[I’ve been meaning to give a status report forever, but I didn’t want it to become too bleak and pessimistic, but now that things have become a bit better for me, I believe, I am ready to give it a go.
So… thing is, my health has been REALLY bad for the past months, probably worse than it has ever been – and yes, I did see this coming back in April, but I wasn’t taken seriously. So I kept getting worse with every month to pass, and given how I’ve also been turned away by ‘professionals’ on multiple occasions and refused treatment for being 'too ill’, I couldn’t be honest about how urgent my health problems truly were to the professional I’d turned to as my last resort, meaning… “Come back in a week, then in two weeks, then in a month, then in another two weeks, so we can talk more about maybe actually starting your treatment sometime… after another talk with results that don’t do anything for you.”
And no, I’m still not even back to the shape I was in before the April setback, but at least, my treatment finally started about a month ago and I’ve been feeling the first positive effects for about two weeks now, as I finally got meds that’d get rid of at least most of the horrible chest pains I’ve baaaaasically been having all day when I was particularly unlucky, but definitely for multiple hours and every day.
In this context, I don’t think it is necessary for me to go into detail about why I haven’t been able to RP and why I haven’t been responding to any messages as quickly as I used to, though I will apologize for not having been open about this sooner instead of simply disappearing.
I do want to go back to RPing as Shun and Ruri – and also as Serena, and it is important to me to emphasize on that. As my concentration is still crappy as hell, though, (given how getting rid of the chest pains was just one of many necessary steps) I cannot give an realistic estimate for WHEN I will be able RP regularly again or for when I’ll reach a specific point in my recovery that’d allow me to [sucessfully do thing X], and I also don’t want to make any promises I cannot realistically keep.
For that reason, I will simply say that I’ll be doing my best as I focus on getting better. Whether that means one reply per week or none at all for another month or two (or maybe more, should my condition improve or I just have a good day in general?), I can’t say and I’m not going to guess either as I don’t want to disappoint anyone - first and foremost myself.
But yes, I am still here and I am still trying – and no, my love for Shun and Ruri hasn’t changed in the slightest and I do miss RPing a lot.
As always, I am still lurking and checking my RP dash daily even if I haven’t made any actual posts in ages, and everyone is absolutely welcome to come and talk to me about anything – potential plots included, just… please no pressure.]
