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dysfunctional blitz family ™ feels

#i don't remember what my tags are #but this is cute !!!

dreamzanarkands:

blinking back the moisture in his eyes, he shook his head. “ you don’t have to do this, mom… it wasn’t your fault either! ” it was Jecht’s, his mind rang bitterly, more habit than anything. he wasn’t sure how much of that he believed anymore. altogether, the memories of his childhood stung, worse than any physical injury he’d suffered, but seeing her this way– his mother, who’d he only ever wanted to make happy, all his life… it hurt worse. somehow, he always made her sad, didn’t he? voice low but spiked with emotion, he practically pleaded with her. “ it was a long time ago, and– we can’t change it. I just… let’s forget about it, okay? ” he’d pushed down the feelings for so long, and he wasn’t eager to suddenly address them now. he didn’t even want to think of the past. ( it hurt, too much. ) “ can’t we just… start over? we can do that, right…? ”

“ i just... wanted to make things right... “ she wanted to get him to ease up on jecht, and see that she was just as much to blame as he was. but the tone of his voice... she could drop it, for now.

“ y-yeah... we can start over. “

#dreamzanarkands #srry this is short #but have this feelsy thread from forever ago #bc i guess sara decided she wanted to be active #????

dreamzanarkands:

he’s stunned, by the warmth of her hand ( it’s still so surreal, her being here, physically able to touch ), but more by her words. he couldn’t pretend that in his childish mind, it hadn’t felt like she left him. but he was older now. he understood. he had felt something like that, too; the kind of love that could drive you to grief… he closed his hand over hers, shook his head, voice soft. “ don’t, mom. don’t blame yourself for that. everything… turned out okay, you know? I think… maybe it made me stronger… and– I’m sorry. maybe if I had been stronger, back then… maybe it wouldn’t have been so hard on you. ” it wasn’t until his own apology poured out that he felt the sting of tears. he had always felt guilty; guilty for being so needy and asking so much of her. maybe, if he had been less of a burden… things could have been different. but he couldn’t change that now. “ I’m sorry… ”

❝ you were a child, you weren’t supposed to be strong. i was supposed to be strong, i was supposed to take care of you ! ❞ there’s anger in her voice, but it’s not directed at him, never at him. a shaky hand runs through her hair, and it’s getting harder to keep from crying.

❝ i hate that i made you think that way ---- you have nothing to be sorry for. i wasn’t the mother i should’ve been, and that’s not your fault. ❞

#dreamzanarkands #the icon looks like she's yelling she's not she's just v sad #this is all v sad

dreamzanarkands :

“ I… get what you’re saying. nobodies perfect. but, you don’t have to apologize. I… ” he almost says he’s over it, but that would be a lie. a lie for her peace of mind, but still a lie. he tries to smile, though it felt just as dishonest. “ it was a long time ago, so let’s just forget about it. okay? ”

❝ i do have to apologize, tidus. i was so selfish ---- i never should’ve left you. you should’ve been first, always. i’m so, so sorry. ❞ she has to stop herself there, because she’s about to cry. so instead, she reaches out for his hand, hoping he’d forgive her.

#dreamzanarkands #i havE SO MANY FEELINGS #I'M D YING

@dreamzanarkands | continued from here.

it’s sweet that he still thinks that, and she absolutely hates to ruin it for him. but she has to -- she needs him to know that she isn’t completely blameless in the ship wreck that was his childhood.

❝ i made some mistakes... a lot of mistakes. ❞

#dreamzanarkands #i'm cr ying