why the hail not

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A bunch of selfies from the last month! :3

I've been finding things I love about my body when it's sitting, there's so many lovely shapes happening with my arms and stomach? It's been a nice healing thing to recognize things I enjoy about my body from what I've shied away from in the past! 💖 The shirt was mainly for the car ride so I don't get sunburnt while I'm driving 😂

I also chopped off some hair for a more dramatic hime cut (I think my hairdresser was nervous doing too much)! Tragically it's summer so I never have my hair down 😔 so I'm hyped for cooler weather to come! 🥳

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I had to run some quick errands this morning and it's SOOOO sweaty out 🤧 but cute top time at least! 🥳💕

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I don't wear makeup too much, but I wanted to play around with my usual go-to look this morning :3

Just some concealer, blush and a little eyeshadow (and blended out eye pencil)! And Vaseline because I can't wear lipsticks/glosses 😅 but was feeling cute and wanted to share! 💖

I feel like something I want to get back to doing is just even doing a quick eye look like this every now and then! I love just putting a light shadow and/or shimmer on the inner corners - it makes me feel so bright ✨

There's something about makeup that is just so fun and fascinating!! I love watching people's routines and picking up tips (when I get around to practicing them)! Really any sort of gram video is just lovely! It scratches my brain so nicely :3

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It's crazy looking back on childhood photos when at the time you were made to feel like the ugliest thing imaginable and when you look at them now you were just an absolutely adorable kid? Like what the fuck??? All I can see is a beautiful, incredibly sad, uncomfortable child doing their best through undiagnosed mental illness and an eating disorder. I love them so much and I'm so proud of them.

Fuck those adults and bullies for projecting all their shit. I can have compassion for you for your insecurities but I can also say you fuckin SUCK and I hope karma finds you 👏👏👏✨✨✨ I carry multitudes of sympathy and rage.

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It got cold again which makes me SO HAPPY!!! I had to run to the market this morning so cute outfit time! :3 Also more side profiles because I want to normalize it for myself! I used to hate seeing my side profile - largely because it reminds me of my father - and because sharp jawlines are so coveted and EVERYWHERE!! But I've been really loving my profile more and more lately 💖 there's something so classical and romantic in a soft jawline and chin 🥰

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omg i have such bad dysmorphia and low self-esteem, but you're SOOO gorgeous and pretty... and you look like me..? 🥺

i think you changed the chemicals in my brain because omg are we hot?? is this the hot girl summer everyone talks about?? I think your transcendant beauty has radicalized me..? 😍✨

(im so so sorry if this is rude btw,,,!! im so bad with tones, i just meant this is very inspiring to me as a big person and how we SHOULD be allowed to embrace feeling hot and looking cute and showing skin and unapologetically feeling GOOD about ourselves!!)

Hell YES!!! THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT!! 🥳👏💖💕💖💕

This is not rude at all, you are so sweet to send this and this means the absolute world to me!! 🥹💖💖💕💕 I am so happy and flattered that seeing me helped you recognize how beautiful you are too! That makes me elated to hear!!

We are unfortunately given such a horrifically narrow definition to what beauty is and it takes a lot of constant effort to unlearn and expand that definition over time! And struggling with dysmorphia and self esteem makes it even harder! The more people you look at and see their beauty (that are outside thin and white standards), the more beautiful the world gets! And it becomes a practice to keep doing!! All of our traits that we have - our soft bellies, our large arms, our soft chins, our hair, our noses, our wrinkles, our stretch marks - they all contribute our own beautiful unique architecture. And especially in the current (constant) epidemic of sameness - isn't it so beautiful and lovely to be different? Isn't it amazing to be so singular? Your very presence adds to any scenery you visit, breaking through the monotony that people see on their screens or on tv. We all become reminders to just how beautiful the world is.

And through another lens : The capitalist, white supremacist world WANTS you to feel like shit because that's the how they make money and exercise more power over you (and isolate you). The best way to fight back is to feel utter joy in your body. To recognize just how beautiful you were all along! And how beautiful you'll continue to be as life grows and changes us!!! 💖💖

I apologize for the long ramble response! This is just something I'm deeply passionate about and I'm always happy to hear someone else recognizing their beauty!!

This IS the hot girl summer you have heard about and you are the pièce de résistance!! I wish you nothing but hotness ahead!! Much love to you anon!!! 🎉💕💖💕💕💖😎😎💕💕💖💖

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My gosh ain’t you pretty 😍

Awwww thank you!! 🫣💕💕

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I wish u were in my area I want youuuu <3 if ur ever in MN I hope we find each other on bumble!

Omg I completely missed this but you're too sweet!! 😂💖 I don't think I'll be in MN anytime soon but I hope you find someone lovely! 🥳💕

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It was so hot working at my desk today but I felt cute and I wanted to share :3 embrace those soft chins and arms and legs and bellies - it's hot season which means we must be hot with it! 👏💖

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Sooo I was excited by chopping off a lot of hair that I was smiling through a not so great haircut and experience 🙃 however!! The salon was really nice and I was able to get in today to get it fixed! 🙏💖 I ended up fixing one side a little bc it was uneven after my hair settled (we cut it dry/slightly misted bc it was a comped fix) and I ended up making it a smidge more choppy in front to be a little closer to what I was thinking :3 hopefully I'm not delusional but I think it looks cute!! 🫣💕

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This big bitch got her haircut hehehehe :3 still needs to dry and now I have to get used to my bangs with my glasses!! But!!! Feeling kinda cute!! 🥰💕💖 Also feat my outfit for the day! 💕

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Went for cozy, toasty, witchy vibes for my doc appt this afternoon, and when I got back my new glasses were here!! I've wanted to try the clear-style type frames for a while after loving the wire frames! And I think these are going to look extra cute when I get bangs again! 🥰💕✨

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My comfy outfit for going to renew my library card because I have a car now and I want to practice driving again and I was passed on a job interview because they already hired someone 🫠 the library desk clerk was so nice even though I look so washed out and tired! Thank you Linda, you're a real one 😩🤧🙏💖💖💖

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Just did my big move back to my hometown this past weekend - my head is reeling and I'm trying to get settled so I can get back to work, but at least Bogart is getting comfortable and cozy hehe 🥰

It's nice having space again, and I want to get back into these bite sized moments of seeing myself and my body. In this heightened age of ozempic weight loss and conformity, it feels more important than ever to appreciate and love your body and find beauty in yourself and day to day, even if it's overcast and you're wearing sweatpants 💖

Stay nourished and full and powerful - when they want us frail and weak, we get heavy and strong 💪💖

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Sometimes one must do a hot girl photoshoot to realize that this dress is for the donation bin 😔 but we shall look hot while doing it 😔👏💖

I thrifted this ages ago and repaired it, and now it's back to the thrift again 😂 sometimes that's just how it is!

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Bro the bangs look so good!!!!!!! My opinion as a random internet stranger doesn't matter BUT. i love ur bangs girl

OMGGGG thank you for your input!!! 🥹🙏🙏💖💖 Honestly having some outside opinions is helpful for this because I'm so on the fence!!! It took such a long time to grow them out but I feel an itch for them again! This is so helpful to hear as I think of a decision, so thank you!! 🫡💖💖💖

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As my brain is in moving flux, I've been struck with dumb, inconsequential mental debates! And I've been thinking of whether I prefer bangs or no bangs lately 🤔

Part of it is definitely that I haven't NOT had bangs in so long!! And also, I feel like my hair right now looks best if I have my front strands pulled back. Maybe I just need to mentally get used to this sort of minimal "styling" that I need to do with my hair now? Maybe that's just the dumb hurdle I need to get over?

Anyways, just wanted to write it out here to get it out of my head and in front of me so I can figure it out! There's one million more pressing things to think about but hey! It's fun giving thought to the small things too 🎉💕

*this is why it's helpful! Now that I'm looking I feel like I do like how my hair is right now! Maybe I just need to learn to play with it more!

**I lied I'm back to being unsure!! 😩