 5: 68 kg, GW 6: 59, GW 7: 48, GW 8: 45, UGW: 36kg PCOS!! OVERWEIGHT!!! DID (med rec)!!! AUTISTIC!!! EDNOS!!! He/It // Nov 4th // 18

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

READ THIS BEFORE REPORTING. /SRS

this is a safe space for me. a place to find others who think like me and can help me through my tough times. i almost k*113d myself yesterday because of my 3d.

on the same hand though, TUMBLR didn't give me an 3d. you know who else didn't? tw1tt3r. you don't just read a blog and boom! magically you're disordered. no. there has to be a history of disordered behavior. and even then, it's about h4rm-reduction. i want people to recover. which is why if i make you uncomfortable, block me. don't report me.

if you want to ban people who are ACTUALLY harmful, ban the people who post and talk about n0n-c0n. (🍇) there are so many of them and they cause my flashbacks. it's okay to be into that, but don't glamorize it. especially not on easy access social media.

i'm pinning this. think long and hard before reporting. it's all about harm-reduction. not pr0-harm.

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

i'm back. sorry i disappeared, a lot happened.. but i'm only 0.5 kg away from my first GW

sorry i left, but i'm back.

i'm having a lot of medical issues right now. I throw up every day multiple times a day, and it's been happening for three weeks (not purging), and i can barely function anymore because I can barely do anything anymore. There's a difference between purging and waking up and having to throw up and laying down and having to throw up and laughing a little too hard and throwing up and getting a little too nervous and throwing up. i cant do anything anymore. But on the brightside.... weight loss??? idk. it sucks. at least it works. i guess.

and im doing the diet i included starting today until christmas, then on christmas, i will allow myself to eat (if i can without puking) and then i will start the ABC diet on new years. i'll have to figure out what to do between christmas and new years. i could just fast because it's easier now that i'm sick but idk.

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

mannnnn while i'm on my period, to avoid binges, im taking into account cals burned. i am eating those extra cals. i don't want to binge again.

dinner was 250

anyways, here's dinner. then i'm having the entire carton thingy of halo top. the highest cal one i have to get it gone (dw, i won't go over, i believe it's still under 300, and i have 460 to spare)

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

todays cals of breakfast and lunch. didn't have time to take a pic

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

update only ate half of the banana so minus 52.5

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

stats so far

god im so tired. but i still have so much more to do :((

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

todays cals of breakfast and lunch. didn't have time to take a pic

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

breakfast

166

Raze Energy Zero Sugar (0)

1 Strawberry (6)

Oatmeal (160)

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

i am doing all of the jumping just dances today. i want this period to end now.

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

found out why i gained and aren't losing as much..... my period has started today. sick and tired man.

i experience PMDD soooooooo..... freaking hate being AFAB (assigned female at birth)

also i woke up and lost only 1.4 lbs. after i fasted all day yesterday and only had less than 200 cals for dinner and worked out. i hate my period.

[hi-its-mj-22]

Immediate tips for sick feeling post binge/meal !

In this order:

1. Stretch

2. Clean something (the movement and task will help your mind and body)

3. Go to the bathroom (try not to purge or use laxatives but this is up to your discretion)

4. Go for a walk

5. Self-care

6. Meditation

7. Sleep or another relaxing activity

8. - If it was a simple overeating then I usually fast 12 hours and eat a little less (I naturally don’t feel hungry after overeating, if you do eat fiberous foods)

- if it was a binge then go look at my binge recovery post!

- eat more the first 2-3 days following your binge and slowly decrease it -Eat the foods you binged on in smaller portions - Address thing

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

+80

total for today - 115

burned 2,657 cals today.

i'm probably going to play just dance again to burn more

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

not eating the celery, but it absorbed into the soup so minus 2

35.

[rainkxcals]

41 cal egg drop soup recipe!

looks a little bit questionable, but i promise it tastes so gd comforting and filling for a small amount of calories. also it reminds me a bit of matzoh ball soup which i had a lot as a kid

something i’ve noticed is that i tend to drink a shit ton of water, but with no electrolytes to balance it out and actually give me energy, so this soup has a decent amount of sodium (electrolyte) to balance things out.

ingredients:

2 cups water

1 chicken bouillon cube- may want to slice so it is easier to mix into soup (20 cal)

1/2 stalk celery, sliced (4 cal)

egg white (17 cal)

1/4 tsp garlic salt

1 pinch onion powder

1 pinch crushed black pepper

in a small pot over medium to high heat, add water and bouillon cube- stir to dissolve. add celery and cook until mixture is boiling. slowly drop in the egg white, a little at a time so you get nice lil drops. allow it to cook for ~10 seconds more (so egg whites don’t get tough), then stir in the rest of the spices. remove from heat.

hope u love it cause i did

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

made it with a few differences!

i think we have dif size chicken bouillon cubes because 3 of mine were only 15 cals!

1/2 stick celery like you

i did 3 cups of water to avoid my mom thinking i'm having too small of a portion.

i had 1 jumbo egg whites 18 cal

and then the onion powder and (accidentally) way too much pepper.

it's so delicious!!!

mine was 37 cals because of the chicken bouillon differences

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

i have to eat dinner because my mom will be home soon. but i convinced her to let me make a soup for myself (it's very low cal) and then i'll prob have a yasso too because i get sugar cravings after dinner and don't want to binge (it's 80, the soup is 41, total - 121 for the whole day)

[emxxiixx]

This goes out to the 🍃 friendly side of edblr :) kinda long so just skip if you don’t wanna read!!

I decided to buy a hybrid cart that was sativa dominated and got my entire depression room cleaned in 5 hours no breaks just water and YouTube on my tv, It was basically me pacing around my house for 5 hours completely hyper focused on getting my room clean (instead of caving to munchies lol) the high has basically worn off now and my room looks so good I finally feel like I have my space back.

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

need to try this fr. i get the munchies too much tho 😒

[catos4th3daccount]

This haunts me fr

(Used to be b0nesp0 and mostly edtwt skinny, but now I'm just "irl skinny" ._. )

[wansk3l3b0n3s]

still obese.. but not as obese as before!!!! my biggest goal is to get to 🦴spo status

[st0nedmad]

Sorry babe but the Fitbit stays on during sex