i just wanted to let all of you know that i was supposed to jump off a bridge about 5 hours ago just right after i attended our Thursday worship services. and i know it sounds so stupid to commit suicide just a few minutes after going to church and studying the Words of God but i was too hopeless earlier and no words can ever describe how sad i am at that moment.
i tried my best to push all those evil thoughts away from my mind and while doing so, i suddenly saw my best friend, with my cloudy eyes from the tears rolling down my cheeks, just a few feet from where i was standing when i was just supposed to cross the road and walk straight to the nearest bridge.
it turns out that she was on her way home when she saw me walking alone in the dark and empty street, asking questions to myself and to God.
i saw her face and realized that she was actually smiling.
and, somehow, that was enough to stop me from doing the thing that was supposed to end everything for me.
she could’ve left a minute later from school and never had the chance to see me walking on my way to death or i could’ve walked faster and she wouldn’t see me there crying then. but, instead, God is so great that He made everything fit on His perfect plan. He saved me. God saves. He can save you, too.
and most importantly, remember that God can always use you to save others, too.