Divine Gold

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The person who doesn’t love you back, isn’t your person…

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Forgiveness on Repeat

I cry and have to forgive the same person everyday

Over and over until the pain goes away

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Patronize My Healing

He made me feel like I was in danger perpetually

Scared me like my earth father

Scared me like the 2 times I’ve had a gun aimed at taking my life

He made me feel unsafe, I wanted to be in the arms of safety

He made me fell unloved, raised voices and loud noises scare me - I needed a gentle tone and a man who treated me gently consistently

I never deserved to be hit by anyone ever in my life parental trauma is real

Threatening to hit me is like threatening my life

I didn’t deserve that. I still feel afraid of many things

I didn’t deserve a lifetime nor even a decade of aggression and verbal abuse, all I wanted was love but I received reasons to be afraid and fearful

I needed a real loving family and a man who patronized my healing

Safety and love, I don’t remember the feeling

[watersliquidgold]

Some people live in a state of despair,

My consciousness is in the state of love.

Living life within happiness consciousness,

Life as a happy adventure

Life as a fun,

Life as play,

Life as a true celebration.

Sadness appeared, its dissipating quickly

Grateful for the Paradise Father lightening my burdens

Forever I love Him first ❤️

[watersliquidgold]

Maybe I’m the only woman

Who still believes in knights with shining armor

Men who rescue and save

Provide and protect

Maybe I’m the only woman

Who forgives without grudge

The pain of marriage

I just need to come out of the other side of this clean

If you said you love me then you gotta show it

If you said you loved me then I don’t know it

[watersliquidgold]

It took a decade to understand:

People who say they love you but never fix what’s hurting you, don’t love you.

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Love addict vs. Love avoidant

Many people say love, most don’t mean love

Most don’t live love

Most don’t breathe love

Born a love addict

Enslaved to a love avoidant

How do I heal, when I’m made of love

Pour it all back into myself

Betrayed by the one I loved

Disappointed ain’t the word

Avoidant communication

Neglect of care

Abusive words, abusive actions

When I walk away I walk in peace

Cause we both know I gave you all of me

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My honey let me fall

Left me for dead

He let me fall

Gave all the love that I had

Forever love wasn’t sweet enough

My honey bear let me fall

Turned a blind eye to my tears

A blind eye to my pain

When he was all that I loved for years

My honey bear is gone

And the pain is unbearable

Cry my eyes out everyday

These tears won’t quit falling

Forever love is failing

Cause my honey bear didn’t catch me

He don’t even flinch

Not even when I’m in front of him wailing

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My Love’s Keeper

If my honey ever comes for me

I’m here

He’s the apple of my eye, even when his thorn hurts

My king is perfect, I trust him like I trust God

If my love ever comes for me, I’ll never let him go

My soul mate, my everything - the middle of my world

The’adorn’s Father - he always saves me

Wondering if my love is every coming home to me

He’s the strongest warrior - promise to never fight me on our love

Our love lasts forever, only for you I explode

I’ll always cherish my Lotus Flower Bomb

[watersliquidgold]

What a beautiful horror story of life... Patterns are just patterns until they are no longer patterns. When the pattern is revealed, the chaos is revealed. Put the microscope on the pattern to reveal clarity of the direction of the lies that intertwine. For the magic of the Divine reveals the comforts of the shadows in due time. Everyone loves and comforts the shadow, holds on to it stronger than they hold on to God. Chaos is revered, the shadow lives longer than God. When is the date that we release those stories, untold stories and the ones we repeat that are horrid? We take secrets and shadows right into the grave with that body and still it doesn’t die. Resurrection of the soul, resurrection of the patterns, the shadows, the fear, the anger, the guilt... reincarnation of patterns again rebirth within the night.

[watersliquidgold]

I Desire Fire

I want to be fire.

I want to be aggressive.

I want to be assertive.

I want to be sexually free.

I want to be bold.

I want to be unashamed.

I want to be unafraid.

I want to dance.

I want to fully enjoy music.

I want to be full of laughter.

I want to enjoy life. My life.

I want to enjoy my life.

I want to have fun.

I want to be fun.

I want to be full of excitement.

I want to be excited.

I want to take healthy risks.

I want to be free.

I want to be outspoken.

I want to be loved.

I want to be possessed.

I want to truly own myself.

I want to be catered to.

I want to learn how to cater to myself.

I want to be fully present.

I want to be full of energy.

I want red glassy eyes full of lust to look at me.

I want to be consumed by fire.

I desire fire.

I crave fire.

I’m looking for my fire.

Fire be present, show yourself.

I’m ready for my fire to burn.

I want fire inside of me.

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Affirmation Prayer of Bloodshed

Saddened if I cause blood shed/ shedding blood is part of my nature. I cry when I have to shed blood/ shedding blood is a natural part of my nature. It’s painful to shed blood/ steady peace in nature would cause an imbalance. Shedding blood is pointless/shedding blood creates the fire of life. Becoming a woman is painful/ being a creator is beautiful. Birthing hurts/ could be due to conditioning. Being a woman is hard/releasing that thought pattern could be a first step of deconditioning. Birth could be the most beautiful experience. Being a woman could be the most beautiful experience. Universe before you disappear, remove my conditions, wrong minded thought patterns. Destruction and Creation are all my birthrights, repair the patterns of my mind and not the physical aspects of my sack of skin. The cycle hurts, just like the illusion of this dream. Free me of my skin we are pure and innocent. We are all forgiven now. I love my blood shed within the dreams of illusions. Split open my uterus, drip out my sweetest God Flow. For my pain lies in lack of forgiveness and unconscious guilt, help my psyche release that. Body affirmations please touch my soul... reach within Godhead to use thy own blood shed to rearrange thy soul.

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Where’s My God

Frozen in time

Whine no fine wine

I dine

On anger

And a fine steamy mist

Miss me seductive love

I mist then drop

Sweet trails of tears

My heart wing is near

Escape

Love me and don’t forget

Your cape

I’m a sad bam-a-boon

Didn’t expect love so soon

I wait

For the savior THE GOD

I wait...

For my savior MY GOD

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Prayer

I declare truce with my mind, my spirit, my soul, and my body.

I wage peace within my cells, michtocondria, DNA/RNA, blood, marrow, bone

The war between my body and mind is now peace

I summon my emotions/memories to release/make known their hold from within my skeleton, nervous system, tissues, glands, organs, muscles, cells, atoms- seep like water

I love each and every atomic and subatomic particle of my body/being, on every known and unknown layer of my existence

I am grateful for the beautiful body I am born with

I speak loving relationship over my bodily systems and it’s functions

I communicate in regards to my body with the utmost care, passion, reverence, and love

My body communicates within itself with utmost care, effectiveness, and love

My soul and body are in a symbiotic relationship with each other

My senses are in sync with each other, and thrive

My body withstands any gifts my soul decides to make known

My body/heart/soul tells my mind exactly what it needs

I pour the warm milk & honey of openness, connectiveness, flow, gentleness, acceptance, peace, and efficiency over any and all frayed/fried/dehydrated/malnourished/shattered/tired/tense parts of my body

I release all false judgements & beliefs I‘ve held in regards to my body and bodily functions

I release all energy ppl have projected onto me about my body that my mind/body have ingested & accepted as true

My body is unique, beautiful, resilient, and flowing

My body is vital, glowing

I give thanks to my body

Peace, make home in my body

Peace, make home in my body

Peace, make home with all timelines of my [karma]

Peace, make home with my bloodline

Peace, make home with my genetics

Peace, make home with my ancestors

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