Ish Bout To Get Real

Personal blog for the public to read [main: @xdsockmonkey]

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January 17, 2023, 18:56

Corona Chronicles continued

Lol I have Covid

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August 7th, 2022, 03:51

Guess I’ll be using this account more because someone I need to vent about follows my private Twitter :)

Anyway I accidentally walked in on my roommates having sex because my dog was in their room

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May 31, 2022, 19:34

My heart broke again today. I’m tired of feeling like this.

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March 4, 2022, 09:42

I keep dreaming about him. As much as I love Europe I can’t wait to get back home. We still talk every day and I might just be paranoid.

I really want a hug from him

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December 29, 2021, 23:43

I miss him

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December 19th, 2021, 00:07

Today my heart broke a bit. He told me he didn’t want to date me because I’m studying abroad next semester and that killed me a bit inside.

Part of me hopes he waits for me to come back.

The other part of me thinks that’s selfish.

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December 9th, 2021, 07:00

I went on a date on Tuesday and it went really well. I keep thinking about him and his amazing hugs. He made me feel safe and have a strong trust in him so fast it kind of scares me. I might get to see him tomorrow but the past two nights I’ve fallen asleep thinking about being in his arms again.

I’m scared that he won’t want to start a relationship with me.

NEVER has a real life person made their way into my heart this fast.

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November 20, 2021, 00:48

I think November is just meant to be the month where I’m most depressed. I’m tired of this

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August 31, 2021, 08:38

He’s not replying to my messages like he used to…

And now that I’m back on campus I’m surrounded by a lot of hot people but I’m constantly second guessing myself because what if he’s “the one”

I’m too emotionally constipated for this

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August 27, 2021, 22:07

He hasn’t read any of my messages for over a day now. I hope he’s doing okay.

I hope I didn’t upset him.

I hope he’s not back in the hospital

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August 21, 2021, 22:03

Lowkey hate my family rn.

I want someone to hold me

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August 8, 2021, 21:09

I’m going to watch cute couple videos and think of him all night

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July 28, 2021, 14:24

I told my French boy how I feel. He said he wasn’t really looking for a relationship at the moment but we’re still friends and he really appreciates me.

Am i sad? Of course but I’m not devastated or anything. I completely understand and am happy still being friends. Now I’m back to my lonely self. I’ll probably still think of him a lot and that’s okay. I’m proud of myself for telling him how I feel. A year ago I never would’ve even contemplated doing that

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July 27, 2021, 09:01

Did I just spend a good chunk of my morning watching LDR videos and thinking about him?

Yes I did.

Am i tempted to ask him out?

Yes I am.

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July 25, 2021, 02:17

I just work up from a pretty bad nightmare and the first thing I did was message my French boy because I know he makes me feel safe

He hasn’t answered but I just thought that was cute

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July 24, 2021, 20:17

I really want to keep talking to my French boy but I feel like I’m bothering him even though he has said that I’m not and I don’t want to ask him if I am because I don’t want to seem like I need that kind of reassurance all the time (even though I kind of do).

I just feel really needy right now and I don’t like it

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July 23, 2021, 20:39

Because I’m so emotionally constipated I keep saving memes to send to my French boy and I think he likes it. The only Problem is, unless he flat out says “I am interested in you romantically” I will always be doubting