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Walking outside in october

Brain: Step on every crunchy leaf

Me: why

Brain: you gotta

One time I made a post about stepping on crunchy leaves in October and someone messaged me telling me that the "Brain: you gotta" meme was only for neurodivergent people. I was literally diagnosed autistic 6 months ago (not to mention I've been diagnosed with ADHD since I was a small child).

TAKE THAT, STRANGER FROM YEARS AGO.

#hi it's been so long since I've logged in here what's poppin

whatwouldjessusdo

DO YOU REMBER

TWENDY FORTNITE SEPBLEMBER

I've also had increasing thoughts of suicide or death in general but my ass really doesn't want to go to the hospital so I'm not talking about it to my therapist

#tw suicide

It's been a while

It seems I've only come here when I'm feeling fucking awful lmao

My sense of self is out the fucking window and I'm just not at peace. Everything I do. All the work I do. All the money I make. None of it is for me. It's for something else. It's for someone else. I don't have anything. I don't like any of my fucking clothes anymore. I don't like my car anymore. I don't like my hair. I don't like my face. I don't like my body. I don't like my cringy ass fucking personality. I don't like my life. I haven't taken a decent selfie where I actually feel good about myself in weeks-months. I can't stand to look at myself for more than a minute to check to see if I have a hair out of place or some shit. I don't want to be around anyone, and then I do. I am tired of fucking existing. When is it over?

I've been lost in my own mind

I've been lost on my own time

But now it's catching up to everybody else, now it's catching up to everyone

I feel like I am drowning

Even when I'm still smiling

And I've been reaching out for somebody to help, I've been reaching out for anyone

And I'm so alone, I've got nowhere to go

Can't they see this is not where I want to be?

I've got to go

This place is not my home

whatwouldjessusdo

If you could reblog this, that’d be really great

Last Wednesday night I was waiting for the shuttle train in NYC. I saw this girl, and she was small, and she was black and had very short hair, pixie cut, with very blonde on the top and black on the under part. She had blue lipstick and I believe a white shirt with some sort of a black print on it (stars?? I think??) that was covering her shorts, and some black shoes with zippers. Her name was Gigi.

See I’m mentioning her because in that time, I saw and heard this crusty old white man start speaking to her. He said to her at some point “I hope you don’t mind flirting with an older guy” to which she said something along the lines of “I’m not flirting I’m just talking”

At some point I interjected. I told her I loved her hair, talked about wishing I could pull it off myself, and then I stood with her a little bit. The man stayed silent, but eventually he continued to talk. And so then I saw a guy wearing light up shoes, which is awesome enough already so I interject again and point out the shoes, say something like “basically those are my goals in terms of shoes” and what not.

He continued to talk. She glanced at me briefly and I looked at her with wide eyes.

Then my train arrived. I said good night and prayed to god she’d be okay. I looked behind me and though she was mostly out of sight, I saw him walking in the direction she did.

I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you, Gigi. Did you get home okay? I’m so sorry I couldn’t do more to help you.

Please reblog this. I want to know she’s alright.

whatwouldjessusdo

It's years later and I still think about Gigi...

cindersart

illness cancelled my little sister made me honey n lemon tea and if that doesnt cure me then her sheer endearing belief that it’ll work Will

cindersart

i think when illness cancels a person its called death,

Tumblr would enjoy the exchange I had with my boyfriend before I went to bed

So I have Cystic Fibrosis. I'm a part of a couple groups about CF on Facebook. I've been seeing a trans woman with CF asking around if there are any others. I'd like to help her feel less alone and I don't know what other social media she has so I figured I'd try to post and spread the word. If you're a trans woman who has Cystic Fibrosis who isn't already a part of any of the groups on FB let me know, and hopefully we can get you ladies in touch

#lgbt #trans #trans woman #cystic fibrosis #cf

anthracoceros

some of y'all didnt grow up as the person nobody has a crush on and it really shows

anthracoceros

conventionally attractive people are not allowed to rb this

whatwouldjessusdo

Or if you had maybe 1 person have a crush on you they ended up being the one that’s probably worse off than you considering even you didn’t have a crush on them

secondclassvines

couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name

listen idk I’m thinking about how before new moon came out it was like….every single news story was debating on whether or not they should keep taylor lautner as Jacob, because he wasn’t buff enough, and the film studio and the general public essentially pressured him into doing insane diets and workout routines just so he can keep a role he already won, just because no one would even entertain the character looking slightly different than described, and it was treated as this great thing, like damn, he really pulled it off!!! he’s hot now!!! he can keep the part!!! and that’s just so fucked up like. he was fucking 15 years old??? they spray painted abs onto Robert Pattinson in the same film. Taylor Lautner was LITERALLY A FIFTEEN YEAR OLD and practically the entire world slammed him for not having an unreal body, and then once he obtained one grown ass women were drooling over him like a piece of meat for the rest of his teenage years. what the fuck.

couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name

I’m still on this! Imagine you’re still going thru puberty and the world is so obsessed with your body that you become a sex symbol for MOTHERS. first all the focus on whether or not he could get the body and then constant focus on what it looks like for the next 4 or 5 years like! That’s so fucked up he didn’t NEED an 8-pack THEY SPRAY PAINTED ABS ON ROB IN THE SAME MOVIE

couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name

he did interviews on all his crazy work out routines and said he had to carry around beef patties and other high protein foods wherever he went so he was just eating constantly THATS NOT ALRIGHT and every single magazine article or ET news segment was covering this the whole time. Fans were vocally debating whether he deserved to keep the role that HE ALREADY EARNED. This was such a big deal. What the fuck.

couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name

so the highest paid teenager was also the second sexist man of the year, huh

secretly-a-cat-pls-dont-tell

spongehole

*Racialized pedophilia

redlanternavengerelf42

I am not a Twilight fan, nor am I a fan of Taylor Lautner, but damn this is wrong to do to anyone and I will fight anyone who tries to defend doing this to a teenager.

lookingformyanchor

myvegankitchen-deactivated20200

Smoothie:

- 200 ml orange juice

- 1 kiwi

- 1 frozen banana

- a handful of spinach

🌱🌱🌱

kiwianaroha

I did my master’s thesis on emergency contraception and I used gender-neutral language throughout. Most people didn’t notice. My supervisor occasionally asked me to use the word “women” instead of the word “people” but didn’t care enough to follow up when I ignored him. None of the people who reviewed and marked my thesis made any comment on the language I chose to use.

Using gender-neutral language was easy and I suffered no consequences for doing so as an academic, even when writing a detailed thesis on human reproductive biology.

disposablebicycle

Freelancing in technical theater means you’re on a lot of different email lists. People need a crew, they send out an email, you respond with your availability. Now, most people start these with things like “hey folks” or “hi everyone”. Neal is not most people.

His openers started off innocent enough.