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JAYMES WHITLOCK

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“I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.”

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“I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.”

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Hey guys, long time no see! I’m gonna archive this blog and start new, i’ll post a link when ya girl is done!

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“HEY, stop calling me WHIPPEDLOCK. There is no way I’m whipped, and besides..I don’t do relationships.”

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' tragic. you ever tried bear repellent? ' #LOL

“No, I just carry my brother around, his face seems to do the trick.”

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u do manual labor, kid? #GETREKT

“I stopped after I got attacked by a bear when chopping wood.”

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“whose blood is that?”

HURT MEME || ACCEPTING

His body shook, glassy eyes filled with endless pain and heartbreak staring at Emmett. Blood was smeared all over his clothes and hands. He couldn’t speak, he felt his chest tightening and all he could do was drop to his knees and sob into blood covered hands.Images of the dead corpse flashed repeatedly through his mind, causing him to cry out. 

He begged for it to stop, begged to forget about her but it just got worse. The fresh, crimson liquid that painted his hands red were too much of a reminder of what had happened, of how he failed. 

Jaymes looks up at Emmett, tears pouring down his cheeks. “I couldn’t save her, Emmett. I tried, I tried to save her but there was too much blood. They hit one of the main arteries in her chest and she bled out. She barely had a pulse when I got there...I tried.” He stops, taking a shaky breath as he turns to look out of the window. “But I failed..and she died, I should’ve done more to save her.”

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mothernamed:

“Are we going to bond over being the odd ones out? Having dark secrets unlike the rest of our families who pretend they are angels and innocent. I try really hard to fit in, but I know because of my father it is hard to be welcomed, I do not add fuel to the fire.”

“We could if you really wanted to.” He paused, a hint of a smirk gracing his lips as he gets comfortable in the seat opposite the dark haired woman. “Family are the hardest to please. Especially when you’re human. I’m glad those days are over for me.”

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brctatochcp:

mouth agape and he stood there gawking. did jaymes really just do that?his lips pressed together in a firm line, hand coming to the back of his head before scratching it. his brows furrowed — the only one who would probably know about this would be edward…but did he really trust his little brother to keep a secret? 

‘ you know people who don’t appreciate my puns will be the death of me. just bury me and put on my tombstone next to yours: was gravely mistaken for being a responsible sibling– ’

emmett quickly turned, following his brother and eyeing the car keys. his brows raised in curiosity. why do something so mundane when they were vampires? the speed was their asset. he playfully shoved against the youngest with a smirk, 

‘ yeah? i’m the favorite. who do you think she’ll believe more? ’ 

He looks between Emmett and the blanket, eyebrows slightly raised. “If you can think of something better, go ahead. I won’t stop you.” Arms are folded defensively across his chest, in a way daring his brother to say something about his weak attempt of covering the damage Jaymes made up. 

“Any more puns and I’ll be the death of you.” The blond was joking of course, the smirk growing on his face was the evidence. Upon Emmett’s remark, he scoffed, walking down the steps slowly as he shook his head. “You’re definitely not the favourite, Edward is. Don’t even try deny it, Em.”

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blcdcriimson:

                       there’s a keening ache in her chest . tears streak down fine cheekbones , petite silhouette trembling against frigid gusts off pacific seas . he loves her . she knows . of course she knows . but it doesn’t make it any easier . doesn’t ease the fact that she’s terrified beyond all comprehension , that she’s lost . that she’s never felt more alone in her life despite the fact that every word he speaks suggests otherwise . 

                        ❝  it isn’t your choice to make . ❞ voice breaks . she can’t bring herself to look at him ; can’t bear to see him in pain , because of her . ❝  but you can’t know that , jaymes ! you can’t —— you can’t know that it’s going to be okay . i’m not my sister . i don’t have some … insane self control , or innate maternal instincts , i don’t …  ❞ choked sob all but flies from swan girl’s throat , panic welling in between ribs , squeezing the very air from her lungs .  ❝  i love you . i love you so much . and i know it could be so perfect , me and you and this … baby and a place of our own . but what if it isn’t ? what if we make it three months down the line , and i hurt someone ? or this kid hates me , or you get tired of me , or …  ❞

His own tears threaten to fall, and one eventually does, then another. They come slowly, then all at once and Jaymes doesn’t know what to do. He’s not used to crying, especially not in front of someone. He ignores his feelings, fighting against them so he can wrap his arms around Emmeline. 

“Do you want to know what I know?” His voice is barely above a whisper, but at this point he had stopped crying, instead focusing on Emmie and making sure the two of them were okay. “I know that it is going to be okay, because you are like Bella in some ways, and one of them is that you’re strong. Self control is learnt, even I struggle Emmie, you’ve seen that first hand.” Cold hands move to cup the brunette’s face, staring deeply into her eyes before pressing his lips to hers to stop her rambling. “--None of that will happen, the baby..our baby, our child will love you and I will never get tired of you, Emmie, you are more than I deserve and more that I could ever want.”

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mothernamed:

“Yes, Nahuel was excited to see the Cullens, Alice and Jasper he considers good friends.” Her lips turned up into a smile at the thought, memories of Nahuel speaking about the family came back. She wished she had friends like he did, Nahuel was spreading out, Joham would never let her or her sisters do that. “They seem friendly, I can see why they would be parent figures to you all.”  The brunette turned a corner, entering the ‘kitchen’ area. “I would return to my father, there is nothing else or– nowhere else for me to go.”

Lips falter just a little at the mention of his brother who he had managed to get into an argument with before the long trip. “It comes naturally to them both, I love them as if they are my real parents, and in a way they are.” Jaymes pauses, hand resting on top of the counter. “I’m sure my family wouldn’t mind you coming back with us, have you ever been to Forks?”

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   ❛ is there a bloody reason you’re lookin’ at me like that  ? ❜

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“There is, I haven’t seen you around before and it’s not often we get visitors. So I’m asking you nicely, what do you want?”

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001. When they first met, Jaymes wasn’t really bothered on her presence, too blinded by his own self hatred to even care about another human at that point. But it didn’t last long because the more Bella brought her over, the more Emmeline shook him out of the rut he found himself in.

002. Jaymes decided to ask her out before he went to go fight against the new born army with his family and the pack, saying that if he came back alive he’d be honored if she went on a date with him.

003. If at night Emmeline can’t sleep, Jay would often tell her stories about the war, and how he got each of his scars ( even though she can’t see them ) and how once Jasper got thrown off his horse when trying to impress a woman twice their age.

004. Jaymes tries his goddamn hardest to get along with Jacob for Emmeline’s sake. Not only because he is her friend, but he knows what it’s like to watch someone you love with someone else. *cough* Maria and Jasper !!! *cough*

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“I am not fragile, I am not weak. I am brave, I am strong. Don’t mistake my kindness for weakness.”

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hurt meme.

“ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”

“i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”

“my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”

“i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”

“don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!”

“i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”

“please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”

“you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”

“you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”

“i can’t give up on you, so please don’t give up on yourself.”

“i love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.”

“i fucked up, why do you not care?”

“i can’t walk, just go on without me.”

“you have broken ribs, take it easy.”

“i have no idea how to do cpr.”

“whose blood is that?”

“apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”

“don’t you dare fucking let go!” 

“what the hell happened to you?” 

“are they dead? did you kill them?” 

“do you know what you’ve done?” 

“you’re either with me or against me.” 

“who the hell did this to you?” 

“are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…” 

“i can’t see!! what’s happening to me?” 

“when was the last time you ate?” 

“what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!” 

 “i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.” 

“for how long? how long were you bottling this up?“ 

“there’s so much blood, you won’t last.” 

“are you… throwing up in there?” 

“why aren’t you eating?” 

“just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” 

“i can’t breathe, i can’t –” 

“i woke up, & you were gone.” 

“just tell me something, was it really worth it?” 

“it’s okay to hurt & breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”

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“I am not fragile, I am not weak. I am brave, I am strong. Don’t mistake my kindness for weakness.”

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gyarurun:

jughell:

remember twilight and how edward and bella couldn’t do it bc edward was afraid he’d fuck her to death?

i remember bella willing to die for the dick