I wish you could’ve loved me the way I love you I wish I made you feel safe the way you made me I wish you could’ve opened up while you know every little part of me I wish I didn’t let myself believe you were different because maybe it wouldn’t hurt so much I try to hide it because I don’t want you to blame yourself I try to hide it because I don’t know if I’m strong enough to let go of you completely but I think that’s what you want you say you don’t but we both know I still know you better than anyone else just one look at you and I could tell what you where thinking I learned every part of that you let me see and I loved every part of you that you didn’t let me see I wish we could’ve made it like we said we would I wish I could believe that it could work out for us in the future I wish I could let myself hold onto the fact that maybe one day it will work out I wish I didn’t feel like I was losing the friendship that you said we would always have I wish I didn’t question if you loved me half as much as I loved you and I wish I wasn’t your first real relationship because maybe if it wasn’t I could’ve been the person who got you forever I wish i could be upset but we were one of the best things that ever happened to me and I may have been your first love but I know I won’t be your last but I’m the person you trusted enough to be that person because I will never regret loving you and I will forever be honored that I was the person you trusted enough to let yourself love me I wish I was okay but I’m so proud of how much you have grown you will forever have a piece of me
