pyrrhic self-care timeloop

Bea, 25, she/her or mirror pronouns. THE DOING IS THE HEALING!!!!!!!! <- tattoing this on my eyes

[wholesomeabelha]

I am not going to let myself down again I am not going to let myself down again I am not going to let myself down again, I am more than who I am letting myself be, I can be who I wish I was, one day this will be over, it gets worse before it gets better because I am trying. but oh MANNNNNNNNNN oh man oh man why does getting better have to feel like failure so much of the time?!?!?! <- i mean the answer is because getting better means not acting on my compulsions but we knew that already. literally so fucked up that refusing to be complicit in my own suffering feels like a weakness in my stale wretched freaked-out brain. i feel so far gone but i am not gone yet and i'm not gonna be gone before my time. i don't want to keep just being a collection of malapative coping mechanisms. it won't always be like this. i have to make it not be like this but finding the answers feels like defeat every day. shapeshifting into a better version of me is painful by design. i don't have to solve everything at once, i just have to keep living, and one day i will realise it feels good again. one day it won't feel like failure anymore in a way that ruins me. i am more than this i am more than this i am more than this. if i am worth anything later, i am worth something now. i am more alive than i think i am. a good alive. a real alive.

[wholesomeabelha]

guess what guess what it gets better. i am a good alive and i love living in myself and my confidence in the future feels real. i don't need a grand plan and i don't need to have everything fugured out but i'm holding onto myself in ways that are real, in ways i can softly control

[kosmogrl]

let’s all quit our jobs and just go on walks

[titsay]

[qekouu]

Nowhere to go but up. May your tools serve you well.

[inthesensethat]

[cordic]

its important to me that all y'all know that mannertee has an arch nemesis

his name is Ikanzame and he's a shark with bad driving etiquette!!

[butch-of-the-blades]

ikanzame!!! your people of virginia desire you carnally!!!!

[rednines]

If you add two pounds of sugar to literally one ton of concrete it will ruin the concrete and make it unable to set properly which is good to know if you wanna resist something being built, French anarchists used this to resist prison construction in the 80s

[catgirlcaliphate]

I’m just gonna go ahead and reblog this for purely educational purposes.

[valhallas-last]

Of course. Purely for education.

[in-your-wall-s]

WHO USED THIS POST TO WRITE A BEAUTIFUL ENJOLRAS/GRANTAIRE SOULMATE AU FIC BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

[rednines]

How do you people turn every fucking post into this shit?

[sacred-portal]

[nyanbinyuri]

[renthony]

It's wild to watch the phrase "tumblr sexyman" morph into "man that tumblr thinks is sexy," because when I first saw the phrase come into use, I always saw it used in reference to the phenomenon of "when presented with a wide array of fictional characters, tumblr will always pick the skinny white man to obsess over, and if the fan-favorite character has no canonical human appearance, the fandom will inevitably create a popular fanon of the character as as a skinny white man."

When I hear "tumblr sexyman," I think of Cecil Night Vale being constantly depicted as a skinny white man instead of literally anything else. I think of the background character white men who get elevated over protagonists that are women, people of color, or otherwise not the white man power fantasy.

"Tumblr sexyman" is, like. An insult. I DON'T want any of my blorbos to win a "tumblr sexyman" poll. "Tumblr sexyman" is the exact opposite of what I want my own OCs to be. If any of my characters ever get called "tumblr sexyman," I will have to immediately re-evaluate myself and the art I'm making.

[renthony]

Things I think of when I hear "tumblr sexyman":

Cecil Night Vale, as previously mentioned.

Oncelercest, because if there aren't two skinny white men to ship, tumblr fandom will start shipping the skinny white man with himself.

Bill Cipher inexplicably being fanon'd as a white twink despite being a fucking triangle.

Everyone fawning over Marvel Loki while shoving every woman and Black person in the MCU aside.

The way nearly every single character in Hazbin Hotel has the same "tall and skinny" body type, along with all the criticisms Black audience members have made about the issues with Alastor's design.

The way tumblr got obsessed with the white man villain in Sinners.

[brechtian]

oh god it must feel insane to play guildenstern every night and say that line at the end "There must have been a moment, at the beginning, where we could have said--no. But somehow we missed it. Well, we'll know better next time." Like an audience only has to see it play out once but as that actor every single night for months you have to watch this character re-forget and make the same choices and fight against the same tide towards the inevitable conclusion and swear that there's a way to do it differently next time. rinse repeat.

[rattyjol]

OP you might like this short story

[frontmansdog]

there’s a t-shirt that says “I survived a bad day and all I got was the rest of my life” and yeah I still think about it

[balaclava-trismegistus]

if i dont respond to a message from you i can basically guarantee its not because i dislike you. im just getting attacked by imps and shit all the time genuinely.

[atrusovaartist]

acrylic, canvas 40*50 cm «Lighthouse of the Northern Sunset» 2025

[slowedmountains]

redrew the art meme that was going round a few weeks ago because “make it good later” has never been that aspiration to me, it’s even been enough to just not make the thing I really want to make in the past.

make it now. Make it however. Maybe it’ll work out maybe it won’t Make it or it won’t exist.

[sylviashoneyedthoughts]

One of my favorite things about the disability community is how creative people become. People invent new ways to do things. New routines. New tools. New hobbies. New definitions of success. There is so much ingenuity in communities that have always had to adapt.

[wontonsoupinthemorning-deactiva]

message to all bitches

please survive

[badassdemonsword]

You couldnt come up with a jollier name for a bird if you tried

[minmos]

this thang has one of my favorite ebird descriptions of all time

[2-point-5]

not to be rude but some of y'all need to look on the bright side sometimes. like, yeah sure the world is fucked and people suck and we all die whatever, sure, but like. go outside.

[2-point-5]

ok i phrased this poorly, hang on.

i'm not saying the cure for depression is touching grass. however, if you surround yourself with sad things and talk about how terrible life is and how much you're suffering and never take a breath and remember it's not all bad, you'll end up making yourself worse.

[2-point-5]

like, i've been diagnosed with clinical depression, and anxiety, and insomnia, and chronic pain, and a million other things that get in the way of me having a simple fucking good day, but you know what?

i watch videos that make me happy and wear pretty clothes and cut my hair in fun styles and do my makeup and drink strawberry tea and take two showers a day and i look on the bright side because goddamnit if god is trying to break me down, he'll have to try harder.

i see so many people talk about how sad they are, who make their depression their first priority, and i get it, i really do, but you know that is actively harming your mental state, right? please, just do something nice for yourself, think positively for one day. i promise things get better when you step back and breathe.

[sideflorfauna]

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

[cervinelich]

happiness is not an achievable permanent state of being like "one day I'll be happy" it's a temporary, fluctuating feeling just like anger and sadness. the more water you give it the more it can bloom, even if only sometimes.