Misty

does it matter? main acc https://mishhty.tumblr.com/

[wastedmishhty]

[wastedmishhty]

tryin too hard to pass

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[rhysaka]

“My creativity lies there like a rotten apple and now even the worms have forsaken it for greener pastures.” 🐛🍎

I can’t create anymore. I have lost my spark…I’ve lost me.

This is what trauma does to you. You lose every aspect of who you think you were and when it runs it’s course, you’re left a husk of your former self and now you have to start anew.

It sucks even more when you live in a society that is just focused on survival and would hardly care for your mental health.

[wastedmishhty]

i’m so lazy… i have so much to post about, my plants, books, memes and whatnot but my habit of procrastinating kills my potential. i hate it, i hate myself sm for it, i never learn. i keep doing the same mistakes again and again. i keep going back to similar old patterns no matter how much i try. there’s no point trying i feel, if eventually i end up in the same place i started from. everything i do always goes in the wrong way, no matter how right my intention was, will i ever get what i want? why do i never get what i want no matter what i do, why does everything go in the opposite direction? why does everything break me? when will i finally get what i deserve, am i not doing enough but what really is enough?

[wastedmishhty]

[wastedmishhty]

[wastedmishhty]

[wastedmishhty]

idk but something’s wrong with me like i love to sleep and am sleepy all the time but nowadays even though my eyes get so heavy begging for some sleep, i just can’t get myself to actually fall asleep??? what’s happening, this wouldn’t happen before aahhhh

[wastedmishhty]

i just ate an 99% cacao dark chocolate and ughh what was that, the bitter taste wouldn’t go afterwards either. i don’t think i like chocolate maybe it’s just the sugar