one-sided buddie | 1.7k | masturbation | originally written for @weewookinkmeme
“So is your son really the reason you don’t date?” Eddie can't get Buck's innocent question out of his head. He keeps replaying it, rotating it like it'll take on new meaning. Like it'll somehow explain how Eddie's treacherous brain almost answered anyone who can throw me around.
That's gay. Eddie is straight. He's a pretty big dude. There are women who could throw him around, probably, but they've got to be rare. Certainly not Shannon. But Buck could.
Buck who is also straight. Sure, his girlfriend is invisible, but Chimney assured Eddie she exists. He also made sure Eddie knew that they were broken up and that Buck is pining worse than a Christmas tree, but that isn't the point. The point is that Buck likes pussy. And so does Eddie.
Sure, he hasn't been in contact with one in roughly two years. Longer, even. He and Shannon tried for one round of “yay! You're back and getting shot didn't kill you!” sex, but Eddie's dick stayed soft and Shannon didn't get wet, so they abandoned that plan to argue with each other about moving to LA some more.
Eddie regrets not going sooner. But how could he have? He didn't have his feet under him yet.
He should've gone. He would've figured it out.
This is why Eddie doesn't think about Shannon. When he was deployed, he got off exclusively to her. Forget the porn the other guys passed around, grainy nudes taken on bad cellphone cameras. Eddie's memory of Shannon’s body was crystal clear.
Unfortunately, his memory of their fights is also crystal clear. So even though he's reclining in his bed, his kid fast asleep and Eddie not tired yet, he's probably going to end the evening frustrated. Again.
Buck rises unbidden in his mind. Eddie had liked it when Buck got in his face. He likes the sweet, friendly version of Buck too. But he'd wanted Buck when he was snarling and snapping at him. When Eddie had thought maybe Buck would take a swing at him.
That's what he wants. A sparring partner. He wants to mess Buck up, get his fingers in that perfectly gelled hair and tug. Put his hands around Buck's throat and make him feel Eddie's strength.