actually the Erik plotline is so sick and twisted like- imagine finding out that the person you've been putting on a pedestal all your life, who felt like your only friend at times in your life and whose approval and guidance you seek even after their death, might have been fundamentally against you and actively supported the mocking, humiliation and hurting of you and anybody like you. And they cannot change or explain themselves to you or make it up or do anything to make it better or make you understand. And you cannot even be mad at them because they're not around anymore and you miss them too much to be angry.

















