Willxw

I draw, I create, I write, I roleplay. ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦ . 　⁺ 　 . ✦ . 　 My name is Willow! | Minor. I mainly make Steven Universe AU content. Feel free to interact!

[willowhxn]

I remade my old steven universe OC! Her name is Teal Diamond.

She is the daughter of Blue and Yellow diamond. She was made a short while after Pink Diamond's death to try and mend their grieves, though it doesn't work out well because she's the mix of Blue and Yellow and you know that can't turn out well. Though when she was first born, she tried her best to comfort, mend and please both Blue and Yellow but she never succeeded at all and just partially gave up on genuinely helping them out. Her personality is rather complex at times, but I usually portray her as cold and numb. Her ability is to numb the target's sensations. Unlike Blue's power that causes the target to cry--she makes all of their emotions and sensations numb. The only downside is she will absorb the target's emotions and sensations, feeling all of it. If her target is injured and she uses her power on them, they will be numb and possibly paralyzed temporarily--but she'll feel the pain of their injuries as well as their emotions. Her relationship with her parents is complicated. She's conflicted whether to call them mom or call them by their name. With Yellow, she expects Teal to be as structured and disciplined as her. She scolds Teal every time she shows any negative emotion, afraid that it will affect her work quality and affect Blue's condition. Forcing her to suppress her emotions every time she's around them and eventually going numb emotionally later on. Yellow focuses on making sure Teal does her duty both as their daughter and a diamond flawlessly. With Blue, Teal is expected to be an emotional pillar for her. Blue always vent to Teal and uses her as some sort of grief container. Blue treats Teal softly and gentler than she does with others--but that just came from the regret of treating Pink badly before. She expects Teal to understand her without any explanation, and Teal tries her best to comfort Blue no matter what and even uses her power on Blue multiple times when she ask. Teal learned to just accept it and do it without any complains. She hates the slightest mention of Rose Quartz, and possibly Pink as well. She hates Rose Quartz for killing Pink, causing her to be born out of two diamonds' grief, not love. She dislikes Pink for being rebellious and "childish", as how Blue and Yellow described her. This is the first design and full body reference of her Pearl. Bear with me it is ugly because I drew her using a mouse

Now her pearl have closed eyes, which we call fox eyes. And some doodles I did today!

[ruthion]

mmm yes.

[willowhxn]

Eughhh i have been so tired and busy with work lately. I got sleepy mid-drawing too so I couldn't finish the second page. :( Here are some small doodles I drew today!

[makethepixelspretty]

Project Algae: Prologue

"Self-memo entry 8163: Ponderings during travel, 13-16-74735 P.D.E. Initiated by Firework Diamond" Firework sighs, inspecting the live feed from one of the many oceans in Homestead biodomes like his own personal fish tank while he waits out the ride to Homeworld "The ability to survive is one that life seems to answer simply until other questions arise. A miracle of existence in my opinion is something inconspicuous: Algae. Tiny colonies of microscopic survivors living on water and sunlight in whatever environment they find themselves in, a remarkable achievement in a universe so vast and full of harm. it spreads across land and sea with ease and slow movement, impossible to fully stop and just as hard to be stopped by it. It is, by all definitions, A durable life-arrangement.." His pearl chimes in, quiet and calm "Speaking of arrangements, remind me why Iridescence is leading this envoy to Homeworld, my diamond?" He glances down at her, and then back at his screen to start tapping out landing sequences "...We're to intercept and declare connection with a new diamond. Mother insists she's going to be damaged psychologically if we don't intervene. I for one have no intention of letting them repeat the pain and emotional trauma they let pink have, not on anyone- not especially that new diamond mother mentioned..."

"I can only hope they choose the peaceful release of Teal, instead of a fight they've already lost before its wagered."

[willowhxn]

I did something unbelievable..

FULL COLOR REF OF TEAL!!

It may not be full body but at least I did something lol. I'm still deciding whether to make her hair light colored like the other gems/diamonds or darker colored. I think she's already beautiful this way, what do you think?

[willowhxn]

Hello again! I remember you said teal feels conflicted about wether to call blue and yellow mom, are they aware of this?, do they prefer to be called mom or their names?

In Era 2 before they learn the dynamic of a family, they normally call each other by their names. But in Era 3 after Steven teaches them about it, Blue and Yellow wants to explore that dynamic and calls Teal their child/daughter while Teal is conflicted but learns to call them Mom/Mother during her process of emotional recovery! Yes they are aware of Teal's confliction and pressured her sometimes but later respects it and just waited for her to recover and choose to do it herself, from Steven's advice.

[willowhxn]

What kind of Drawing App do you use?

I use Ibispaint on PC! :)

[willowhxn]

To clarify

Teal

Shatters them both right 

Nope, just threatened to

[willowhxn]

As the offspring of a Dictator and a Shatterer, I thought it's an interesting characteristic to explore. She has the strictness and perfectionism of Yellow, while also having the will of brutal destruction like Blue. Though she sometimes hesitate on shattering the gems of her court. She learned to be like this from her parents, since there are no good examples around to show her the better ways of leadership. My neck and eyes have been hurting and my energy have been low lately. I might post lazy comics or doodles more T_T

[willowhxn]

Teal relationship with white diamond must be the fucking worst

I can’t imagine them having a very healthy relationship

She might even openly be marked as emotional replacement for pink by white

White seems to say how she thinks it is

They barely even get to talk because of White's ego. It's really nothing different from how White treats Blue and Yellow, White just sees Teal as a regular new Diamond and not much else. If Yellow dictates successfully and contributed tons to the gem empire but she doesn't even get to talk to White(Reference from the episode "Change your mind"), then why should Teal be able to? The only time they get to talk was when Teal was first emerged, Yellow could only introduce her for a short amount of time.

[willowhxn]

Grief.

I made Teal Diamond, not to only satisfy my needs as a Bellow shipper but also to represent what it's like to be a "Rainbow Child" and also to represent how grief of child loss can affect a family as whole. Yes Pink diamond isn't exactly their child but for the sake of proper real world mental health awareness, she serves as that role in this dynamic. Yellow's type of grief as shown in both the show and my AU is called "Controlled grief" or "Avoidant grief". Yellow avoids all sort of mistakes that led to Pink's death, not wanting a single flaw to be made by Teal to prevent the same incident happening again. She doesn't let the grief consume her whole, but the desire to avoid flaws lead to heavy perfectionism projected onto Teal. Also forcing Teal to stay emotionally stable and not show any weakness nor negative emotions so that she won't turn out like Pink and Blue will be able to rely on her. Blue's type of grief is very common. As shown in both the show and my AU, it's called "Attachment based grief". Blue is in a state of mourning most of the time after Pink's death, still keeping rose quartzes bubbled in the human zoo to keep what's left of Pink's things, and still holding onto memories of her. She relies on Teal for emotional support, so much that it drains Teal as whole internally. When her grief gets too much, she begs Teal to help erase it for her own temporarily relief. Teal exists between two opposing forms of grief. One pushes her to be perfect, one pulls her to stay. She's expected to never break and to hold everything together. She's not Pink, but she's constantly compared to what was lost. Not directly, but through fear, control and dependency. She develops a fawn response from all of this. This is not to justify any child abuse, but to represent and explain how loss can shape a family differently.

[willowhxn]

Have a small doodle of Era 3 in my AU for today! It's 11pm and I feel kind of sleepy but the idea of Era 3 just came up in my mind. I thought i'd give you all a small spoiler! Well, also to prepare for some angst next. That's all of the motivation I have left for today. p_p

[willowhxn]

I just had a really bad day so I don't have any motivation to draw at all.. But here's some screenshots i've taken from my tomodachi life island!

[willowhxn]

Maybe you should teal

Ordering some gems around

Also, did you think about how she would affect the resource crisis with her essence?

We just know it was for that was needed to stabilize it so

Maybe she kind of stabilized it 

Yes she’s designed to kind of be an external balance and stabilizer. But her unstable energy might affect small things if it gets too much. Though she’s able to control her instability to protect the environment! I’d definitely include Teal commanding gems around in one of my doodles to be honest I love that idea 🙏

[willowhxn]

Does Teal have a Spinel? Or was she given Pink's old Garden and by extent Pink's Spinel?

Teal Spinel would probably make a good friend for Pink's Spinel.

Currently she doesn't have a spinel since she primarily focuses on her duties, she doesn't have a sense of fun in a way that Pink Diamond had. Maybe because she doesn't even know the word "fun" yet X( But as her story develops, i'll keep that in mind!

[willowhxn]

What does Teal's full body look like in color?

I haven't dug deep into her full color palette yet, but @makethepixelspretty helped me figure something out with little adjustments! Though it's not fully canon of course since I haven't posted an actual full body reference of her yet T_T Decent art later, sketches and doodles first

[yurivettxe]

sometimes i forget i have tumblr….. but here ya goo!! Human bellow diamond designssss

love them