I'm deactivating.
I know that announcing it makes me look like all I want is the attention, like my followers on their knees asking me not to leave. But I'm announcing because I need to get this out of my chest.
I won't delete my account. I've made it almost six years ago, there's a lot of things, a lot of my history, a lot of myself here. Plus, I might want to come back again someday and I know I'll miss this account if I do so.
I'm doing this because I'm really sick of how toxic this site has become. I'm sick of seeing a bunch of teenagers being bullies here "in the name of justice". I'm tired of seeing my friends not being able to enjoy something they like because they are all getting attacked, getting bullied so they can change their minds and think exactly like these children do. I'm sick of everyone pointing their fingers at the slightly piece of humanity that people can have, I'm tired of this idea of expecting people to be perfect, otherwise they are the scum of the Earth and if you support them you're even worse.
I'm sick of these social justice claiming people they don't like is ableist, racist, sexist, transphobic, homophobic and all that, while enlisting the mental illnesses they diagnosed themselves; having white guilt - as if it isn't a form of racism; writing posts of how much they hate man and them telling a trans man that they are the exception of the rule when they get offended by these posts. I'm tired of the way people in this site “fight for justice”, not only attacking people for the most ridiculous things, but also being condescending to the minorities they claim to defend by treating them as breakable things that must be protected because they would never do anything bad to the world. I'm tired of all the dehumanization that became a trend in this website.
I just... I'm tired. Tired of this cult and how much their can affect my mental health, of how they can make me feel bad for enjoying something I like and is important to me, how they do everything to make me think like them, as if I'm not allowed to think by myself and make my own mind.
I'll keep benedictdaily because that blog is like a child to me. I created it, I gave all of me to that blog and it has helped me so much in mostly of my dark moments. A bunch of lying teenagers won't make me deleted it for the world. But this is the only thing I'll keep here. I'll reblog posts related to it from blogs I follow and admire, and from tags I know are hate-free. I'll post a few things and them I'll be out. I want Tumblr to stay out of my life, for my own good. Like these people here, I can be selfish and think only about myself. The difference is that I don't want to harm others by doing so.
To all my followers and mutuals: thank you very much. You're all incredible!
I hope that these kids see one day that what they are doing is no different than what guys like Trump do in real life. They are all two sides of the same coin. Their bigotry is not helping the world and never will. They are all making it worse.
Take care,
Bru.
