Holy shit my first real art post in literal years and it's a motherfuckin' crossover piece! FUCK YEAH!
Does this mean my burnout is finally gone? ...........eh, kinda.
OKAY! So A lot has been going on over the last....... SEVERAL years???
I won't go into it too much here, cuz I wanna actually talk about what I'm posting here.
So, Helluva Boss is a show I've been a fan of since episode 1.
A friend of mine and I have enjoyed nerding out about it every time a new episode drops, and Stolas is one of our favorite characters from the show.
Also, I've recently picked up a hyperfixation on the Game Grumps, and especially Dan Avidan, AKA Danny Sexbang.
I particularly really enjoy his music, from his comedy work in Ninja Sex Party and Starbomb to his more serious stuff in Skyhill and Shadow Academy to his collab cover almbums with the Super Guitar Brothers.
ANYWAY, so one day my friendo and I were flinging our obsessive nerdings at each other, and they were like "Imagine Danny Sexbang, but wearing Stolas' outfit."
And I was like, "Hmmm yes, but also consider.... Stolas... in Danny Sexbang's outfit?"
And then inspiration struck, and I had to make it real. SO I DID!
Here he is in all his glory! Stolas Sexbang!
The burnout I've been suffering for the last few years has been AWFUL, and it's so nice to finally be able to sit and do art without the consistent "UUUUGH" feeling that came with the burnout.
Does this mean I'll be posting more? No promises.
This just was a nice little burst of inspiration that I am glad to have been able to follow through on.
Guys, let me tell you it feels SO GOOD to finally have been able to do something like this again. I've been doing like random sketches here and there over the last few years, but nothing post worthy.
This was the first actual project I've been able to get myself to do, and it felt so good.
For a long time, I was feeling like I was never going to recover from this burnout, and I was about ready to give up hoping for it.
But this... Gave me so much relief. You have no idea.
All this to say I can't say I've fully recovered from my burnout, but I can at least say that I've finally started to.
Holy shit my first real art post in literal years and it's a motherfuckin' crossover piece! FUCK YEAH!
Does this mean my burnout is finally gone? ...........eh, kinda.
OKAY! So A lot has been going on over the last....... SEVERAL years???
I won't go into it too much here, cuz I wanna actually talk about what I'm posting here.
So, Helluva Boss is a show I've been a fan of since episode 1.
A friend of mine and I have enjoyed nerding out about it every time a new episode drops, and Stolas is one of our favorite characters from the show.
Also, I've recently picked up a hyperfixation on the Game Grumps, and especially Dan Avidan, AKA Danny Sexbang.
I particularly really enjoy his music, from his comedy work in Ninja Sex Party and Starbomb to his more serious stuff in Skyhill and Shadow Academy to his collab cover almbums with the Super Guitar Brothers.
ANYWAY, so one day my friendo and I were flinging our obsessive nerdings at each other, and they were like "Imagine Danny Sexbang, but wearing Stolas' outfit."
And I was like, "Hmmm yes, but also consider.... Stolas... in Danny Sexbang's outfit?"
And then inspiration struck, and I had to make it real. SO I DID!
Here he is in all his glory! Stolas Sexbang!
The burnout I've been suffering for the last few years has been AWFUL, and it's so nice to finally be able to sit and do art without the consistent "UUUUGH" feeling that came with the burnout.
Does this mean I'll be posting more? No promises.
This just was a nice little burst of inspiration that I am glad to have been able to follow through on.
Guys, let me tell you it feels SO GOOD to finally have been able to do something like this again. I've been doing like random sketches here and there over the last few years, but nothing post worthy.
This was the first actual project I've been able to get myself to do, and it felt so good.
For a long time, I was feeling like I was never going to recover from this burnout, and I was about ready to give up hoping for it.
But this... Gave me so much relief. You have no idea.
All this to say I can't say I've fully recovered from my burnout, but I can at least say that I've finally started to.
Hey um I love your comic papyrus plays a game but I was wondering when are you going to finish that comic
I’m very glad that you enjoyed my comic. Thank you very much!
Sadly, I don’t think that one’s ever going to be finished. The burnout I suffered right before stopping (as well as a number of other life stress factors happening all at the same time) was absolutely BRUTAL and I still haven’t completely recovered from it. (largely due to said additional stress factors) As a result, I haven’t really posted ANY art for the last couple years. It hit me that hard.
I’ve been slowly getting back into creative work recently, but full on art projects like that are still mostly off the table for me.
I don’t see myself picking this one back up, as I don’t even remember very clearly what I was going to do with it. Or even how I did it. I feel like if I did pick it back up now, the rest of the comic just wouldn’t be as good. It certainly wouldn’t feel the same.
I wish I had a better answer for you, but that’s just how it is.
Been one hell of a year, huh? ......huh? ......yeah? :D
Yeah, it’s been rough on all of us, that goes without saying, so let’s just nod in agreement and move on.
I’ve been ruminating a lot over the last couple of years amidst all the life changes and stressful happenings while simultaneously attempting to recover from a savage case of art burnout. I think I’m finally finally FINALLY on my way out of that, but I haven’t quite made it out yet.
IN THE MEANTIME, I’ve begun a new activity which I’m hoping will become a regular thing I do once a week: (or more if I feel extra ambitious)
I’m streaming on Twitch now! Yay!
It’s not art streams just yet. As I just said, I haven’t QUITE yet gotten out of my burnout.... even though it’s been two years.... BUT I’M WORKING ON IT! Slowly, but surely. I really want to get back to doing art again, and I feel like I’m getting close to being able to do that, but NOT QUITE YET.
Nah for now all I’m doing is game streams. Currently I’m doing a series of randomizer Nuzlockes, starting from gen 1 and working my way up to gen 7. I’ve done 1 episode already so far, and boy howdy it’s already pretty gritty. (mostly cuz I’ve forgotten how brutal gen 1 can be even WITHOUT putting a self-imposed challenge onto it) lol i’ve gotten used to the piss-easy later gens
I don’t know if I’ll pick up much of an audience cuz the only time I can stream is on weekday mornings when everyone else is either at work/school or asleep. :T
BUT WHATEVER, I’M DOING IT ANYWAY! Mostly cuz I just think it’ll be fun. :3
Right I’m trying out streaming on Wednesdays, cuz that’s my least busy day. Going from about 9:30am ‘Murican East Coast Time to whenever I feel like stopping, probably around 1:30pm.
Whatever, we’ll see how this works out.
I’ll be continuing this Nuzlocke Adventure tomorrow at about that time.
Okay, wow, so it’s been a while since my last life update (August to be exact) and I’m not much closer to getting myself back on track. It’s slowly happening, but I’m still a long way from where I want to be.
I think mostly I’ve been hesitant to post anything else about my life because it’s mostly not good stuff, and who wants to read me complaining about my life all the time?
Still, I feel I should at least post something so whoever’s watching can know I’m still around and still... active I guess? I’m not sure that’s the right word for it, seeing as I haven’t posted any art in... what... two years?
Anyway this post is probably going to be a lot less coherent than the previous update posts, seeing as I’m really having a hard time keeping my head together long enough to string a proper sentence together. It’s really more of a string of statements about the current situation in my life. It gets kinda mopey at the end, cuz I’m kinda not in a good place, so fair warning.
- I’m still working on stuff for @underfellfangame although it’s REALLY slow going. It’s a struggle to even get myself to sit and draw for just an hour. It’s just... really hard. I am making progress though, even if it’s only a few scratches at a time. @maniaknight has actually been super kind about it, letting me take the time I’ve been needing after my awful burnout. I definitely don’t want to just force something out just to get it done, cuz then the work won’t be any good. But at the same time I do actually want to finish the work. So I’m taking my time, getting through it little by little so that I can deliver the quality work we both know I can accomplish.
I don’t know if any of you have any idea how hard it is to WANT to make art but then the moment you think about actually doing it, it just feels like a chore. I hate that so much. It’s the worst feeling I’ve ever experienced as far as my craft.
And my current real life situation REALLY isn’t helping in my ability to recover from it and get back to normal.
- A few months ago one of my cats was diagnosed with diabetes, so that’s put a major damper on our financial situation. Plus the adjustment period of said cat getting used to the new food and the bi-daily injections and the checkups and a slew of other things we’re having to adjust to for him is... really stressful. I don’t like seeing him suffering so much. =(
- On top of all this, my current financial situation has been..... not great. It is slowly improving (I think) but it’s still far from ideal. We’re having to sometimes put our groceries on credit card so we can get the bills paid on time, but we are managing to get them paid. Hopefully this year’s tax refund can help us catch up with the credit card so it doesn’t completely run away from us.
I suppose right now I’m just sort of trudging along to get through all this. Hopefully at least one of these things will get better soon.
A lot of stuff has happened in my life over the last year, and I think it’s finally calmed down enough I can actually write about it.
So anyone wondering what’s been going on with me lately, sit back, relax, and Keep Reading.
I warn you tho. It’s a long read, and probably mostly pretty boring, so if you just want the basic gist, you can scroll to the bottom of the post.
This life update comes to you in three parts:
1) Where I am now
2) A new car!
3) What is still to come
This is gonna be super long, so if you want the TL;DR version, scroll all the way down to the bottom.
So first things first, PART 1:
So, my husband got himself out of his super-abusive work environment and after a stressful six months of job searching (in which we were pinching every penny we had in the bank) he finally got himself into a nice work place that actually treats him like a person! Yay! (I realize most of this part was covered in the life update post I wrote back in October, but eh)
He had to take a SUPER hefty paycut hiring in here, but I fully believe it’s worth it. The pay he was getting at his old job allowed us to live pretty comfortably, but it was at the cost of his emotional well-being. I’m not gonna go into details on what they did, cuz that would take a WHOLE other post, and this one is long enough as it is.
SO!! While the husband hopped into our car and set off to start his new job in the far off land of corn, wheat, and soybeans, it was up to me to get the house packed up and sold, get the husband’s truck sold and gotten rid of (as he didn’t seem to think it could make it to Indiana in the shape it was in), and basically everything having to do with moving out of our house in Florida. This took place from early October to almost Christmas.
By the time I was done with all that, I was mentally and emotionally frazzled. I could barely perform basic social functions because I was so tapped out on all the phone calls I had to make. I hate hate HATE making phone calls. I can muster up the mental energy to make an important phone call if I really really need to, but doing so many over the course of a month left me absolutely drained.
It was a very stressful three months, and a might lonely without the husband, BUT I got it done! All of it! Only thing that technically isn’t done is that the house still isn’t sold, but that’s more on the realtor than on me at this point. My part’s done until she finds a buyer for it.
And so the week of Christmas, I pile into a rental van with the mom and sister (who came up with me so we could all be together for Christmas, plus they could take the rental back where we got it) and we drove up to Indiana.
I reunite with the husband, and we settle into the place we’re currently staying, which happens to be technically my in-laws’ lake house meant for family vacations. They were generous enough to allow us to use it until we get our own place, and I could not be more grateful for it!
So that’s where I am now.
PART 2:
So... it’s January. Winter here.
Unlike Florida, which doesn’t believe in seasons colder than maybe Spring, it... snows here in the winter.
The lake house we’re staying at is in a very hilly area. Lots of slopes and curvy roads because lakes.
So a couple weeks ago, we got in the car and left the house to head to go visit family.
And then we turned a corner and there was an S-curve... going downhill... covered in ice. Long story short gravity slid us into a pole.
Needless to say our trip was cancelled :V
All things considered, we were super fortunate that the pole stopped us, cuz if we had slid further beyond that, we would’ve likely ended up falling into a ravine... so... Yeah I prefer the pole over that!
We were slow enough we made it out mostly unharmed. The worst we got was a pair of bruised knees and a scuffed wrist.
But the car was a total loss. So we had to drive on a rental for a couple weeks until we could get a new car, which our insurance covered pretty well.
They didn’t cover the rental, but that was more on me than them cuz I didn’t opt for that coverage cuz i didn’t think I’d ever need it.......... ._.
SO ANYWAY a couple days ago we went and got a new car and returned the rental and now everything is nice again! Yay! Except now we also have car payments! :D
But they’re not too bad tho, since the insurance money covered such a big chunk of it.
PART 3:
So right now, we’re just waiting for our house in Florida to sell. Once that finally happens we can start taking steps towards getting a new place.
Right now we can’t do anything because first of all, we still have to pay mortgage, and until it is sold we will continue to have to pay mortgage. Second of all, we’ve got a mountain of credit card debt racked up because MOVING OUT OF STATE IS NOT A CHEAP PROCESS HOLY FUCK!!
With the storage and the rentals and the packing supplies and the uuuuugghh @_@
....yeah stuff is stress right now.
But hey! Now that I’m done with all the moving nonsense (for now), I can finally get back to making art!
@underfellfangame has been super patient and understanding during this whole process. I know he’s super stoked about me getting back to work, and I know I could use every dollar I can earn at this point. xD
Plus I actually miss making art! I really needed the break, but I’m actually pretty hyped to do something that doesn’t involve phone calls and paperwork.
So you can expect more Underfellfangame-related art from me..... fairly soon? I can’t make promises how soon cuz it’s still slow going, and real life shenanigans can come out of nowhere (as was evident by the whole business with the car)
So stay tuned for that!
Maybe once my house sells and I’m finally able to get my credit cards back under control, then I might be able to think about doing art for myself again. Maybe I’ll even think about finally trying my hand at actual commissions, who knows?
For now, I’m just gonna do what I can to earn what little extra money I can get in the meantime whilst the husband earns his paychecks.
BONUS PART 3b:
I don’t know how long it’ll take to sell the house, and I don’t know if we’ll be able to keep up with the house payments with the husband’s paychecks and what little money I can get with my art.
So as much as it pains me to do this.... I’m asking the internet for help.
If anyone has a few bucks to spare, I could always use some coffee.
Aside from this I’m open to ideas.
And here I will copy and paste what I wrote in my post back in October because it’s still 100% true.
I’m afraid I don’t have anything to offer in return at the moment, which is why I haven’t asked for monetary help previously, and even then I’m putting my plee at the bottom of a long post hidden under a cut.
After I’m finally moved and settled down and my life once again becomes stable, I might be able to do something in thanks, but until then I make no promises.
So please please PLEASE don’t feel like you have to. It is just coffee, after all.
This is only if you really want to help and just happen to have extra dosh.
Also I just really like coffee.
[[Click Here to Buy Me Coffee]]
If you made it this far, holy cow thank you so much for taking the time to read all this!
Just doing that by itself is amazing, and I can’t thank you enough for caring enough to read all this. I know it’s a lot @_@
Thank you. Seriously, thank you.
Now, I’m going to go try and do what I can to make sure my life stays in order.
Hopefully I’ll succeed! We’ll see.
TL;DR VERSION
Even if you only read this bit, thank you very much for your time! It really means a lot to me. =)
Part 1: My husband got a new job and we’ve moved from Florida to Indiana, which super stressed me out, but we’re okay so yay!
Part 2: We lost our car in a crash, but then got a new one! Yay!
Part 3: We’re currently in house limbo waiting for our old house to sell, and our money is super tight, but now I have time to make art again! Yay!
Even if it is just Underfellfangame stuff for now.
Bonus Part 3b: We could use some help. If you like what I do and would like to help us more easily get through this trying ordeal, you can buy us some coffee here.
A quick thing I whipped together in like twenty minutes.
I took a background from my Nuzlocke comic and my already-made floofbat pic and mooshed them together with a healthy pile of photoshop filters.
I’m pretty happy with it.
I’ve been wanting a new desktop image with my Floofbat-sona, but I really don’t have the time to draw anything of value right now.
The reasons for which can be read below the break, but the short version is real life circumstances prevent me from devoting any significant amount of time to art for at least the next couple of months.
So I am currently in the process of packing up my house! Yay!
The short version is basically my husband and I have been living without income for the last five months because apparently nobody in Florida is hiring and willing to pay enough to survive on.
So the husband went to Indiana to find a job whilst I stay behind to get everything packed up for the move.
We’re still doing alright for the moment. We’d had enough saved up that we were able to just live on our savings while we look for new work.
He only just got there last week, and already he’s gotten responses from his applications, which is already bounds and leaps beyond the sheer silence we’ve gotten for the last five months. We’re hopeful that he’ll find work quickly.
Meanwhile, I’m busy at work with boxes and tape and markers and packing paper, and as a result I can’t get any art done. At all.
So, my art hiatus is extended even further than I planned, because real life.
If anyone wants to help, I could always use some coffee.
I’m afraid I don’t have anything to offer in return at the moment, which is why I haven’t asked for monetary help previously, and even then I’m putting my plee at the bottom of a long post hidden under a cut.
After I’m finally moved and settled down and my life once again becomes stable, I might be able to do something in thanks, but until then I make no promises.
So please please PLEASE don’t feel like you have to. It is just coffee, after all.
This is only if you really want to help and just happen to have extra dosh.
Also I just really like coffee.
I’ve been seeing this making the rounds again (which always makes me happy ^_^), and I’ve noticed that some of y’all have tagged this as “headcanon”.
Allow me to show you a thing:
After befriending Undyne and unlocking the ability to talk to her and Papyrus on your phone, she has this to say while you are standing in the Inn in Snowdin.
Call a second time and she simply says…
And she hangs up. So… basically the only part of the comic that’s actually headcanon is Sans humming his own theme song. xD
Which, as I’ve also noticed some of you wondering about it, is in fact “sans.” and not Megalovania.
Doodled together a reference sheet of my floofy little bat monster sona. Specifically to demonstrate how the wings work.
Floofbats are magic, you see. The wings are particularly magical. When in active use, the wings follow the normal bat finger structure. When not in use, they just sort of hang loose at the wrists.
Conveniently, they’re only as corporeal as they need to be. Meaning if the floofbat wishes to wear clothes, the wings will simply “clip through” them, continuing to function just as they would when naked.
Important update on the state of the Floof after the break:
You may or may not have noticed that I haven’t been posting very much (or anything at all) for the last several months.
The reason is I’ve been taking a break from art after suffering a pretty bad case of burnout.
I’m still not completely recovered, as stressful real life circumstances have completely prevented me from getting any relaxation all summer. HOWEVER, I feel I’m recovered enough to slowly start trickling some art here and there.
I’m still doing art for @maniaknight‘s @underfellfangame, so those of you who follow me for that content can still expect that from me. It’s just not gonna be as quick or constant as it was. Especially with things in my life in the state it’s in right now.
The aforementioned real life circumstances going on right now have me really stressed out at the moment, and I might make a post about it later, but for now just know I got some stuff going on and it’s occupying a good majority of my brain energy. So content from me is going to be slow going until that’s resolved.
Which hopefully will be soon! ...hopefully.
That said, I would like to extend a huge thanks to those of you who still follow me despite my flightiness and terrible communication skills.
Hopefully I’ll still be able to churn out content that you’ll enjoy.
So I drew myself up a sona for the webcomic Gloomverse.
Excellent comic. Made by the awesome @loverofpiggies
Highly recommend. Everybody go read.
I still don’t have any of my magic figured out just yet, but I figure it’s manipulation magic of some kind.
What I have of my bio so far:
Just like most Gloomversians, at the age of 13 I was brought to a hat shop, where I found this beautiful black hat with large floofy plush bat ears. I reached in and out came my wand. (I really want this hat in real life. I’m so happy with it,)
Some years later I had my friend, Topside, make a matching floofy tail for me. (I want one of those too)
I now work for Topside helping him with his magical puppet shows. (I might draw him eventually, idk)
Working for him requires a piece of clothing bearing his signature rainbow pattern, so I crocheted myself this scarf. (which I actually own in real life)
I drink a lot of coffee. I particularly enjoy Ecoversian coffee. That shit’s amazing. I could drink it all day.
The cape I’m able to move and spread out to look like bat wings. It doesn’t function as such, but it looks really cool.
