I Don’t Know How To Keep Doing This

[virginiewoolf]

Katherine Mansfield, from Journal of Katherine Mansfield.

[vvamp-pyres]

there must be something rotten inside

[myheartisfrozenoverx]

I have to urge to just fucking scream at the top of my lungs because of how fucked I am mentally

[perfectfeelings]

“It is awful to want to go away and to want to go nowhere.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

[whathashappenedtome]

I have spent my life conditioned to think in extremes.

When I am sad I am desolate.

When I am happy I am overjoyed.

The joy never outweighs the despair. I don’t think it ever will

[whathashappenedtome]

Do you think the pain will ever stop?

I don’t think it ever can.

[u-me-and-insomnia]

[detached0l]

[d7gitalgrl]

[stlowens]

Ocean Vuong, from “Dear Peter.” [ID in alt text]

[notasoupcompany]

[hauntedbythenarrative]

Things haunt, Joshua Jennifer Espinoza

[visilepoem15192x]

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am an observer, but not by choice.’

[text id: my fist has always been clenched around the handle of an invisible suitcase. / i am always ready to leave. / there is not a single room in this world where i belong.]

[mournfulroses]

Andrei Tarkovsky, from a diary entry featured in Time Within Time; Selected Diaries

[flowerytale]

Edgar Allan Poe, from a letter to Mrs. Maria Clemm, July 1849

[n-ehpamoi]

"Tomorrow needs you."

But does it?

I have no connections anymore.

I contribute not.

Tomorrow needs something, and I am nothing.

And I will be more of nothing, still --

s i l e n c e.

Nothing left but words lost to a fucking blog.

V.R.