We Cowardly Few

Pollux // 32 // Terrified that nothing actually exists and torn between the revelation that I do not exist and that if I do, I don't matter.

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[inthefallofasparrow]

9. The Hermit

[we-cowardly-few]

Please look at me

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I want anyone to care about what im doing

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I just want it to matter to someone that it feels like im falling apart.

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You made me feel more ashamed and ugly than I have in years. You made me think that I might be able to be normal again and then you just dissappeared and you fucking made fun of me. Like, I realise how juvenile it is to be upset but who the fuck tells someone theyll be safe just to talk shit about them? I fucking hate me.

[we-cowardly-few]

Just walked out of an office where I was doing some work. Immediately began imagining how the ladies were probably making fun of me as i left.

[we-cowardly-few]

An Ode to the Killers or Mr. Silver-lining

(Intro verse)

I'll be the first to admit,

That I saw it

From a thousand miles away

Right from the start

It hurt my heart

In a place I thought I locked away

How did it end up like this?

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep,

And she's doing her best,

But I'm having a stroke,

What if its all in my head?

And when shes going to bed,

My stomach is sick,

Cause If its all in my head

Then it was only a kiss, now

I'll let go of it, now

Let it go

So now I'm sitting

In a cold, dark room

Calling out to God

That i dont like you

Its Tearing me apart

Cause i really really do

But its kind of fucked,

When im kind of used-

To every little touch

Touching every little bruise

And every little look

Looking right damn through

Every lie i try to tell,

Is a damn excuse

(Chorus)

i keep telling myself

I think too much, I talk too much,

Its a flaw

I try to tell myself

Not to ask too much

Or better yet, dont ask at all

(Refrain)

I I don't really wanna write these words,

Because if anyone heard

It would be truth I can't regret

I don't really want to sing this song,

Its Gone on too long,

Better forgive so you can forget

I'm not the type of guy,

To demand your type of time,

Or even demand at all,

But if the timing wasn't right,

How could I try to fly,

When ever since says I would fall?

I'm coming out of my cage,

But I'm not doing real fine,

Gotta, gotta keep up,

If I don't want to drown,

It started out with a kiss,

How did it end up like this?

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

( instrumental break)

(Chorus)

i keep telling myself

I think too much, I talk too much,

Its a flaw

I try to tell myself

Not to ask too much

Or better yet, dont ask at all

[we-cowardly-few]

Not feeling real thought of at the moment

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I deserve nothing

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Just wanna feel loved

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Don't listen to me

Don't tell me it will be better

When getting there is this fucking hard.

Don't tell me I'll live,

If you won't comfort the pain life brings.

Don't ask me to cope

Without listening to these strugflws.

Don't make me beg for sympathy,

Just to recieve pity.

[we-cowardly-few]

Ya boy could use some human connection rn

[illasfvck]

“Do you love me enough that I may be weak with you? Everyone loves strength, but do you love me for my weakness? That is the real test.”

— Alain de Botton, Essays in Love (via books-n-quotes)

[blossomfully]

“So I said: “please love me,” and what I meant was: please treat me gently. Please love me with a love that can be felt. That can be touched. A love that I can write about gracefully if and when it ends. Which I may look upon with pacific eyes, and say: “that was a good love. It had to end but it was good.””

Sue Zhao

[we-cowardly-few]

I lost my way again

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My mental state devolves

The longer I am alone.

[we-cowardly-few]

More and more I feel as if I'm not alive and simply moving through the pipeline of existence at a snails pace. Gives a bad name to snails.