Today would have been your 14th Birthday. Itās been 4 months since youāve passed and there isnāt any time that goes by where I donāt think of you. For the majority of my life you were by my sideā¦ through everything: Love, Heartbreak, all of the moves, all of the struggles, the happiness, the pain, all my success, all my failures, finding ways to deal with life, helping me cope with death, all of the personal losses, marriage, separation, the depression, the anxiety, the sadness, the healing, and most importantly - being able to find strength to go on. Unfortunately ā you arenāt here with me at the time I need you the most. But I think Iāve learned enough from your love (though judgmental at times), your fierceness, and most of all your stubbornness to get through this as weāve done countless times before. Also, Falco has decided to take up some of your mannerism - so strange but kinda refreshing. Maybe it was your time. Maybe Moxy needed her protector sooner than I thought. Maybe you're gone because the universe deems it that I have to get through this point in my life by myself. I know 13 3/4 years is a long time, especially with stealing an extra few years with your broken ticker, but I guess it's very fitting that the ultimate problem was that you had a big heart... 2018 was one of the hardest years ever as I've had to say goodbye to some of the most important things in my life - and I know that there is no promise that 2019 may not be any better. But I do feel that there is now hope - whether it's you helping light the dark... I know that it's there. With that said, today I celebrate you with tears, sadness, naps, smiles, laughter, hugs, kisses. and several glasses of whisky. You have always been my soulmate, Lenny. I just hope that I live up to be the person you thought I was. I hope everyone finds their own Lenny and hold them as closely as I did him. Cheers to the new year. #thingsonmywiener #falcophotobomb (at Thingsonmywiener Funhouse) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsE392CHXWiUM4CeiNmig5QVslvi8YCEYfmwLk0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1al00hxmj83ut