I remember. I remember my childhood friend whom I knew since kindergarten, her moving out of town and never talking to each other again; I mean, we were 8, we didnāt even know how phones worked.
I remember the friend whom introduced me to my favourite game, I still play it to this day and think about her sometimes. She was also considered an outcast, so in a way, we were the same.
I remember the friend with whom I would laugh about some dumb things, how weād surprisingly have a similar music taste, even though we were so different. I remember how our deep talks help me learn about myself. He was the reason Iāve realised I not a guy nor a girl. Iāve never told him that and Iām worried about him because of the people heās now friends with.
I remember the friend with whom I felt like the most basic bubbly character ever, how Iād always come up to them and strike up a conversation about our favourite game/character, how Iād worry Iām annoying them, even though theyād still talk to me. Iām scared about them. Iām worried about their mental health. I want them to still be alive. I wonder if they ever realised how much theyāve meant to me.
I remember my happy, extroverted friend, whoād almost always laugh, but not in the worrying way; she knew she could be honest about her feelings and she would always speak her mind when something bothered her. To this day I remember how happy she was when talking about how cute her crush looked (she looked so cute it made me smile) I just wish she didnāt leave me behind. But maybe I couldāve done more, maybe I couldāve expressed my feelings more cleary.
I remember that one friend who was kind, but she always felt a bit left out and so we were in the same situation. I remember it was one of the first times someone chose me first. Or, second maybe. Even still, she made me feel special in a way. I wish I talked to her more. But Iām glad she found new people. Iām glad sheās still the same girl who can be grateful. Iām glad she still smiles.
I remember the smartest boy from my class who turned out to be an absolute sweetheart. I remember how heād do some card tricks and Iād always be so shocked because I never knew how he did them. (I still donāt) He was so fun to be around, even though he was on the calmer side (personality-wise). Really respectful and kind. I wish Iād realised that sooner.
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