haya

cause it’s not about you bitches i’ll tell you that

[whatashameparis]

…welcome to my blog!!

my name is haya. pronouns are she/her. i’m 18! my fanfiction side blog is @sylviaonlsd . i love the 1975 and i talk a lot of shit so this is what i do here <3

music i like: the 1975. lorde. charli xcx. ethal cain. lana del rey. hole. phoebe bridgers. caroline polocheck. the japanese house. kim petras. addison rae. fka twigs.

tags i use:

#hspeaks — rants and thoughts

#fashionkilla — clothes, pieces i like

#mutuals — my lovely moots

[whatashameparis]

Headache. Im overstimulated. Theres arabs everywhere. A baby screaming. I fucking hate airportd

[whatashameparis]

hit 100 followes xx influencer era

[mercyhit]

rated m for my pussy just exploded all over the place

[mercyhit]

it’s his first day of school, be nice to him 🥹

[whatashameparis]

Spot the difference :(

[marsbar6]

I know you said that there's a fic deficit, but- could you please share your favorite writers on here (no one who writes in first person sorry), because I'm kinda getting back into the fandom after 3 years, so everyone I have loved is long gone rip. Would greatly appreciate it! Asking you because I love your writing on your other blog~

Hi! I got asked this on my other account too, but the issue is that I cannot for the life of me remember the authors of some of my favorite fics, so I'm literally surfing through every account to try and find the specific ones for this post, and it's taking me a while lol.

Also, I don't want to offend anyone when I say there's a deficit of fics because I'm well aware a lot of us are still here and writing (and I'm very thankful for you all), but I'm afraid it just doesn't compare to 2023/2024, like I remember having something new to read every day, especially for Promptober and it was actually heaven.

anyway, on to my recommendations (links included) °❀⋆.ೃ࿔:･°❀⋆.ೃ࿔:･

**Some things before I get into it: unfortunately, I am strictly a Matty girlie, so these will all be Matty fics. Feel free to drop recs for george/ross/adam in the comments!! Also, these are listed in no particular order or rank!! I'm updating the list as I scroll through my following, and these are all specific fics (mostly full series or parts of a series) that haunt me every. waking. moment, so a lot of fics I love will be left out because I'm afraid if I listed them all, we'd be here forever ♡

First, I'll start with @lastnightwaskindofablur. This author is genuinely extraordinary and created an entire world and OC that are so in-depth and 3-dimensional, it's just amazing and very, very admirable.

Their main fic is At Their Very Best, and it introduces their OC, who is in, I think, all their other Matty fics because the author doesn't like writing y/n, so the OC just kind of serves as a self-insert. If you read the others below, it's probably best that you start with this fic because this one is the canon, whereas I don't think the others are.

My favorites, though, are No Doubt in My Mind Where You Belong, which is unfinished and will remain so, but I literally love it so, so, so much. This is like the prequel for At Their Very Best, and it's adorable.

Another one I love is the permanent damage you did to me, which is a cheating fic and made me cry, but I cannot emphasize enough how much I love angst more than anything. It's extremely depressing though. Be warned.

Ok, moving on to @lottiecrabie. Lottie is a god to me. I know I shouldn't deify a real person that I do not and will never know, but her writing is horrifyingly good and quite literally serves as my bible.

My favorites are anatomy and pray for my soul. I think one of the first ever fics I read was galatea, take one, though, and that was a perfect introduction to matty fanfiction. Also extremely well written.

Speaking of the first matty fanfictions I read, the very first one was ACHES by @64yrsold, and the ending of this fic genuinely haunts me to this day. So, so, so good.

Ok, next, I have to mention @noacfslut. My favs are one for the road aka mechanic!matty. The angst in part 3 breathes life into me. The second one is lover, leaver (taker, believer) aka tattoo!matty, which is mostly angst so ofc it's one of my favs. I love an emotionally unavailable man!! Honorable mention to hot to go! -- I just love a good slowburn, ugh.

Another fic I love is Politics of Polite Personal Conduct by @sycophanticsolipsism, which is also unfinished, but I remember just being enamored with this fic, waiting every week for a new update. Really cool OC's in this one too!

Alright, this is the one that I spent so long looking for, but I've literally read and reread it so many times, I love it so much: though i wish i could by @didyoulookforme but specifically those dreams you had, which is, like, the sequel BUT THE LOVE CONFESSION IN THIS ONE OML. If I don't get to be the recipient of a love confession like this after a slowburn, friends-to-lovers romance, literally what is even the point of being alive even.

I'm just gonna tag some accounts where I can't pick out a fav from their masterlist cause they're literally all so good:

@toomuchracket, @abiiors, @sugar-coat-it, @wreckedandpolemic

I've spent like half an hour on this now, and I have work to do, so I'm going to stop, but there's obvs so many more, so I'm so sorry if I forgot to mention yours because it's very likely I read your work and adored it. Also, if you have good angst fic recs PLEASE put them in the comments (I'm begging). I'm really not the biggest smut girl. It doesn't do much for me. I really just live for the pain and suffering and constant yearning and a perpetually unattainable satiation.

[whatashameparis]

Single handedly just revived the writers in the comments. Go queen

[blooomingkisses]

“she had a face straight out a magazine”

“Robbers” - The 1975

I freaking love this song

[bedforddanes75]

( ˶o˶˶o˶) (⸝⸝๑﹏๑⸝⸝)

[whatashameparis]

Just gonna say it guys. You is my all time favourite 75 song

[pleasedontbenaked]

[bedforddanes75]

[whatashameparis]

My wifis fucking shite

[whatashameparis]

THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY MY PASSPORTS EXPIRES IN LESS THAN A MONTH and im going on holiday IN TWO DAYS

[whatashameparis]

I really fucking love lorde

[whatashameparis]

Posting up fresh from the womb

[whatashameparis]

It’s just dawned upon me that in september i’ll be in university and i’ll not know anyone and i cant stop ghosting my friends

[whatashameparis]

I hate tiktok. Every time i’m on it im hit by the worst overwhelming feeling and anxiety. Its like, do this, watch this, then it makes me feel horrible cause apparently my attention span is so fried i cant even watch a video. But then i get off my phone and i’m reading chapters of a book without getting distracted. So i blame tiktok