* SERVUS / MACHINA .

you are a war machine built from broken dreams .

[warfallacy-a]

I have some family things going on here and I don't think I have it in me to talk to people. If you have any prayers to give though, I'd appreciate it.

[warfallacy-a]

Bucky: Wow it's so great to be out of cryo I can't wait to see how the world has changed and-

Steve, dressed in all black with a beard, lip piercing, and eyeliner: I go by Deathblade now. My favourite colour is pain. I wrote this poem about my feelings but I'm not gonna read it to you.

Sam: It's been a long year welcome back

[hawkworld-deactivated20210824]

“Everyone thinks my story begins with a mask, and they’re right, but it isn’t the mask they think. A brave face, that was my first mask.” (insp.)

[warfallacy-a]

Me, needing to resist the temptation to make a poe dameron? More likely than you think!

[prodigynarchived-deactivated201]

                                     BACK ON MY BULLSHIT.

                                     revamped on 28.12.17  /  art credit  /  i’m so sorry

[warfallacy-a]

✨

[crimsondeath]

'captain america: the winter soldier' starter prompts

❝ On your left. ❞ ❝ Don’t say it. Don’t you say it. ❞ ❝ Need a medic? ❞ ❝ You should be ashamed of yourself. ❞ ❝ It’s your bed, right? ❞ ❝ You must miss the good old days, huh? ❞ ❝ I’ll put it on the list. ❞ ❝ I’m sure they have a good reason. ❞ ❝ Relax, it’s not that complicated. ❞ ❝ You doing anything fun Saturday night? ❞ ❝ You know, if you ask Kristen out, from Statistics, she’d probably say yes. ❞ ❝ Too shy, or too scared? ❞ ❝ You seemed pretty helpless without me. ❞ ❝ You want to be a hero? Is that it? ❞ ❝ Well, this is awkward. ❞ ❝ I think that’s overstating things. ❞ ❝ You just can’t stop yourself from lying, can you? ❞ ❝ I’m not obliged to do anything. ❞ ❝ It’s called compartmentalisation. ❞ ❝ Nobody spills the secrets, because nobody knows them all. ❞ ❝ I do share. I’m nice like that. ❞ ❝ I thought the punishment usually came after the crime. ❞ ❝ We can’t afford to wait that long. ❞ ❝ This isn’t freedom, this is fear. ❞ ❝ For as long as I can remember, I just wanted to do what was right. ❞ ❝ You’re always so dramatic. ❞ ❝ The world has changed, and none of us can go back. ❞ ❝ Sometimes the best that we can do is to start over. ❞ ❝ I’m here to ask a favor. ❞ ❝ You lose someone? ❞ ❝ What makes you happy? ❞ ❝ If you want, you’re welcome to use my machine. Might be cheaper than the one in the basement. ❞ ❝ Well, I’ll keep my distance. ❞ ❝ I don’t remember giving you a key. ❞ ❝ My wife kicked me out. ❞ ❝ I didn’t know you were married. ❞ ❝ There’s a lot of things you don’t know about me. ❞ ❝ You’re a terrible liar. ❞ ❝ He told me not to trust anyone. ❞ ❝ Anyone gets in my way, they’re gonna regret it. ❞ ❝ It kind of feels personal. ❞ ❝ I only act like I know everything. ❞ ❝ I’m not gonna ask you again. ❞ ❝ Bye-bye, bikinis. ❞ ❝ First rule of going on the run is don’t run, walk. ❞ ❝ My fiancé was just helping me with some honeymoon destinations. ❞ ❝ I have the exact same glasses. ❞ ❝ Shut up and put your arm around me. Laugh at something I said. ❞ ❝ Kiss me. ❞ ❝ Public displays of affection make people very uncomfortable. ❞ ❝ I just wondered how much practice you’ve had. ❞ ❝ Nobody special, though? ❞ ❝ Believe it or not, it’s kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience. ❞ ❝ You just make something up. ❞ ❝ The truth is a matter of circumstance. ❞ ❝ That’s a tough way to live. ❞ ❝ You know, it’s kind of hard to trust someone, when you don’t know who that someone really is. ❞ ❝ Who do you want me to be? ❞ ❝ Who’s the girl? ❞ ❝ You need anything before I leave? ❞ ❝ Want some milk? ❞ ❝ I thought I knew whose lies I was telling, but I guess I can’t tell the difference anymore. ❞ ❝ There’s a chance you might be in the wrong business. ❞ ❝ If it was down to me to save your life, would you trust me to do it? ❞ ❝ I hear the crab cakes here are delicious. ❞ ❝ That is a terrible, terrible idea. ❞ ❝ I wasn’t sure who to trust. ❞ ❝ Your work has been a gift to mankind. ❞ ❝ You shaped the century. ❞ ❝ Society’s at a tipping point between order and chaos. ❞ ❝ If you don’t do your part, I can’t do mine. ❞ ❝ See, it’s stuff like this that gives me trust issues. ❞ ❝ I just kind of wanted to be alone. ❞ ❝ We can put the couch cushions on the floor like when we were kids. ❞ ❝ I’m with you to the end of the line, pal. ❞ ❝ I don’t know if I can do that. ❞ ❝ I think it’s time you know the truth. ❞ ❝ The price of freedom is high. ❞ ❝ Did you write that down first, or was it off the top of your head? ❞ ❝ You smug son of a bitch. ❞ ❝ I’m sorry, did I step on your moment? ❞ ❝ Are you sure you’re ready for the world to see you as you really are? ❞ ❝ Did you get my flowers? ❞ ❝ You’re the best and the most ruthless person I ever met. ❞ ❝ You know, you’re a lot heavier than you look. ❞ ❝ I had a big breakfast. ❞ ❝ Please don’t make me do this. ❞ ❝ Unless you want a two-inch hole in your sternum, I’d put that gun down. ❞ ❝ This is gonna hurt. ❞ ❝ Man, shut the hell up. ❞ ❝ You know, there was a time I would’ve taken a bullet for you. ❞ ❝ You’re out of your depth, kid. ❞ ❝ I’m not gonna fight you. ❞ ❝ You’re my friend. ❞ ❝ You’re not going to put me in a prison. ❞ ❝ You’ll know where to find me. ❞ ❝ I’m headed to Europe tonight, Wanted to ask if you’d come. ❞ ❝ You might not want to pull on that thread. ❞ ❝ This is the age of miracles. ❞ ❝ There’s nothing more horrifying than a miracle. ❞

[eseluna]

          she is no apollo , without his hands to heal nor melodies to soothe . she is not even god , but so help her if she had not stopped to look after him & his dying kind . ❛ soldier , get back up . ❜ and , though it goes unspoken : you are stronger than this .          \ * @warfallacy !

[warfallacy-a]

          HE  IS  MADE  OF  ICHOR   that  sears  through  his  veins  ,   hot  and  unrelenting .   the  blood  that  pools  at  the  corner  of  his  mouth  seeps  through  the  cracks  ,   dripping  onto  the  tattered  uniform  he  bears .     (  STIFFEN  UP  LITTLE  SOLDIER   /   YOUR  WAR  IS  NOT  YET  OVER  ) .   the  distant  chime  of  her  voice  permeates  muddled  consciousness  ,   and  it  reels  him  back  into  the  present  -----  thrust  back  into  the  heat  of  battle .          ❛     how  much  longer  until  the  fighting  STOPS ?     ❜

[uniqueskillset-deactivated20180]

GO ON  – b a r e your TEETH at me.

                   I’ll PULL them o u t                                 one by one.

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[dvoyd]

we’re all killers. we’ve all killed parts of ourselves to survive.  we’ve all got blood on our hands. something somewhere had to die so we could stay alive.

if memories could bleed, if dreams could scream | m.a.w (via dvoyd)

[spctlessminds]

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

[warfallacy-a]

@towercursed ❤︎’d!

         ❛     so  -----  d’you  treat  ALL  your  new  neighbors  like  this ?     ❜          AMUSEMENT  TWINKLES   within  those  charming  hazel  eyes  as  calloused  fingers  graze  the  underside  of  the  pan  ,   delicate  grip  holding  the  dessert  close  as  a  smile  weaves  its  way  onto  features .   the  attention  is  unprecedented  ,   often  vacant  in  a  life  of  a  RUNAWAY  -----  yet  he  finds  himself  easing  into  the  sentient  despite  it’s  strange  unfamiliarity  ,   and  even  allows  the  faintest  chuckle  to  escape  his  lips  once  their  gazes  meet .          ❛     ‘cause  this  is  a  first  for  me .     ❜

[fictionalpoem]

<i>Marvel mood board //</i> <b>(Red Room era) Bucky Barnes x Natasha Romanoff</b> Requested by @charliechaplin2blr Requests are open

[warfallacy-a]

@reactony ❤︎’d!

          THEIR  TENSION  IS  PALPABLE   as  the  lingering  silence  drawls  further  and  further  out  ,   naught  but  sizzling  sparks  and  the  crackle  of  the  fire  welding  metal  slates  together  to  be  heard  in  the  space  that surrounds  them .   perhaps  in  another  lifetime  ,   they  could  have  been  FRIENDS  ----------  but  the  past  comes  back  to  haunt   /   like  a  moth  drawn  to  a  flame   /   and  bucky  can’t  seem  to  escape  the  mess  he’s  made     (  IT’S  HYDRA’S  DOING  ,   he  tells  himself  . . .   but  his  reflection  in  the  mirror  says  something  different  ) .

                       ❛     you  didn’t  have  to  do  this  ,   y’know .     ❜     HIS  VOICE  IS  QUIET  ,   near  indistinguishable  against  the  quietude  that  plagues  them  both .   but  he  is  heard  ,   and  gaze  reaches  tony  for  the  first  time  since  he’s  began  tinkering  with  the  remnants  of  his  arm .   guilt  gnaws  its  way  up  his  throat  ,   aching  and  cruel  to  the  formal  soldier  ----  a  forcible  reminder  of  everything  he  has  done   /   would  have  done   /   will  have  done .   and  when  they  finally  make  eye  contact  ,   the  pain  in  his  chest  constricts  ;   lips  drawn  taut  as  he’s  reminded  once  again  of  the  nightmare  that  still  ensues .

               (  does  he  know  he  has  his  father’s  eyes ?  ) 

                                       ❛     listen  ----------  i  know  that  steve  insisted  ,   but  .  .  .   i  don’t  expect  you  to  do  anything  for  me .     ❜            no  ,   not  for  someone  like  me .

[wintvrsoldier-blog]

After seeing masterlists reblogged dozens of times, I found that every time I clicked on one it hadn’t been updated in months. So, with that in mind, I decided to create my own with the promise to keep it as updated as possible. It can be hard to find partners in the indie community after all but, by clicking HERE, you’ll be redirected to a list of Marvel roleplayers in the community ranging from canons to OCs! I’ll check through the blogs every once in a while and anyone gone inactive for over a month without a hiatus note on their blog will be removed. So, how do you join?

FOR CANONS: In the tags, simply type “canon: character name” followed by “ooc: name/alias + age + pronouns”.

FOR OCS: In the tags, simply type “oc: character name” followed by “ooc: name/alias + age + pronouns”.

If you have a multi-muse blog then just make sure to tag each of the characters that you write on said blog that tie into this particular universe. And, yes, even if you simply just have a verse for your muse that’s in the Marvel universe then you can definitely still be put on the list. Just keep in mind that if your muse is a canon character from another tv show, movie, etc then put them down as an OC. Thank you!  

[warfallacy-a]

quick reminder that for bucky, this isn't his first time being in war. he's been in war all his conscious life . he was bred to be a war machine from the moment he was captured and up until the winter soldier experimentation have been shut down . he’s an example to those who follow in his footsteps ; he was part of the reaper's cult , to put it metaphorically. . .    all he knows is death and pain and trauma, and yet he still grasps at the remnants of the good that are hazy in his thoughts  ---  thoughts of steve. Steve is the only good left that he knows. after that.... after him is nothing but destruction, and he's trying to live with that reality .

[warfallacy-a]

@behindtheshield  ❤︎’d!

    IT’S  A  COLD  DECEMBER  NIGHT  /  1941 .   not  unlike  the  many  brooklyn  is  known  to  have  this  time  of  year  ,   and  the  snowflakes  that  flutter  just  outside  the  tattered  window  paint  the  downtown  stretch  with  a  shimmering  finesse .  eyes  peer  through  the  pane  in  wonderment  ,   gentle  breath  fogging  the  glass  lightly  when  lips  pull  gently  upward .   amidst  a  war  so  cold   /   so  cruel  ,   it  is  this  brief  moment  of  familiarity  that  thaws  his  aching  bones  and  reminds  him  of  the  life  he’s  always  known     (  and  soon  be  forgotten  ) .

                            steve’s  apartment  is  quaint  ;   charming  in  its  antiquity .   the  handful  of  personal  items  decorate  the  otherwise  barren  space  ,   and  bucky  couldn’t  help  but  grin  at  the  frayed  photo  of  them  perched  neatly  on  the  side  table  when  he  had  entered  minutes  ago     (  coney  island  ,   1936  :   taken  right  before  riding  the  cyclone  ) .   IT’S  BITTERSWEET  ----------  and  oh  how  he  yearns  for  those  reckless  and  naive  teenage  days  again .

          BUT  IT’S  THE  CHILL   in  the  air  that  grips  his  attention  next  ,   a  shiver  running  all  the  way  down  to  his  toes .   it  feels  no  different  than  it  does  outside  ,   and  chestnut  crown  shakes  in  disbelief .   bucky  should  know  steve  by  now  ,   yet  he  continues  to  find  himself  baffled  by  how  little  his  friend  can   live   /   SURVIVE  on .

          ❛     th’  heat’s  off  again .     ❜          he  states  matter-of-fact  ,   arms  snaking  around  torso  in  a  better  attempt  at  warming  himself .   gaze  spots  an  abandoned  blanket  and  snatches  it  from  its  seat  ,   quickly  wrapping  the  fabric  around  his  shoulders  before  plopping  down  onto  the  sofa  cushion  below .   softly  does  bucky  nudge  steve’s  shoulders  with  his  own  ,   teasing  demeanor  lilting  tremulous  words .

                                  ❛     how  the  hell  can  you  deal  with  this  ,   stevie ?   it’s  fucking  freezing  in  here .     ❜