@phantomtwirl said: " i made a choice. this is my family. "
You know how when you know something really, really bad is coming and you think that since you know it’s coming it won’t be as bad as it would have been if you hadn’t expected it at all, but then it turns out that thing was more of a bummer than you ever could have prepared yourself for, so it wouldn’t have mattered whether you were waiting for it your whole life or it had come out of nowhere? Reggie’s existence had been peppered with quite a few of those obviously inevitable yet unexpectedly devastating disappointments. Kinda like how he knew his folks would never show up to one of his gigs, or how he knew he was supposed to be staying away from the HGC.
Every night spent there, dancing with her under the lights and splendor -- was just him pretending to push back the deadline of never being able to see her again.
He felt his cheeks light up in that embarrassing, juvenile way that they did when he felt anything too strongly. He blinked away the sting of tears, and held her hands a little tighter as they stood in the threshold of where the Hollywood Ghost Club met the lifer-ridden outside world. “I know, Stella,” he said with a voice that was damped into a whisper by the sadness that overwhelmed him, and more surprisingly: a smile. “These are your people. This is your home.” He leaned in so their foreheads were almost touching, shook his head, “This is where your horse is,” and laughed as best he could.
“You bring so much good stuff to this place. It’s beautiful and bright and happy when you’re here -- it’d probably be pretty sad and shitty if you weren’t. And I don’t have the right to ask you to leave any of that . . . And I’ve got my own family to brighten up, so . . . Just -- before, you know, I go. I want you to know that I don’t think you’re not my family. Family isn’t something that goes away just because you don’t see someone anymore.”
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