ᯓ★ chrissy. 90s baby. she/her ᯓ★
january capricorn. slytherin. emo girlie. riddled with anxiety. lover of all things space. bigbang ot4 forever. number one choi seunghyun fan. the thanos (squid game) expert. obsessed with oliver stark & 911.
writer, gif maker.
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who i write for: choi seunghyun (t.o.p) ; thanos, hwang junho, namgyu (squid game)
what i write: fluff, angst, smut.
inbox: open for requests & anything else!
he's a cocky pilot who never plays by the rules, you're a mystery with a bounty he's been hired to claim. he gets more than he bargained for when he releases who you truly are. the job goes awry and it's up to him to figure out how to deal with the mess he's found himself in.
❥.ᐟ warnings: series will contain themes of 18+. smut, swearing, mentions of blasters, fighting, probably death (but only evil people dw), set in space, seunghyun is a reckless pilot, aliens.
❥.ᐟ playlist: we're not alone - son of dork | star girl - mcfly | shakari - ludwig goransson | star wars (main theme) | hooked on a feeling - blue swede | fooled around and fell in love - elvin bishop | fly me to the moon - frank sinatra
never in a million years did you think you'd make it on to one of kpops biggest survival shows but all your years of training paid off. the judging panel for this years show just so happened to involve choi seunghyun - an avid hater of shows of this kind. so, while you try to figure out his motivation behind it, he works hard to try and shield you from how harsh the industry truly is.
❥.ᐟ warnings: series will contain themes of 18+. topics will include depression, smut, the harsh reality of the kpop industry. each chapter will be marked accordingly.
❥.ᐟ playlist: your idol - saja boys | if lyrics were confidential - waterparks | a small, filthy show window - t.o.p | what it sounds like - huntr/x | enough - michael clifford | hollywood - marina | anti-hero - taylor swift.
about to post two masterlists for two new seunghyun series im gonna write but i make no promises on when actual chapters will be posted but im actively working on both of them. i just have no restraint and if i dont do them, i never will.
.ᐟ. ✦ SUMMARY: being a lifelong t.o.p fan, you could've never expected how one simple unboxing video would lead to one of the best days of your life.
.ᐟ. ✦ WARNINGS: swearing, kissing. just a lot of fluff.
.ᐟ. ✦ WC: 2.1k
.ᐟ . ✦AUTHORS NOTE: hi hi! i know its been like... 2 weeks almost since i posted a fic (maybe, idk ive lost count) but here we are!! i tried to add a lil smau in here instead of typing it out. this is just a bunch of fluff and seunghyun being seunghyun. enjoy <3
The internet was a scary place.
There was a ninety percent chance that if you posted something, you'd get hate from someone regardless of what the content was. Even if you were posting about how much you loved puppies, there'd be someone out there that would have an issue with it. People were brave on the internet often saying things they wouldn't say in real life. That was why you had to be careful with the way you worded things and the things you posted. Regardless, that had never deterred you. No matter how many comments you got about being a fangirl, how insane you were for the amount of money you spent on the things you loved, it never stopped you. There would be people out there that liked what you posted and you chose to focus on those. There was no room for negativity in your life. That wasn't to say that it didn't bother you because it did. Some days, you had to step away for the sake of your own mental health.
The worst of it came when you had posted your unboxing video of T.O.P's new album. You had been a fan of his for years, supporting him through everything he had gone through. Nothing would change your support for him but seeing the comments on your latest video had made you turn off your phone and focus on real life for a little bit. The comments ranged from calling you crazy to straight up being insulting of your appearance. People could be cruel. These people didn't know you. Why should you be shamed for doing something you enjoyed?
So, with your phone off, you spent the day with your friends, completely forgetting about the online world just for a little bit.
You could never have expected what you logged back on to the next day.
Logging back into Instagram, you were flooded with hundreds of notifications. With your brow furrowed, you scrolled through them wondering what had happened while you'd been gone. Usually, you got a good amount of notifications but this many? It was unusual. Then, you saw it. The one notification that popped out to you.
Choi Seunghyun himself had reposted your unboxing video on his story.
Your heart was pounding as you looked at the notification. This couldn't be real, right? You were dreaming. There was no way he had noticed you and your silly little video. It only got better because as you moved to press over to your DM's, you saw that you also had a message from him. Since when did he message fans? You were sure he had stopped doing that years ago. So, you had to make sure it was actually him so you didn't get your hopes up. But, as you pressed on his profile and saw that checkmark to signal it was an official account, you couldn't help but let that giddiness flow through you. This was real. He had messaged you.
You sat there frozen, phone held in your hand as you read the messages over and over again. You're beautiful. The urge to scream into your pillow was so strong but you tried to remain cool, calm and collected as you shakily typed a reply back.
And, that's how it went for weeks. You exchanged messages, talking about anything and everything. The more you got to know him, the more you saw him as a real person and not a celebrity. It changed your whole outlook. He was just a normal guy who had been thrust into the spotlight as a teenager. He was kind, funny and always took the time to get to know you. It was refreshing. Most of the guys you talked to always seemed way more into themselves than anything else but not Seunghyun. Now, you had a crush on Seunghyun as a person, not as a celebrity. Each time a notification popped up from him on your phone, you replied straight away. Maybe it was desperate, maybe he thought you were insane but you couldn't help it. His messages were the best part of your day. You hadn't told anyone -- this was just between the two of you. Your own little world where nobody else could interrupt.
As more time passed, you moved from DM's to voice calls. The first time you had heard his voice talking directly to you, your heart had almost threatened to beat out of your chest. Despite his deep voice, he was so soft spoken. His little chuckles after he told a joke were seared into your memory, the way he would always listen to what you had to say no matter how mundane it was meant so much to you.
"Would it be too forward of me to ask if you wanted to meet up?" Seunghyun asked one night as you lay in bed, phone to your ear as you spoke to him. The phone call had already been going on for two hours.
"Really? You want to?" You asked trying to hide the surprise in your voice. You had figured this was just an online thing -- one that you would cherish for the rest of your life.
"Yeah. You've treated me like a normal person from the second we started talking. I think it would be cool to actually hang out," he paused, a nervous silence filling the void before he spoke again. "Unless you don't want to. That's okay."
You cut him off quickly. "No, no! I do. Just tell me when and where and I'll be there."
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The when was two days later and the where? Han River. It was your favourite spot in the city and apparently Seunghyun’s too so it seemed like the perfect place to meet up. The initial moment you had seen each other had been awkward. Neither of you knew whether to hug, shake hands or just smile at each other. You’d settled for a side hug, the contact immediately sending shivers down your spine. Once that was out of the way, things got easier. It was like you were back on the phone, talking about everything and anything just now in person. To get used to being around each other, he had suggested taking a stroll along the river which you had happily agreed to. The more time you spent with each other, the more comfortable you got. His hand kept brushing against yours as you walked. You couldn’t help but smile to yourself. How was this real? Was it some elaborate fever dream you’d wake up from soon? There was no way you were this lucky.
“What’s going on in that head of yours? I can see the gears moving. Don’t go thinking too hard now,” Seunghyun teased, bumping you lightly with his shoulder.
“Shutup,” you laughed. “Just thinking about how surreal this is.”
“Live up to your expectations or should I just bow out right now?” He grinned. The butterflies in your stomach were doing backflips, the dimples in his cheeks making him even more beautiful if that was even possible.
“Yeah, wow, you’re awful. Worst day of my life,” you sighed dramatically, earning a laugh from Seunghyun.
“So you don’t want to go ride on one of the swan boats?”
“Wait, I take it back. Let’s go.”
You barely had time to register what was happening when you felt Seunghyun take your hand in his, lacing your fingers together. Your heart thudded against your chest, too lost in the feeling of his skin against yours to notice he was paying for a ticket to the swan boats then the next he was helping you get into one. He had decided to take the drivers seat which in hindsight you probably should’ve known was a bad idea but you were too lost in your own thoughts to even register what was going on. This whole day felt like a daydream. But, no. It was real. He was right next to you, grinning at you as he steered the swan boat into the water.
You had been on the water for about ten minutes, Seunghyun’s laughs like music to your ears every time he swerved to not hit another boat. There had been a few near misses, you gripping on to your seat for dear life but hearing the unbridled joy coming from him made it all worthwhile. Knowing his history and everything he had been through, to know that you were here with him making him this happy? There were no words to describe how amazing it felt. This man deserved nothing but happiness and if you could even be a small part of that then you were happy.
“Oh, fuck, that was a close one,” he let out a puff of breath, a laugh following as he swerved to not hit a boat with a family on it.
“I see now why you never got a driving license," you teased.
“Smartass,” he shook his head, that beautiful smile on his face as he turned to look at you, taking his eyes off the water. “I’ll have you know I’m just too good to be on the roads. That’s why I don’t have a license."
“Or they know you’re insane and decided it was safer for the world if they didn’t let you loose in the streets of Seoul.”
He leaned over, taking one of his hands off the wheel to teasingly poke you in the side. “Keep talking shit and I’ll make you regret it.”
“Oh, I’m so scared,” you laughed.
Then, suddenly, the boat jerked, colliding with another one in front of you. Without warning, it tipped to the side and before you had a chance to grab hold and save yourself, you fell out into the water. Seunghyun toppled out into the water too, the boat now empty as the two of you laughed, swimming to get back on to dry land. Thankfully you were close enough to the edge of the river that you didn’t have to swim for long, finally pulling yourself back up onto the river bank. Now soaking wet, you got to your feet but you couldn’t stop laughing as you watched Seunghyun get back to his feet. His hair was flat to his head, dripping water but he still looked beautiful. Meanwhile, you were sure you looked like a drowned rat but you didn’t care.
“I told you!” You managed to get out between laughs. “This is why you’re not allowed behind a wheel.”
“Yeah, yeah,” he chuckled, raking a hand through his drenched hair. You couldn’t help but stare at him. Unabashedly so. He noticed, of course he did, tilting his head as he raised a brow. “Want a picture or something?”
“You know you called me a smartass earlier? I think you’re the smartass.”
He took a step closer to you, reaching out to tuck a piece of your wet hair behind your ear. “Nah, you’re still the smartass. A beautiful one.”
It was like time froze as his hand slid down your side to grip at your hips, tugging you close enough to him that your chest was pressed up against his. His other hand move to rest on the back of your neck, his lips mere inches from yours. Your breath hitched, hands nervously moving to wrap around his neck. It seemed like he was debating with himself but when you saw him tilt his head, your eyes fluttered shut and then his lips were on yours. It was a soft, slow kiss, his lips moving gently against yours. Your heart was beating in your chest, hard enough you were sure it was going to break through your rib cage at any point. Your hands moved up to tangle in his hair, a small groan passing his lips as he deepened the kiss. Neither of you cared that you were soaking wet, too lost in each other to even forget that you needed air to breathe until he pulled away. Only slightly, though.
“I've wanted to do that since the second I saw you but was too afraid to,” he admitted, his hand now cupping your cheek, his thumb softly running against your skin. “But… seeing you here looking all drenched and adorable, I couldn’t help myself.”
“No complaints from me,” you said breathlessly.
“So, if I do it again, you’ll take back those comments about my driving?”
“Only one way to find out.”
And, so, he kissed you again, smiling as he claimed your lips. You had said it earlier how surreal it felt to be here but this? You could have never expected this and you never wanted this moment to end.
Not me checking your page every five minutes to see if you’ve dropped a new fic😂 (take your time though, love your writing🤍)
this made me smile so big you have no idea 😭 i promise something is coming soon!!! blame the uk heatwave and my brain not braining but i got a few ideas finally so 👀
It's been a year since Top was on Tudum. Miss that era🤍
I MISS IT SO MUCH. i remember that whole week so vividly bc i wrote dizzy and posted a fic every day depending on what he was doing 😭 and the day tudum happened i was on a voice call with friends watching it and it was so fun 💕 BRING BACK TABI WEEK
I'm sorry that your equipment got held up at customs, but I had nothing to do with that. But honestly, after last week, you shouldn't be doing any more experiments anyway. Well, then, what do you want me to do? I want you to appear in front of the Smackdown audience, for which you are paid in human money, remember? Oh, yeah... and now what did you say about doing my science experiments? I don't know. Improvise.
