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Deep down i’m hoping my friends and family outlive me and as long as thats not in my hands then i will find a way to stop my paranoia & headache

Im neutral abt familiarity. My fears of discomfort for the new and old linger in bits & pieces but almost always i believe My desires & what comforts me truly dont & dont matter because ive punished myself long enough with something much more belittling than humility. if & only if i can just survive Enough then i accept this sentiment.

beaumont texas feel like limbo but there was this really nice & funny lady taking my order at le cafe

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think of all the time i’ll have with you

when we wont wake up on our own

this persona has grown into my personal burden despite the luxuries that currently and have yet to come with it. i love what i do but i do regret sharing very intimate projects at such an early & turbulent time in my life. the reason why i refuse to play many favored songs live is because i couldnt physically bring myself to perform them and i knew deep down even when working on it that i never would. for a very long time i feel disgusting even having to express myself through any medium out of the fear of being misrepresented by my peers & by platforms that many depend on, and the fear of dealing with the reprecussions of being too vulnerable but as i approach my 20s im hoping to find the courage to live. my life will never be the same again but im forever grateful.

Your psyche needs reevaluation if you become turned off by a person you have no connection to behaving far from your idea of them. Its even worse when your ideations seep into your personal relationships; you dont really have the right to then question why you fail yourself and everyone around you..

apprehensive, withdrawn insecurity or arrogant insecurity bleed differently but share similar demise

Im black & frontrunning n They scared asf