why can't i see the sun

poems and things

[whycantiseethesun]

the words of a

broken soul

are worth twice

as much as words

written with an

unbroken soul.

[whycantiseethesun]

and we both moved on

knowing 

that when the time was right

we would love again,

even if

we must wait until

another life. 

[whycantiseethesun]

and then

i realized

my heart

had been hurt so much

that I had let it go dormant

and when the feelings

came rushing back,

they weren’t for you

but for another,

for a love

that I had lost 

when my heart 

had remained

captive

with you.

[whycantiseethesun]

after loving you

my heart needed time

before accepting another . 

[whycantiseethesun]

a fantasy

someday

im going to run into you again

i always imagined it would be at a pub in london

where i look up

and lock eyes with you from across the room

and everything comes back

all of the love and pain

all at once

we will realize

the mistake we made

back when we were young

when our lives had yet to start

because, you see, our souls

they’re connected

like one

they always will be

but after that moment

in time in space

 we will carry on

going separate ways 

never to be together

but we will always have that one pub

where the memories of us will live

where we will lock eyes

and fall in love once again

before our minds can catch up

to our hearts.

[whycantiseethesun]

i love you for free

[whycantiseethesun]

the space between

and the space

between them

spoke more about

their love

than

giving in

to temptation

ever could. 

[whycantiseethesun]

nobody knows that i'm an artist

and i like it that way

my art existing

places where other people

don't think to look

[whycantiseethesun]

and when i didn’t know

what to do

i wrote books

of poems

about you

[whycantiseethesun]

and i felt our love

the moment that the

universe has spun too

many times for us

to exist,

at least in this world

anymore

- goodbye

[whycantiseethesun]

and so

we moved forward

with our mundane lives

taking comfort

in the future

we knew we shared

together

someday

[whycantiseethesun]

i realized that

i had lost the love

of another

when the feelings

that had been

suffocated by

the weight of

you became

free

[whycantiseethesun]

brave are those

who have the strength

to walk away

from love

when the timing isn’t yet right.

[whycantiseethesun]

being in love is different than i thought it was

youll understand when you find him

[whycantiseethesun]

this is the year of blue skies

[whycantiseethesun]

i think about you every day

[whycantiseethesun]

daily goals

1. be friendly to everyone

2. find a new song

3. take care of my body

4. be confident

5. treat everyone with respect

6. make 5 new friends

7. spin negatives into positives

8. find something that makes you smile

9. work hard

10. spend time with family

11. change someone's perspective

12. make my parents proud

13. be a good role model

14. make the world a little bit better