my writing / what i have going on
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my hollanov series: they say that the world was built for two
Talking about Regina had made Shane remember all the places this could've gone wrong. All the times he'd meant to call this thing off and lost his nerve, all the times Ilya had done the same. All the moments they nearly drifted apart, months spent without a text, meetup, or word. But here they were. Married and snuggling in a hotel bed. Every breath Shane took was affected with the sharp, addicting scent of his husband's cologne. The ending felt like fate, but Shane knew that it wasn't. They had fought desperately for every scrap of happiness in their life. They'd earned this. from Absolutely Not (23,735 words)
A series of canon-compliant Hollanov oneshots that (mostly) take place post The Long Game. Mostly lighthearted, with a variety of different stories from both Shane and Ilya's POV. They all take place in the same universe; however they all are written to work as standalones.
recent uploads:
Ilya Rozanov Uses Generative AI to Get Good at Hockey (it costs him everything)
When Ilya Rozanov was twelve years old, his mom died. He hated his family and he hated being in Russia, so he decided he wanted to move to America. The best way he could think to do so was to become a professional hockey player, since he already played hockey, but that would take a LOT of work. He'd have to get super specific with his diet, since he was still a growing boy. He'd have to train with professional coaches for hours and hours every week, and he'd have to work on honing even the tiniest of skills. Ilya didn't want to do any of that. He thought that maybe there was an easier way to get the outcomes he sought—a shortcut.
Ilya decides he doesn't want to put in the work and asks Claude to make him good at hockey. It ruins his life :(
Greatest Fears and Wringing Hands
Shane, You are what makes this decision so hard. I’m sorry.
Ilya's unread suicide note from The Great Divide.
The Great Divide (for @maryjanecrunch)
“Perfectly fine. I’ll be good as new in a couple of days.” “Good.” A moment of quiet on the other line. Shane could hear Ilya breathing. “I love you so much. You know this, yes?” “Of course I do. And I love you too. I’ll see you…” Shane had to consider when the next day they could visit would be. "When you see me," Ilya supplied. “I'll see you when I see you. Okay. Sure.” “Bye, Shane." “Bye.”
The Boxing Day argument doesn't happen, Ilya doesn't seek professional help, and he and Shane keep pretending everything's fine. In the last few weeks of the season, Ilya reaches a breaking point. After saving his boyfriend's life, Shane is forced to grapple with the broken pieces, figure out what went wrong, and try to slot everything back together again.
current wip: You Would've Been the One (14/25, 50,983 words)
Shane would always be yearning for something with a man who didn't want him, wouldn't he? A little positive attention and he'd folded like origami. Pathetic. "Stay," Rozanov said. It sounded like pleading. That trick had worked on him, once. “Why?" Shane's tone was more biting than he intended. "What do you think is going to happen if I stay? Are you gonna make me a goddamned tuna melt?” Rozanov, to his credit, took the words like the blow they were. His eyes widened, then he covered his face with his palms and muttered something in Russian. Shane had never seen shame written across those features before.
In April 2017, Shane Hollander suffers the most painful not-breakup he’ll ever experience. Months later, he's outed. Two years after that, a broken knee ends his career.
When Rozanov unexpectedly crosses Shane's path four years later, Shane resolves to be courteous yet keep his distance. But Ilya is just as beautiful and charming as he ever was, and he’s determined to give what they'd once shared a second chance. A real chance.
It's a bad idea. Shane knows it's a bad idea.
The terrifying thing is that it doesn't feel like one.
other links:
my ao3
all my hollanov oneshots (this includes the world was built for two, canon-compliant things that aren't part of that series, my warmups, and au stuff. if it's a oneshot and i wrote it, it's in this series).
my bluesky (fair warning: i never post here. I do check dms occasionally)
my twitter
my instagram (basically same as bluesky)
my fluffy, post-canon drabble collection (true drabbles, as in 100 wc, and some drabble variants (double, triple, etc).
my fic recs
