𝙵𝙴𝙰𝚁𝙻𝙴𝚂𝚂 𝙻𝙴𝙰𝙳𝙴𝚁 .

𝙴𝚅𝙴𝙽    𝙰    𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙼    𝚆𝙸𝙻𝙻    𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙽.

[wholeadsa]

where  the  fuck  is  west?

@renovetur​     /     herbert    west     /     medium    to    high    activity.

@wholeads​     /     dwight    fairfield     /     medium    activity.

@seenbeyond​     /     crawford    tillinghast     /     low    activity.

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

I have passed through a hell of unending sadness.

Nikos Kazantzakis, from a letter to Galatea Kazantzaki wr. c. April 1923 (via violentwavesofemotion)

[doktorwest]

if    you    cut    me    open,    blood    saturated    pictures    of    teen    heartthrobs    will    not    fall    out.    if    through    lobotomy    you    spread    apart    the    folds    of    my    brain,    self    deprecating    apologies    will    not    swarm    over    your    hands    like    spiders.    ask    me    to    bare    my    teeth    for    inspection    &&    i    will    do    so    compliantly.    if    there    is    blood    between    them    i    can    assure    that    whoever    it    came    from,    it’s    mine    now.    i’ll    square    my    shoulders    in    the    threshold    of    the    operating    room    &&    tell    the    doctors    to    get    ready    for    what    they    see.    i’ll    flip    my    hair    like    a    pageant    girl    &&    lie    down    on    the    operating    table    like    the    glaring    lights    are    only    those    of    a    tanning    bed.    if    you    rip    into    me,    like    a    pinata    or    strung    deer    carcass,    you’ll    see    the    viscera    &&    the    candy    alike    are    all    my    own.    𝙷𝙾𝙿𝙴    𝚈𝙾𝚄    𝙲𝙰𝙽    𝙳𝙴𝙰𝙻.     /     herbert    west    of    h.p.    lovecraft’s    ‘herbert    west——reanimator’,    reanimated    by    west.

[wholeadsa]

me,    in    call    &&    talking    about    dwight    when    he    gets    sacrificed:    dwight’s    a    hard    pill    to    swallow    :/

[seenbeyond-blog]

then,    from    the    farthermost    regions    of    remoteness,    the    sound    softly    glided    into    existence.    it    was    infinitely    faint,    subtly    vibrant,    &&    unmistakably    musical,    but    held    a    quality    of    surpassing    wildness    which    made    its    impact    feel    ——    𝙻𝙸𝙺𝙴    𝙰    𝙳𝙴𝙻𝙸𝙲𝙰𝚃𝙴    𝚃𝙾𝚁𝚃𝚄𝚁𝙴    𝙾𝙵    𝙼𝚈    𝚆𝙷𝙾𝙻𝙴    𝙱𝙾𝙳𝚈.     /     crawford    tillinghast    of    h.p.    lovecraft’s    ‘from    beyond’,    seen    by    west.

[herosuggestion]

One of the most heroic things you can do is refuse to be cruel in a world that makes it so difficult to be kind.

[bestial-eyes]

PSA about ADHD

✦ADHD is not a personality quirk

- some things that tag along with ADHD are:

        ~sensory processing disorder

        ~executive dysfunction

        ~poor fine motor skills

        ~sensory overloads (that lead to meltdowns)

        ~sensory seeking (self stimming)

        ~hyperfixations

        ~moderate to severe memory problems

        ~Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria- is an extreme emotional sensitivity and emotional pain triggered by the perception that one is being rejected, teased, or criticized. The emotional response is complete with suicidal ideation and people suffering from RSD often get misdiagnosed with serious personality disorders. RSD is only seen in people with ADHD and the emotional sensitivity/reaction is much more severe than that of a neurotypical person.

✦Some other “fun” ADHD things! 

          ~inability to regulate emotions

          ~no concept of time

          ~noticeable public stimming (resulting in stares from neurotypicals) 

          ~no impulse control

          ~insomnia

          ~listen but cannot absorb what is being said 

          ~no volume control 

          ~increased inability to focus when emotional

          ~difficulty stopping a task and transitioning to the next 

          ~social anxiety

          ~higher levels on generalized anxiety

          ~extremely forgetful 

          ~”all or nothing” mentality  

@ neurotypicals- some things to be aware of: 

- you cannot hyperfixate. only people who are neurodivergent can hyperfixate. please don’t use that word when describing your latest obsession :-)

- please don’t stare at neurodivergent people who are stimming in public

- be respectful of those who actually need fidget toys so they can subtly stim in public 

- if we forget something you tell us it is not because we don’t care, we just have a million other thoughts racing through our mind and no way to filter through them. 

- please be gentle with us. no don’t tip toe around us and treat us like we aren’t human, but be aware that even offhand comments can trigger RSD. no we aren’t being too sensitive, our brains are wired differently than yours. 

[weltenwellen]

Anais Nin, Mirages: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anais Nin, 1939-1947

[wishbzne-deactivated20210526]

journey to the interior, margaret atwood

[biscuit-shooter]

[shedetecta-deactivated20200117]

—  stop punishing yourself for being someone with a heart. you cannot protect yourself from suffering. to live is to grieve. you are not protecting yourself by shutting yourself off from the world. you are limiting yourself.

                               ｓｏｌｖｅｄ      ｂｙ      ｌｙｎｓ      ａｎｄ      ｋａｙｌａ

[seekscryptids-deactivated202004]

❝ It was not the first time he had a nightmare such as that, not the first time he sees his writhing, dying body in places that he had deemed safe and the malignant visage of his shadow person looming in the corner of his room, reaching out to caress his cheek in a mockery of gentleness that has shrieks clamoring in the restraint of his throat and clenched teeth. ❞

indie , fandomless fbi + cryptid hunter oc private + mutual exclusive loved by esti

[feverdreamsuggestion]

you’re bleeding out in a field on a summer day, you lose consciousness as the sun sets.

[torchbore-deactivated20260412]

“There’s a loss of personality; Or rather, you’ve lost touch with the person You thought you were. You no longer feel quite human.”

— T.S. Eliot, The Cocktail Party (via the-book-diaries)

[friendlylocalwhumper]

hi i’m here to talk about characters with aches

aches from old injuries. finicky battle wounds, stiff joints from being restrained in captivity - things that their body never erased, pain that reminds them every day of what they went through. maybe it’s obvious, like a limp, or maybe it’s something that is only clear with early morning stretches and groans. maybe the aches grow worse in rainy weather, or when they think about the injury that caused the soreness.

a character who has to live with aches, and the painful memories behind them.

[wholeadsa]

dwights ideal date is good seats at a cyclones home game

[wholeadsa]

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