Old Vent Blog

Side blog dedicated to my BPD, life, and more

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This blog is for venting or whatever loose thought i have that might get some concerning looks if i shared anywhere else

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this blog is being deleted on the 20th, dm me if you wanna chat or be friends or something. i have a new blog

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once i get my drivers license ill drive and sit in random fields whenever my parents make me hate my life (which would become an everyday thing)

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parents acting shocked when you get defensive when you talk to them when the only way they talk to you is attacking and accusing

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"I know who he is" YOU DON'T

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I'm glad that happened to you, you deserved it <3

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BPD spiraling and past trauma is actively having to temporarily distance yourself from your best friend because past trauma of "they're gonna take this out of context, say i'm wrong, and abandon me" even though they very obviously didn't and actually agreed with you

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I scroll past videos of very clear overconsumption. I'm not watching a video where you have every shade of lipstick and lipstick liners under the sun but most of it is not going to be used. I'm not watching someone who has 30 half used perfumes, 50 of the same water bottles in different colors, 80 of the same toys that the person will only care about until the trend is over. Overconsumption should not be this popular.

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"Just wait until you're older, a job is so much harder than school. growing up sucks" hey, so, don't say this to someone, especially a mentally ill teenager. you saying "it gets worse" to someone who hates life so much already will not make them strive for a good life if they know life will suck even more when they get out of highschool

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I really enjoy those people who are blunt but yappers. like it makes it really easy to tell they like me whereas with other people its very hard to tell. I think thats also why I dislike people who are nice 24/7 because I can never tell if they're just being nice or actually like me and it comes off a little backhanded. I like nice people but you can sometimes tell when they're just nice and never anything else.

I also really like people who love yapping but love to hear other people yap. Ive been friends with too many people who will yap but will get uncomfortable when you yap and it kinda sucks being in that group because its like, why are you even hanging out with me if you don't like to hear me talk? I don't like when people will just be like "okay" "cool" and then will go back to talking about themselves

I always feel so out of place and theres really only one person who hasn't made me feel that way because of her actions. I only feel out of place because of my head when i'm around her and not how she treats me

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My poor eating habits didn't derive from poor body image, it came from my family not caring about whether or not there was food for me to eat

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the friend group was so awful I'm having nightmares about them a year later

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calling someone neurospicy feels saneist idk. I've been called it before and it feels like I'm being infantilized and bullied

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cant tell if this guy is mansplaining and being incredibly misogynistic or he's actually just a fucking idiot

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It's not that I don't like you, you just act like the person who left me at my lowest and I'm noticing the signs of you doing the same thing when share my experiences

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people lying to you all the time and then not wondering why you don't trust them amaze me (negative) like no shit I don't trust you, you're actively lying to me about small and large shit, you're also withholding information from me

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I stopped waiting