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The mad scribblings of a Scottish silversmith stuck in Wales.

[whatleighdoesnext]

Catherine O’Hara died. noooooo😫

[hellish-cruelty]

Killing Eve (2018 - 22)

[astromechapunk]

[astromechapunk]

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

[kafkaswasteddayz]

not now honey, mommy’s yearning for something that once was and will never be again

[whatleighdoesnext]

Deadline day at uni. This semester has absolutely killed me but I got everything in with 3 hours to spare. Doing this while doing chemo had been so difficult and I’ve worked so hard. But I’m really worried about not passing cause I’ve been so tired and missed two stupid life drawing classes, so if I fail it’ll be that. Which will really piss me off cause it was a waste of my fucking time.

[arcanumnyx]

getting older is all about getting weirder and sexier and more perverted and gluttonous and intelligent and blunt and eloquent and spontaneous and skilled. i love that for us.

[whatleighdoesnext]

So I started university in September doing BA Jewellery Design. And then two weeks later they dropped the bomb that I need to start chemotherapy ☹️ And it’s been rough. The chemo makes me so ill and I just vomit constantly for a week after each session. I’ve lost over 35kg in weight and as I still can’t swallow properly I can’t put anything back on. So I’m like a walking bag of bones and the chemo makes me so tired I’m struggling to keep up with it all. But I’m enjoying what I’m learning and hoping for the best.

Chemo wise. They found the metastatic cancer in April, but didn’t bother telling me about it until June. Then they did some tests which took 3 more months and a scan has shown that it has spread significantly, all while not getting any treatment. My chemo started in October and they’ve said that if it works I might have a few years, but if it doesn’t then I only have months left to live. And due to my lupus I can only have 1 type of chemo and only one shot at it. So this is my last chance.

I don’t feel like I’m about to die, but i don’t think all the delays will have helped at all. So I promise to try and be here more so I don’t just vanish without y’all knowing what’s happened.

[whatleighdoesnext]

Hey kids, I’m still here. I have so much to tell you but for some reason I find it hard to start. So then I end up with a jumble of a million things building up and it’s even harder to start than it was before.

So here we are. But at least I am still here.

[y2kcompatible]

[sunshine-tattoo]

man we gotta get regular porn back on this website

[whatleighdoesnext]

So my neck cancer has metastasised all the way to my pelvic bones. We've known there was something there for 3 months but it took them this long to do all the tests and biopsies to confirm it. So that's it for me, no more 'curable', only palliative care from here on and hoping I can do immunotherapy to keep it from spreading more. I mean nobody's talking about timelines or anything, but having my oncologist say 'palliative care' at 47yo was not part of my plan kids.

[grooveland]

[bumblebeebats]

Top 3 ways to pronounce "worms":

woims (old-timey New York gangster)

wurrums (Scottish)

weuhrms (bad French accent like the narrator from spongebob)

[binch-i-might-be]

do you ever wonder what it would feel like not to be tired

[ayeforscotland]

The National swinging for the fences.

[whatleighdoesnext]

Why is it so hard to get a tattoo appointment now I have cash to burn? Just take my money dammit.

[slfcare]

ten years ago you were so scared of such different things, but you survived them anyway. the same goes for five years ago and two years ago. everything that has ever felt like a hurdle, you’ve passed through. so be afraid, identify your fears, and then allow yourself to remember that in just a little while, this will be another thing that you have overcome.

[curtvilescomic]

[ultrameganicolaokay]

panic carefully