way to go mandy

ME MY FOOD ASKhi! i'm amanda; a 24 year old wedding photographer living in LA. i'm constantly striving to be the best version of myself.

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we did some nature stuff

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i have mainly been posting on my new instagram (abetteramanda), rather than here, so please follow along if you want updates!

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I have a instagram for healthy stuff now if you want to follow along!

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a very interesting smoothie tonight. 1 avocado, 2 handfuls of kale, 1/4 cup shredded unsweetened coconut, and 2 tbsp mct oil

it's not sweet at all. tastes very grassy, but is surprisingly refreshing. could maybe use some lime juice or something and it'd be A+.

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I really like trail running!!!! I tried it today and loved it. I am covered in mud and my new nikes are probably ruined but it was so much more fun! and look at this scenery I got to enjoy! wowee!

also keto is the best. it’s 2:30pm, I haven’t eaten anything yet today, and I ran + did some box jumps and I still don’t feel hungry at all. thank you body for using the fat I already have on my body as energy yayayayayyaaaa!

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it's so hard to go from living on your own and doing things you own way without anyone getting mad and then coming to my parent's house where everything has to be done the right way or else you get yelled at. i don't feel comfortable here at all.

sorry i am complaining about it so much. it's just hard and weird and sad.

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things started to feel okay for about 2 hours living here...we were all laughing and getting along. i wasn't annoyed by my mom. and then my dad freaked out and started slamming his fists on the table and yelling at me. and it just makes me so mad that for a second i didn't hate living here and he had to ruin it.

and i just feel like i've made so many mistakes lately and let so many people down. like normally my mistakes only effect me, but i feel like lately they've been effecting others and i just hate when people are mad at me. i'm just trying to figure out how to live life. i'm not a bad person. i wish people could understand sometimes rather than get mad.

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i love being treated like a baby

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WOW IM SO GLAD I LIVE AT HOME NOW SO MY DAD CAN YELL AT ME

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i am eating healthy again as of yesterday. last week was rough on my body. i even ate fast food multiple times. gross.

i am focusing on eating more fat right now. pretty much trying to get into keto and stay there for a while. honestly, that's when i felt the best and lost weight the fastest. so breakfast this morning was a little stick of butter because i had no time to make a real breakfast haha.

but i am already noticing that even when i do feel hungry, i still have energy and i don't feel weak/shaky like the past few weeks when i was eating more carbs. i remember last time i just felt like my feet were dragging all the time and i feel great right now. plus all the fat helps you stay good and full and with high energy all day!

i'm excited. despite a handful of things, i feel good.

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despite the fact that i've gained like 20lbs in the past 8 months, i feel like i look really good today. i'm wearing an outfit that i feel super confident in and i'm editing photos that i'm super proud of and maybe it doesn't matter that i've gained weight.

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i am actually really really sad and scared about moving back in with my parents. i am going to try to avoid their house as much as possible. i'm not even going to have a bedroom, i told them i would sleep on the basement couch. the rest of my stuff will just be packed in boxes and i'll be living out of a suitcase until i move to california.

i mean, it'll definitely give me incentive to move as quickly as possible but 6 months living like this kinda sounds bad.

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eating healthy is put on hold until may 1st. i don’t want to buy groceries for this apartment if i am moving in 3 days.

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i had a calmer and much more mature conversation with my parents about california today and it makes me feel a lot better.

yesterday was just so stupid and awful.

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I did bad eating wise this weekend. real bad. like how-does-one-person-eat-that-much bad. at first it was just going to be a few cheat meals....all under control. but then stressful things started happening with housing and I just started stress eating like crazy. ugh man. but today is monday. and mondays bring fresh starts and I'm going to forgive myself for this past weekend and get right back into healthy eating. I also am starting to move stuff to my parents house today. yeeeep I'm moving back in with my parents. hopefully not for too long. but it seems like the smartest option at the moment. even though it'll be awful. we already got in a fight yesterday and I don't even live there yet. bleh.

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shooting a wedding in ohio this weekend with abbey. today was really fun! also I had some cheats….this amazing sandwich and chips, a chocolate chip cookie, a beer, and some pieces of a brownie.

tummy is full and heart is happy!

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today was weigh in day and i woke up and surprise! i got my period. wah wahhhh not great for weigh in. good news is, i stayed exactly the same...down to the point. sad news is that i wish i would have lost something.

it's okay, though, i probably did lose some but my period took over and now i'm bloated.