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Ramblings. Photos. Memories. Letters. Ali

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watching Obsession rn, and i so, so, soooo fucking hate Bear.

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Parang it's time na uli para magpakita? Hahahha medyo nami miss ko si Bianx lately. 🥹

Hahhaha de, i was just checking my google photos and stumbled upon our Baguio trip w her mom. Ang dami kong cute pics!! Evident pa saya ko nuon. 😭 Hahhahah so I'm not sure if siya ba miss ko, or a photographer friend. Chariz ahhahah de, miss ko na nga siya. Ahahhaha

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Me and my microbangs against the world. Hahhahah

Circa 2023

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Parang it's time na uli para magpakita? Hahahha medyo nami miss ko si Bianx lately. 🥹

Hahhaha de, i was just checking my google photos and stumbled upon our Baguio trip w her mom. Ang dami kong cute pics!! Evident pa saya ko nuon. 😭 Hahhahah so I'm not sure if siya ba miss ko, or a photographer friend. Chariz ahhahah de, miss ko na nga siya. Ahahhaha

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kikiligin na sana si tanga, taena. hahahhaha muntik na ko dun. 😂

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If you can't take responsibility for the things you say, better not to utter a word about it then.

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I lowkey regret starting cleaning my room coz tinatamad na ako now. I woke up earlier than expected because of stomach ache—i had a suspicion that i probably would have to face consequences eating a lot yesterday, but the thought got immediately thrown out of the window nung hindi sumakit tiyan ko kagabi, today pala ako babalikan.

Anyway, i started my laundry na lang agad pagkagising since that's the plan naman talaga for today, and i wanted to get it done before 3pm. I think it was my boredom waiting for the laundry kaya nag start na rin ako sa room and vacuumed a part of it, after that hindi na uli ako nakabalik because i also cooked and washed the dishes. I love na ang sipag ko today, i even folded some of my clothes na natuyo na, kaso tinatamad na talaga ako with my room kaso ayoko rin naman ibalik mga gamit sa pwesto nang hindi siya natatapos, parang cliffhanger, kairita. Hahhahah

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i still get kilig kapag nagha heart siya sa story, pero last time i saw him gusto kong umiwas voz i didn't wanna greet him. hahahha kaso wala akong takas that time kasi nagpapa pedicure ako with mami. hahhahaha pero kilig pa rin talaga. tanginang pogi naman kasi ni koya, shet the appeal. 😤 hahahah

kinda miss the mama ali and papa enzo, na kala mo naman talaga. hhahahhaa bye, pogi. hahhahah

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grabe pagod, ramdam hanggang dulo ng daliri. where’s the energy i used to have when i socialized before?

sobrang bangag first few hours of our hang out—not that i didnt expect that since i only slept for 3hrs. thankful na lang na ang daldal ng mga friends ko so they were able to carry the conversations nang sila lang. nagkaron na lang ako energy after having our first meal, or na refresh ako nung sinalubong kami ng napakalakas na ulan and hangin pag labas ng resto? idk. but i would love to play outside in the rain one of these days. kailangan kong lumabas labas. pero nakakapagod talagaaa. and i wish i could sleep na, but hirap pa rin. i still continue taking magnesium glycinate tho, sana mag take effect na siya sa’kin soon.

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requirement for future jowa: marunong mag take pics

sayang naman ootd and kaartehan ko kung ‘di ko if flex. charot

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“asan na yung prinsesa namin?”

wait lang, tawang tawa pa rin ako hayp. hahahhaha wala man lang naitulong, ginawang solo ang game, team effort nga pala yun. ahahhahah sorry, mga aken. ahhahah

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tbh, natawa ako, but nag overthink din when he said this. i thought ayaw niya ko kasama na. hahahah but tonight siya nagyaya sakin sa valo so ayern, masaya lang. hahahhah hay, this brain of mine. 😅

saya din ng unra lang kahit parang puro smurf mga kalaban, bwakanang. hahaha wala lang talaga pressure kaya medyo bahala kayo diyan.

anywayyyy, have to wake up pa ng 9am. good nightiiiiie!!

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tawang tawa ako coz i’ve never watched an episode of hotd, but my algo is filled with it. and everytime i watch the scene where Rhaenyra summons Vermithor, parang mas lalo akong nababakla, if that’s even possible. tangina apaka hot ni emma d’arcy, especially when she speaks high valyrian. please step on me, mommy. HAHAHHAHAHAHHA

ang hot din ni Daemon, please. kaya ang saya maging bi eh. hahahhah pero mas pa rin kay Rhaenyra. hnnngg

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“asan na yung prinsesa namin?”

wait lang, tawang tawa pa rin ako hayp. hahahhaha wala man lang naitulong, ginawang solo ang game, team effort nga pala yun. ahahhahah sorry, mga aken. ahhahah

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what i always fail to identify is the lines where i should draw my boundaries between “understanding” and “enough is enough”.

am i allowed to feel disappointed when the other person also has their own circumstances?

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bumibilis talaga pagde decide once i set up my mind. hirap nang pakiramdaman but i give countless chances kasi sayang, but then again if the effort is not reciprocated, then kami na lang na willing talaga. okay na ’to. i need to have something to look forward to din.

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what i always fail to identify is the lines where i should draw my boundaries between “understanding” and “enough is enough”.

am i allowed to feel disappointed when the other person also has their own circumstances?

[hakonohanayome]

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i really don’t care that much kung makasali ako or hindi since ang dami na namin sa server. they also play other games kaya nasanay na ako na hindi na talaga kami ganun kadalas maglaro unlike before. na sad siguro ako at first, pero kasi it’s better nga naman to expand our horizon kasi gets din naman na nakakaumay kapag laging valo lang. hahah

i started playing last night coz i couldn’t go back to sleep dahil nga sa ingay. isang game lang dapat coz i was just waiting for the manginginoms to stop, kaso nag message sa dc si R na sali daw siya, although nakita ko na naman na he was already playing valo, hindi pa rin ako nag message for yaya sa server—i realized na i don’t do that, if i feel like it, mag online ako may kasama or wala. kaya rin medyo napapadalas na mago online ako pero kumpleto na sila. anyway, i wasn’t friends with the account he was using, if he was using his main or other accounts na i’m already friends with, i might’ve sent him an invite. or baka nag offline ako agad bago pa siya magyaya, tbh. hahahha kasi mag sleep na dapat agad ngani. hahahha eh kaso sa dc nag message, so g na. i enjoy playing duo with him din naman. what i didn’t expect was yatty going online din. i thought nakita niya na online kami both ni r kaya siya nag sent invite, but when i added r to the party, hindi niya rin pala alam account na yun. dami nilang accounts, kalerki. hahah

idk, siguro nasanay nalang din ako na mas prefer ni y playing w others. kasi minsan i think nakikita niya naman na online ako kaso solo pa kaya hindi siya maglaro, or wait na mag online din iba muna. haahah nakakawalan nalang din talaga ng pake. kaya nagugulat nalang ako kapag nasasaktuhan na solo ako and mag invite siya. we’re not like before na kasi na after shift niya message siya or ako na “g, valo”. ngayon wala nang ganun. rekta na sa server, wala nang pm, gm na. hahahha

feeling ko ang closed off ko rin when i realized na hindi nga ako mahilig magyaya makakalaro. nakakatamad din naman kasi mag message. parang hindi kaya ng energy ko na maraming sinesendan ng yaya kahit isang message lang naman yun, idk hirap i explain. lol or mapili lang talga ako sa tao? pero hindi eh. general naman kasi, siya lang talaga exemption, kaso kasi i don’t wanna go after her breadcrumbs anymore that’s why i also don’t message her na rin, kaso kung hindi siya, parang wag na lang, nakakatamad, unless sila una magyaya. so it’s a circle na wala rin pupuntahan kundi pabalik sa’kin, mag solo na lang.

another reason why i didn’t expect na maglalaro pa siya tonight was because at fist i thought naka onsite siya yesterday, but she played til before 3pm so ig she wasn’t. pero kasi minsan kapag naglaro na siya nang hapon, hindi na siya naglalaro sa gabi. and yes, only reason why i decided to play last night because i checked in my mobile app and noone in my friends list was online. akala ko si r magsosolo sa other account niya, bet niya rin pala ako kalaro. hahah

minsan talaga si overthink lang ako na ayaw ako kasama eh. anyway, kay p ako hindi masyadong sure. hahahha they invited me kasi to play green hell, eh naka sale so nag g ako. kaso kasi hanggang 4 lang pwede mag laro, i think r gave way para makalaro ako. sabi pa siya na may pasok, as if it ever stopped him from playing. lol anyway, hindi ko kasi masyado ma gets at first yung gameplay and tinatamad din ako aralin agad kasi nga wala na ko energy, pero i pushed thru kasi nahihiya na ko sa kanila. hahahahha pero i wasn’t helpful din sa pag build camp coz i was too busy keeping my character alive. natawag pa ngang princess ni p, bwisit na yan. hahahha pero aminado naman akong princess nga ako sa mga games namin, mapa valo or peak man yan. haahhaa ganda yarn? hindi, medyo slow lang. hahahhaha i was able to grasp the game din naman!! just need some adjustment period lang. laruin ko pa yun solo. hahahhah

nabuking din pala na naka invisible me sa steam, they were trying to invite me but they couldn’t, so baka raw naka invisible ako. nag joke pa si p na kung sino daw ba tinataguan ko. ahahahaha lahat kayo, charot ahahhahah de, para lang di makita kasi minsan chine check ko rin if they are online sa steam, y specifically. 😭 di ko na po yun gawain ngayon. hahahha