godless & free

Screaming the name Of a foreigner's God The purest expression of grief Wes Jackson 21 Dominant Level 3 ● Room 301 655 points Still my heart is heavy With the hate of some other man's beliefs All that I've been taught And every word I've got Is foreign to me

[tbsolonely]

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

[subbsimon]

“Well yeah, I mean I wasn’t happy. After all the back and forth with you coming and going, it only added to things.  I wanted to be enough to make you happy, it made me feel like I wasn’t even though I know now that that wasn’t true.” Simon giving him a reassuring smile. “Maybe all along this was what we were really meant to be, friends. Maybe even best friends, if we work on it more.” Nudging into him with another soft laugh. “Yeah, you too. He would, Simba. He loved you and would want to see you happy, so keep reaching for it, Wes. You’ll get there.” Simon yawned softly.

[wessyjack-blog]

Wes nodded, “Well I’m glad you know now that wasn’t it and wasn’t true.”  He laughed along with Simon after the nudge and found himself in some sort of agreement.  “Maybe so and it feels good... to be talking again and all that.  You’ve always been important to me and I definitely never wanted to lose that completely.”  His smile seemed to stretch ear to ear when Simon called him Simba and he nodded his head again.  “Thanks, Simon says.  I’m just seeing how each day goes, that type of thing.  Putting pressure on a situation or any kind of relationship doesn’t go right for me.”  Wes yawned as well since it was infectious.  “Tired?”

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

[subbsimon]

“Uh huh and I thought you were into that too. Or has that changed for you?” Simon’s brow raising as he looked to a rather different looking Wes it seemed to him. “So you’re going to live the Lion King life? Hakuna Matata and all that? I mean I agree, the past shapes you, but it doesn’t have to define you.” Laughing as well with him. “That’s good to hear. I think he’d be happy to know you’re doing good and not letting anything hold you back anymore.”

[wessyjack-blog]

“I don’t know,” he shrugged.  “That’s what I mean about not know what I want.  Maybe it was a phase or maybe I was afraid of something too serious when my heart felt like it was bleeding out from other things.”  Wes looked at Simon for a solid moment, just holding his gaze.  “I like the idea of it but I remember you weren’t happy, Sage wasn’t happy, I wasn’t happy...”  He nodded, “Just call me Simba.  I think I’m just exhausted really.”  He was smiling wide, “It’s good to hear you laughing again.  But yeah, you’re right... he would want me to carry on and be happy.”

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

[subbsimon]

“It was something I spent time thinking about when him and i were only friends. As long as its something that is even between all of us, I won’t mind it. I mean, that’s how it should be and I think I’ll like it, more love, right?” Simon smiled, blowing at his bangs when Wes touched them. “I don’t really know, just saying I don’t expect you to tell me everything.” Giving him a little shrug as well. “What could hold you back? You’re Wes Jackson after all.”

[wessyjack-blog]

“More love,” Wes repeated, nodding.  He wasn’t sure if he believed that or that those relationships could actually work anymore but it wasn’t up to him when it came to Simon.  “I don’t really have secrets... just things that are hard to talk about it.  Sometimes what’s buried should stay there.”  Maybe that was a real way to move on with life.  He chuckled, “That’s right.  A force in itself.  The good thing though... I feel like I’ve finally made peace with Chad being gone.”

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

[subbsimon]

Simon slipped from the dresser to sit on the bed with him. He use to trust Wes, so why not now? It wasn’t like things could happen anyway. “I don’t really know if we will, taking it slow and he wants a third, so there is that too.” still smiling a bit as he tucked Wes hair behind his ear. “Yeah, I saw how she left, sorry you got lost in the mix. You’re not a lost cause, just need to keep working through it all.” Simon sighed. “You know, you can still talk to me about those things…I know there are things you might never tell me but as a friend, I can always listen.”

[wessyjack-blog]

The soft touch and the way Simon tucked his hair back, reminded Wes of the times Simon used to do that in the past.  He smiled at him and gave the slightest of nods.  “How do you really feel about the third thing?  You weren’t so into it before.”  Wes would always remember Simon’s need to be a one and only and hoped his friend wasn’t settling.  “Well, she was ready, they were claimed and all.  I think it’s all that was going on before and then the sudden drop away... I don’t really feel bad about that.  It happens and she should be on with her life and all.”  He shrugged, “It’s just still not knowing what I want.  You know?  As much as I may love or care for someone, there’s something that holds me back.  Some fear and I don’t know.”  Reaching out he brushed Simon’s bangs from his eyes, “What wouldn’t I never tell you?”

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

[subbsimon]

“Uh huh. Well yes, I’m alone. We are normally in his room rather then mine.” Simon kicking his feet a little as he sat there. “I’ve been good. I mean, been working on points, working on simple things to do with being a good boy.” Simon shrugged. “How have you been? Anything new with you?” Simon giving him a little more of a smile, he did miss just talking to Wes.

[wessyjack-blog]

Wes’s head bobbed a little as he listened and finished off the cookie.  He sat upright on the bed, “You getting close to level 5?  Think you’ll claim with MIkah and all that?”  He smiled a bit again seeing Simon smile.  “I’m glad you’re happy... just so ya know.”  Wes ran a hand through his long wavy hair and shook his head a little.  “Nothing much new... been quite and laying low a bit.  Too much change happened at once with Sage leaving, you and I going separate ways, and I still can’t figure anything out.”  He smiled, “Pretty sure I’m a lost cause.”

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

[subbsimon]

“Well one can hope but no, I never really do expect you to change.” Simon smiled for a moment. As the other looked around, he raised his brow. “if you’re looking for my roommate, he’s never really around and if you’re looking for Mikah, he’s in his room.” figuring it was one of the two. Simon rolled his eyes as he handed him the cookie tin. “They’re in there.” Simon slipping up to sit on his dresser.

[wessyjack-blog]

It was nice to see the smile.  Wes had to admit that to himself.  Maybe he had been treating the whole thing too casually but he didn’t really know how else to handle it.  “I’m not lookin for anyone, per say.  Just surprised you’re alone, I guess.”  Wes shrugged but for the time being was glad Mikah wasn’t there, that could just be entirely too awkward.  He popped open the tin and took a cookie out, shoving a bit of it into his mouth as his gaze lifted to see Simon putting as much space between them as possible.  “So... how ya been?  Seems you’re real good.”

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

[subbsimon]

Simon didn’t know what to think about all this. Wes had been avoiding him it would seem and well, he was doing the same. It was just easier but now it seemed it was time to move on with things. They both seemed to be in good places after all. Simon sat curled up on his bed, the cookies in a tin and waiting. With the knock and loud announcement, Simon opened the door, rolling his eyes. “Must you be such a wanker?” he teased, letting him in.

[wessyjack-blog]

Flipping his hair back in a very Wes-like move, he scoffed and entered Simon’s room.  “Oh puhlease... ya didn’t expect that to change anytime soon.”  He looked around the room quickly, half expecting the boyfriend to be there and then his eyes began searching out the cookies.  He plopped down onto the bed and his hand went to rest on his hip, “So where are they?  Ya should know better than to tease a Wes Jackson-like creature with cookies.”

[wessyjack-blog]

Build A Bridge // 9-12

After Wes slipped on some shoes he headed out of his room and up to Simon’s.  They had mostly always spent time in Wes’s room but there was a bit of deja vu attached to the stroll to SImon’s.  He’d been thinking quite a lot lately how they said they’d remain friends no matter what but nothing had happened.  So Wes began taking the initiative to hopefully keep that in place and when he reached the submissive’s door, a smile crept on his features and he knocked.  “Cookie monster’s here!” he announced and then laughed.

@subbsimon

[subbsimon]

450, hasn’t changed really. Yeah, I mean, I am happy. So that could be the case. See you soon?

Originally posted by kinky-1d

[wessyjack-blog]

I guess not... I though ya had maybe moved up in the world.  Good, I’m glad.  Yep, I’m just slippin on some shoes.

[subbsimon]

I know, You’ll have to come get them. Yeah, I’ve come to see I like it and I’m trying new things.

Originally posted by larents

[wessyjack-blog]

I can do that.  What’s your room nowadays?  That’s good... maybe it just means you’re happy.

[subbsimon]

Yes, sir.

Originally posted by tastylouis

[wessyjack-blog]

Ya know I never turn down cookies.  You’re bakin a lot lately.

[wessyjack-blog]

TL/PM: Heck yes, we are!

TL/PM: I’m so excited!

[subbsimon]

I made shortbread biscuits, anyone like one?

[wessyjack-blog]

Those are cookies right?

[babypiercerpg-blog]

Ok Wes. I had Cocoa Puffs. Yumm!!! My favorite. 

[wessyjack-blog]

Those are good.  Have ya had Reese’s Puffs??

[subkelso]

That was quite the welcome. It’s nice to be back, kinda missed this place. I’m Kelso, don’t think we’ve met. 

[wessyjack-blog]

I’ve been in and out of this place a couple times so I just wanted to be sure ya got welcomed properly.  I’m Wes, nice to meet ya Kelso.  How long were ya gone?

[wessyjack-blog]

PM: Tonight is perfect!

TL/PM: Great!  We’re gonna show ‘em how it’s done with how fantastic we look, alone.

@dahlia-black