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cloud strife nowhere girl 🏳️‍⚧️ .*☆ ##she/them

[whitehorsemannequin]

im done with this transphobic transmisogynist slop website goodbye my zero followers

[whitehorsemannequin]

im non binary again

[whitehorsemannequin]

not non binary anymore

[tianhai03]

felt like doing another quick painting :]

[whitehorsemannequin]

non binary af today

[whitehorsemannequin]

'non-binary' isn't what i am.

i hated that being nonbinary was doing nothing for me except for relegating myself to yet another label. i always wanted to be just a completely blank slate physically. sexless, faceless, nameless, like a puppet. but it'll never be possible.

and even if it was possible to shape my flesh into anything that vaguely resembles that, the amount of surgery i'd need, the amount of money, the amount i'd suffer, the amount i'd lose, the amount of alienation i'd recieve from not only humanity but my own people. i'll never be myself.

i struggle night and day just to pass as a woman. and not at all in the cis sense. even in the way i perceive womanhood and femininity, i can't accomplish even that.

i'm incomplete.

[whitehorsemannequin]

cis cum is so foreign to me now i'm too used to having that clear clear that when i see that unmodded lumpy offwhite stuff come out of someone im like WHAT IS THAAAAT

[cherry-x-blossom]

Can you tell what my favorite Leon Kennedy scene is 🥀

[whitehorsemannequin]

my life is too serious so i'm relearning how to dance MJ's routines

[whitehorsemannequin]

even trying to be open about my disdain for the state of my own life and my desire to end it pushes people i love away forever. but i can't force myself to love it and stay quiet because i need a shoulder to lean on, nor can i force anyone to like me either. i may not find the people i'm looking for and im cooked

[whitehorsemannequin]

oh to be your favorite person's favorite person

[lorenzonuti]

Requiem.

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[sveltechild]

Your psyche needs reevaluation if you become turned off by a person you have no connection to behaving far from your idea of them. Its even worse when your ideations seep into your personal relationships; you dont really have the right to then question why you fail yourself and everyone around you..