Your writing is so good! 💜
I haven’t posted in forever, but thanks, love!

shark vs the universe
Three Goblin Art
Aqua Utopia|海の底で記憶を紡ぐ
NASA

祝日 / Permanent Vacation

JVL
Today's Document

izzy's playlists!
Acquired Stardust

oozey mess
RMH

@theartofmadeline
will byers stan first human second

No title available

No title available
Not today Justin

tannertan36

No title available

JBB: An Artblog!

Discoholic 🪩

seen from United States

seen from United Kingdom
seen from Malaysia

seen from Malaysia
seen from United States

seen from T1

seen from Malaysia
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States

seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from Uruguay

seen from Canada
seen from United States
seen from Argentina
seen from T1

seen from Argentina

seen from United States

seen from United States
@weswriteswhatever
Your writing is so good! 💜
I haven’t posted in forever, but thanks, love!
There was a vamp nest in Iowa, in some shithole about three towns over from Beaconsfield.
John was out hunting, and Dean took this opportunity, as he had with many previous, to take Sam out.
They stole a car from the motel parking lot and they drive for what felt like hours, even though it was only about 20 minutes.
Sam clung to Dean’s jacket as they snuck through the cornfield. He was 15, and he knew he shouldn’t be so scared, but unlike most people his age, he knew what could be lurking in the shadows.
Dean led him through the field until they reached a clearing. It was small, but it was secluded and dark. It was perfect.
They went slow and took their time. Knowing how John obsessed over cases, they knew they’d have all night.
With Dean’s jacket laid out under Sam, they kissed. It wasn’t sloppy and hurried like most teenagers were. It was slow, and loving, and perfect.
Sam stared up at the sky when Dean’s hands started roaming and his lips dropped to Sam’s neck. He knew it would never last forever. He knew that at some point they’d have to stop. But for that moment, right there in that Iowa cornfield, Sam felt loved.
“Richie?”
Richie stared at the figure in front of him. Eddie stared back with those glowing yellow eyes. It wasn’t Eddie. He knew it wasn’t Eddie, but he couldn’t bring himself to run.
“You’re a freak, Trashmouth! Bev told me what you said. You’re a fucking freak!”
Richie stood still, mind still reeling from the rejection.
“I’m gonna tell everyone that you- you’re queer! You’re a- a fag! I’m telling everyone!”
Eddie’s bright yellow eyes glowed even brighter as Richie’s chest tightened. Eddie’s face distorted to show a clownish grin.
“They’re all gonna hate you, Richie. They’re all gonna hate you.”
“Beep beep, asshole!”
“What are you afraid of?”
It’s a simple question, really.
What are you afraid of?
Clowns? Spiders? The dark?
Blood? Violence? War?
Your mother?
The world?
The soul-crushing reality that you can never be with the one you love?
“What are you afraid of, Eddie?”
John sat in the counselor’s office at the elementary school. Sam was 8, in second grade.
“Your son started a fight with a classmate.”
The woman sitting across from him was a short, blonde, well-dressed woman. John thought she was quite the looker. If he’d met her in a bar, he might have hit on her. But he did not meet her in a bar. He met her here, as she accused his 8 year-old son of viciously attacking a classmate. Dean, he expected this from, but Sam?
John sat in the psychologists office. Sam was 13, in seventh grade.
“Your son displays violent tendencies. I believe he might have psychopathic tendencies. John, I recommend that you have your son committed.”
The man sitting across from him was old, maybe 60, 65, balding, with glasses. If John had met him on the street, he would have thought him a kindly old man, wise with old age. But this man was evil, telling John to throw his son in some kind of insane asylum. John wanted to rip this guy’s head off.
John sat in the police station. Sam was 15, in tenth grade.
“Your son was found at the scene of a double homicide, covered in blood.”
The man sitting across from him was young. A detective. Dark hair, bright eyes, but he looked weathered by knowledge. If John had met him on the road, he would have thought him to be a hunter. But this man was telling John his son, his sweet, innocent Sammy, had been arrested and named a suspect in a double homicide. John just cried.
John sat in an empty pew. Sam was 17.
“Your son is cursed. It’s as if the devil himself has a hold on him. Demons plague him, John. Someone has to end his suffering.”
As John walked out of the church, the priest was stabbed in the back. As Sam twisted the knife, a smile grew on his evil little face. The devil spoke loudly in his mind.
“Kill him, and you will be king.”
Whiskey kisses on cherry lips
Leather jacket draped over too-small shoulders
Stubbled chin rubbing against pale neck
Hot breath on flat chest
Big rough hands on tiny waist
Sturdy hips between thin legs
Desperate man pushing into little boy body
Dear Diary
This isn’t a diary. It’s a journal. Dad told me I should keep a journal. It’s not a diary. None of that girly stuff. So let’s get this straight: in case anyone finds this, my name is Dean Winchester. My father is John Winchester. My brother is Sam Winchester. We hunt monsters.
Michigan: Dad and I salted and burned a body. It was this boy. He kind of looked like Sam. He didn’t know he was dead though. I felt bad for him.
Kentucky: Dad and Sam got into an argument again. Sam called Dad an asshole and Dad got out the belt. I wish they wouldn’t fight so much. It breaks my heart to see Sam cry, and I know Dad drinks more after they fight.
Illinois: Dad got pretty spooked on the hunt tonight. We’ve been hunting that demon since mom died. Turns out, we just stumbled upon a whole bunch of them. They’re gone now; they left before Dad could exorcise them. But one of them said something weird. Dad got drunk as soon as we got back to the motel. Sam’s doing his homework now. I wonder if he knows what he is. I wonder if it’s true.
Montana: I think Sam’s getting into fights at school. He keeps coming back with bloody noses and bruises. I asked him about it, but all he ever says is “They deserved it.” I’m really worried about him.
Washington: Sam and Dad got into a fight. Sam stormed out. I don’t know
Oregon: Sam Winchester is a fucking psychopath. If anyone finds this journal, stay far away from
Headline: The Oregonian:
Three Teens Found Dead, Killer Leaves Message: “They Deserved it” in Blood
Sam was called a lot of things.
John called him “boy.”
Kids at school called him “freak.”
Hunters called him “monster.”
Demons called him “the boy who will be king.”
But Sam didn’t care about all that. The only thing that mattered to Sam was the soft murmur of “Sammy” in his ear when Dean hugged him. Somehow, Dean took all the pain away.
The first time Sammy got high, he was in Dean’s lap on a dirty motel room bed. He was 14, just starting to lose the baby fat that had plagued him for years. Dean was 18, all sleazy smirks and cheesy pick-up lines. The first hit had his head spinning. He inhaled. His mind buzzed. He exhaled. Dean fell in love.
The second time Sam got high, he was 18, all long legs and shaggy hair. He sat cross-legged on the floor of a new, somehow dirtier motel room. Dean sat across from him. John was gone on a hunt; they had all night. Sam inhaled. Dean’s anticipation grew. He exhaled. Sam dreamt of freedom.
The third time Sam got high was at Stanford. He inhaled. He thought of Dean. His exhale became a choked sob.
John didn’t want Sam to leave.
No, he wanted Sam to stay.
He wanted that sinful, spear-tongued boy to stay right there with him in that ‘67 Chevy Impala they had called home for nearly 18 years.
But he knew if Sam stayed, the line would be crossed.
And God only knows what would have happened then.
I wonder what kind of filthy things Tony was waiting to do to Peter. No, no I don’t. I already know. The way he calls him “Mr Stark” and “sir.” You already fucking know baby boy just wants to get fucking manhandled, tied up, and used. Over and over again.
“You gonna be good?”
“Y-yes sir Mr Stark sir.”
It wasn’t Sam.
The tall, lanky, shaggy-haired twenty-something Dean had picked up at the bar.
It wasn’t Sam.
Sam was gone. Sam had left.
But Dean had this guy. This sweet-talking little twink whose hips swayed when he walked.
“Can I uh... Can I call you Sam?”
“Call me whatever you, want, baby. I’m just here for the ride.”
It wasn’t Sam. But it was good enough.
“De-“
“Lemme see.”
“No! It’s weird.”
“What’s so weird about it?”
“They’re women’s underwear, Dean.”
“Come on, Sammy. Lemme see.”
“Fine. You promise you won’t laugh?”
“Promise.”
“See? It’s w- De, what are y- fuck.”
Dear Diary,
What’s wrong with me? Boys aren’t supposed to like boys. They’re definitely not supposed to like their brothers. It’s not my fault. It can’t be my fault. God, I didn’t ask to love him.
Dear Diary,
He hugged me today. He smelled like cigarettes and Dad’s whiskey. I can’t stop smelling my jacket. I just wish he would hold me and never let go.
Dear Diary,
I kissed him. God, I kissed him. He pushed me away. He told me I’m just horny. He told me we’re not supposed to do this. He told me I’m crazy. I can’t stay here. Not now. It’s my fault.
Dear Diary,
I had to talk to someone. I talked to Dad. He told me to leave. He told me I’m sick. I got accepted to Stanford, and I’m leaving. I’m never coming back. I can’t do that to Dean.
And at that, Dean’s heart shattered.
Whenever school counselors asked John about the bruises on his eldest son, his response was always, “Boys will be boys,” but he couldn’t explain the bruises on Sam’s wrists and neck. He didn’t want to ask. He didn’t want to acknowledge the way Dean looked at his little brother.
Sitting in the motel parking lot, in the car that would forever be Sam and Dean’s home, John drank his suspicions away. He’d never admit it, and he’d certainly never write it down in his journal, but on some level, he always knew.
Sam and Dean were brothers. They weren’t supposed to love each other. Not like that. Never like that. And John would blame himself. Forever. After all, nothing about their lives had ever been normal.
Play more Zeppelin.