paris paloma songs that altered my brain chemistry ... sentence starters
"No emotional regulation..."
"Don't you dare think it's overkill."
"I'd gnaw off my leg to escape it all."
"I'm balancing this scaffolding of skin…"
"It fills you with light to take away mine."
"Let time take me, weather like the tree."
"Never let the tide be one more drop full."
"And you can scream at me all you want."
"A 'good girl'… always look and never be."
"You take such delight in killing my light."
"But, please, hurry if you really love me..."
"Do I not fear death, but just pretend to?"
"I just didn't expect them to be such losers."
"I don't know you. I used to like to pretend to."
"Apologies from my tongue, and never yours."
"If our love died, would that be the worst thing?"
"Good boy, you're working exactly as intended."
"How long had you been harboring that venom?"
"How clever to make a girl's own face the enemy."
"Before me is a man who cares not for little things."
"If I was easy to kill, you would have done it already."
"Has the penny dropped? You're never gonna get it."
"I grieve the world where I am a child in the garden."
"And I have seen you relish such violence with a joy."
"You've been playing with your power for a long time."
"And I would not expect you to witness what we know."
"And I have never seen a creature more pitiful than him."
"For the first time since I drew breath… I'm undesirable, again."
"Poor madman, that's what happens when you drink saltwater."
"Why did I deserve to live? Did I just deserve to watch them die?"
"What did I do wrong? Will you tell me what I did wrong, what did I…?"
"Leave me to the beasts and bears, I'd rather that the feast was theirs."
"Some only turn towards the heavens when the end is feeling desperate."
"Getting out and wading back in, through the quagmire of who I might be."
"And if you call me 'good girl' one more time, then my fist will meet your skull."
"For God's sake, how could I even begin to clean up the mess of this relationship?"
"And I will burn my flesh and bones, screaming the words, 'it will never be yours'!"
"And I can see their hunger, looking for a sign that any of their destruction has me suffering inside."
Never would I beseech you, as some sadistic vengeance exercise, to endure what you put me through... I don't think you would pull out on the other side."