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It’s so sweet

dreaming of you

then waking up in your arms

I remember the call. It was morning, maybe 10. I had just woken up after going to see Post Malone the night before. Danielle called me, she said she heard you killed yourself. She wasn’t sure how true it was. I couldn’t believe it. It didn’t want to believe it. I called you. Four times. I texted you. I begged for it not to be true. But I didn’t get a response, I’ll never get a response.

It’s been one year and 358 days. This week is hard. I’ve been preparing. Trying to get in the right mental space to be able to deal with the pain again.

He wraps his arms around me, kissing my shoulder, then my neck, then my back. We listen the rain though the open windows of my bedroom. Every now and then a cool breeze brings in the smell of summer nights, even though it’s only May. As he pulls me closer the lines between our bodies blur, I don’t know where I start and he ends. I push away the thoughts that this night will soon turn to morning and he’ll leave again. Every time he leaves he takes my heart with him. I’ll count the days until his bright smile lights me up again, until I can feel the electricity of his touch against my skin.

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You make months feel like minutes

I’ll never get sick of waking up next to you

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I was going to write about you

But I think I’ll go to sleep instead

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You pull me into you,

As if the closer I get,

The slower time will move.

We only have these nights together

Scattered between months